Feeling guilty and sad

August 20, 2020 YourMoneySlave Comments 13 comments

It happened. I always thought my findom addiction was under control and was not interfering with my private life…but I was wrong. And not because of my spendings, those are actually totally under control (remember how I found my balance?), but because of my…wanking habit. Or at least that’s what I think this is, perhaps it’s deeper I don’t know.

I Love Her

First of all, I love my wife with all my heart. She is always my first thought about anything that I do, and I would never do anything to harm her. In all these years I made sure I protected my marriage from all the dangers of Financial Domination. That’s why I managed to find a balance on my spendings, and that’s why I never risked getting caught. If there is a slight risk, I just don’t even go online. She is my main priority.

My failure

But there is one thing that seems to be affecting us: my lack of sexual drive. Recently, we just don’t have sex enough. It’s about once a month, sometimes even less…and it’s not because she’s not beautiful, because she is. It’s probably because she doesn’t represent what my sexual fantasies are always about, she doesn’t even come close to what I need to get excited…and that’s starting to be an issue.

Two nights ago we spent an hour talking about this (well, talking…arguing I should say). She ended up crying, thinking this is all her fault. That I don’t like her anymore and stuff like that. We ended up cuddling and having sex …but since then I feel guilty. Extremely guilty. The one thing I never wanted to happen, it’s happening. I’m hurting her. And it’s all because I probably spend too much time fantasizing on Financial Domination goddesses and stuff like that.

Is there a solution?

How can I solve this? I don’t know. The only solution I see seems impossible: many times I tried, and always failed to quit money slavery. This is who I am, this is an important part of myself, and I can’t be happy without it.
All I’m doing these days is giving more and more attention to her needs, always been there for her (even more than before), and of course, having sex more often but… how long this will last? How long till I will stop feeling guilty, and just get back as I was before?

I have no answers at the moment. I’m just sad.

My Need To Be In Touch With Goddess Ishtar

July 17, 2020 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

It’s no secret that Goddess Ishtar has strong power on me, a power with which She made me overtake the highest fear I had: the one for a real-time session (remember? I spoke about it here).

I have been serving Her for ages now, and my weakness for Her only grew stronger and stronger. No day passes by without me thinking about Her, looking at Her Twitter, dreaming about my next session with Her.

And I can never get enough.

It’s not enough to have a session with Her every time I can.

Not enough to look at Her Twitter more than once during the day.

And even less enough to buy all Her iWantClips videos.

I need more and more.

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That’s why I was super happy when I saw She opened her personal Loyal Fans page, a few days ago.

I joined that the very first day She opened it, and it’s getting better and better as days pass by. Her posts, videos, and pictures are inspiring (to say the least), it’s something more intimate than her Twitter. I feel like I’m closer in touch with Her. She also started to offer short sessions for all Her fans, and believe me it’s fantastic to be all there at Her feet at the same time, showing Her our devotion.

Do I look desperate? Yeah, maybe I do. But I don’t care. I just want to be more and more in touch with Her. I just want to feel Her power over me as often as possible. And whatever way I can do that, I will. If she will give us, slaves, other ways to follow Her, believe me, I will. And I will be happy to do so.

Here are all the ways I use to be in touch with Goddess Ishtar
🔗 Live Cam
🔗 Loyal Fans
🔗 Skype
🔗 iWantClips
🔗Twitter

The Findom Cycle

June 13, 2020 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

I have been a moneyslave for more than 10 years now, and sometimes I like to sit back and take a look at my actions from an “external” point of view: it’s interesting to find common paths that happen over and over the years, some common sequence of events that characterize me as a moneyslave.

There is one in particular that I can see repeating itself over and over, almost daily in some periods, it’s the one I like to call: The Findom Cycle.

It’s for sure nothing that anyone into financial domination for a while doesn’t know about yet, but perhaps it will be interesting to describe its phases to those that still didn’t notice it.

1 – The Caution

Every moneyslave starts by trying to be cautious: we always believe we can hold back, we can control ourselves. So we kinda look at our Goddess (or more than one) from a distance, taking brief looks at their pictures, briefly reading their messages on Twitter, but always ending up with a reason to don’t spend. With a reason why we should just look away and get on with our life. How long this work for changes from slave to slave and, more important, from period to period. There are certain periods of my life where I can be cautious for a few days only before going to the next phase, other times I can stay longer. It all depends on many different things: from the situation in my real life, till how satisfactory (and expensive) was my last session and yes, also the kind of “signals” I get from Goddesses (for a clear example, read my article about how “Variety triggers me“.

As time goes by though, we all start to feel the urge of a session, of a tribute. That little voice in our head saying “come on, why not? Isn’t it what you really want to be happy?”. Perhaps we try to fight this little voice for a while…but soon enough the next phase happens.

2 – The Enjoyment

That’s it. Enough being cautious. Enough holding back. We embrace our nature, we need to do what we desire the most. Looking at our Goddess (or at Goddesses) has a different meaning now, we NEED a session, we NEED a small thing that “ticks” our desire, that makes us do that final step, that makes us embrace what we are and makes us crawl at a Goddess to beg for a session. It can be a twit, a picture, something she says, a particular moment of our life…we are basically only looking for a pretext. For a reason to send a tribute or have a session. And when that happens, we fully enjoy our fetish. We are money slaves and, at that moment, we are totally happy with our nature. The session happens, the drain happens, our happiness starts from now and lasts till the session… or even a bit more actually.

3 – The Day After

And then there is the day after. What happens after a drain session? How do we feel when we cool down? How do we feel thinking back at what we did? Well, it depends. We don’t all react the same way, and we don’t react each time the same way. But I can bet that most of the time, we regret what we did. We regret the big-spending, the big weakness, the uncontrollable desire to send money. It’s what we love, it’s what made us happy during the session but… then there are real-life consequences. Could I have spent that money in a better way? Could have I saved them for later? Why did I have to spend them all in such a short time?

Anyway, the last phase usually doesn’t last long. Unless we are in one of those life moments for a money slave when we say “ok fuck it, I need to stop all this forever”, the regret doesn’t last more than a day or two. After that, usually, the first phase comes back… in the never-ending Findom Cycle.

Money is meant to be spent, don’t hold back

May 14, 2020 YourMoneySlave Comments 2 comments

Everything about Financial Domination starts (and ends) with money. This is quite an obvious fact: we get excited when we pay the Domme, when she takes money from us or when she abuses our weaknesses to bring us in giving her more and more. The dilemma is always the same: how much should we spend?

Giving her everything

In a perfect financial domination relationship, the slave gives everything to his Goddess, leaving her all the control on what he can or cannot spend. If he can eat, if he can buy some clothes. Everything. But this is very rare, not many of us can commit to such a life.

Giving only what’s left

The opposite way is the safest one: you define a budget you are willing to spend and stick to it. With no exceptions. That way, you can perfectly live your financial domination relationship while still living a normal life. More often than not this starts as a good idea, and soon enough we fail to apply it. The urge to spend is too high, our self control too low. Moreover, this is also not exciting: the danger to spend too much is part of what we find exciting, let’s don’t deny it.

Always spend more than you planned

It may look too risky perhaps, but this is probably the best way to live Financial Domination. Try to plan your expenses but…don’t hold back. If giving to your Goddess makes you feel good, by all means, go for it. There are people who spend thousands of euros on vacations, others spend it on sports cars, on clothes, shoes…so why can’t we spend a lot on what makes us feel better? Are there some risks in this? Sure there are, the same risks people take when they buy a new car which is far from a safe budget. But they still do. Because money is meant to be spent on things that make us feel good. Never hold back, go for it and you won’t have regrets.

And you? How do you live your financial domination?

8 ways you can STILL have online sessions while stuck at home with your wife (updated, were 5!)

March 27, 2020 YourMoneySlave Comments 2 comments

This post has been updated since its first release, with a few ideas sent by readers of this blog and followers on Twitter

Probably the vast majority of married slaves out there are facing now a huge problem: they are locked up at home with their wives, and serving their Goddess seems impossible.

While surely this won’t be an easy task for anyone, I thought of making a list of the methods I came up with, after ages of experience in online sessions while being married.

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1. Lock yourself in the bathroom

This is probably the oldest method to hide from your wife, and it almost never fails. Of course, you are limited to use your mobile phone to have the session with your Goddess, but at least you have some time for yourself. This doesn’t work well if you are used to leaving the bathroom door unlocked all the time (crazy!) or if you are one of those who are always very quick in there (how you do that, I’ll never know)

2. Go to bed early

Yes, this can be an easy solution. When is the only time your wife isn’t around? During the night when she sleeps. So why not wake up in the middle of the night, like 3 am, and have a session with your Goddess?

Little problem here is that your Goddess also has to be around at that time, so check that up first. But if she’s available to have a late-night session, or if your timezone difference makes this even more possible, by all means, go for it.

3. Lock your wife in another room

A bit extreme but, if played right, it can actually work! Pretend the door lock is suddenly broken, or that you wanted to make a prank to her but it got wrong because the lock got broken. Then, all in panic, pretend you call someone to fix the door, and that it will take them 1 hour or more to get there since everything is locked up because of the Corona Virus. The perfect solution for a longer session, although it can’t be repeated more than once I guess. It works best if you can lock her in the kitchen or in any other room where it won’t be too hard for her to spend one hour (hint: a television should be present), that way she won’t shout at you for too long.

4. Find her an online lover

You need to be careful here since this could backfire big time when the lockdown is finished. A way to have time on your own is to keep her as much busy as possible so…why don’t you find someone who can pretend to hit upon her? It works better if he’s handsome and even better if you can trust him (unless you want to get rid of her for good!). Once she will start flirting with him, she will spend more and more time on her mobile, probably as much away from you as possible, giving you plenty of time to spend with your Goddess. As weird as this sounds, it can actually work in giving you the little bit of privacy that you desperately need.

5. Pretend you need to be isolated from her

Ok, this is maybe not a very serious method…but let’s just pretend we are serious. Works only during a pandemic but hey, that’s where we are now! Just tell her you’ve been in the same room with a person that was discovered having the Corona Virus and, for her safety, you need to be totally isolated from her for 14 days. You need your own room and bathroom for this, but for the next 14 days, she won’t be able to be in touch with you, giving you plenty of time to have as many sessions as you want!

6. Watch a movie she hates

It’s quite common to sit down and watch a movie after dinner, before going to bed. But what if you decide to watch something your wife hates? Like a horror movie? If you stick to it, she will most probably go to bed, leaving you all the time in the world to go and visit your Goddess.

7. Take long bike rides

This can be done only if the situation in your country allows that, but if it does… go out for a bike ride, look for a secluded park bench, get your smartphone and…enjoy some time with your favorite Goddess!

8. Wake up early

Does your wife usually wakes up late, especially now that she’s not working? Perfect! Wake up early and enjoy some long, long, long time for yourself. Well, better said…time for your Goddess!

Of course, this post doesn’t really pretend to have the right solution for your specific situation, but I hope it will give you some ideas. While this pandemic goes on, we must try to live it as best as possible so for us, online slaves, it becomes mandatory to find a way to still go online while the wife is home. What’s your method? why don’t you tell me here in the comments section how you are hiding your sessions from your wife in this quarantine times?

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Being a moneyslave during a pandemic

March 17, 2020 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

It has been a while since I last wrote on this blog and I guess you all know the reason: I’m Italian, living in Italy, and I’m locked home because of the Corona Virus pandemic.

Locked home means that I can’t leave the house unless it’s for a really important reason: health, grocery shopping, work.

I’m one of those lucky workers that can do pretty much the same job no matter where I am, so the company where I work put us on remote working ever since this situation began. It’s good to have fewer reasons to go out because I have fewer chances to get this nasty virus, but at the same time, it means I have even fewer chances to be alone.

It can get pretty frustrating to stay home with your family all the time: it’s always you and them, them and you. No ways to see colleagues from office, friends, nothing. It’s just you and your family members. Of course, you do love them, you love them a lot but… damn it’s just you and them! So what’s the solution to escape from all this? I guess you know my answer already.

Financial Domination helps you during the pandemic lockdown

I am spending more than usual these days: with all going on in the world, I NEED a distraction as never before. I NEED to have my brain controlled by someone else. I NEED to stop worrying about this virus and just have a session where I don’t have to think, all I have to do is follow the orders of a gorgeous Woman.

As a slave, there is nothing more relaxing than letting yourself go, nothing better than allowing a Gorgeous Woman to take control of everything you do or say, letting her drain your wallet for good.

It’s like a therapy for me these days: every therapy has a cost of course, but this one brings me lots of pleasure as well as making me stay calm in facing these hard days.

I’m not sure how long this lockdown will go on Italy, but of one thing I’m sure: Financial Domination will help me get through it without going totally mad or depressed.

Goddess Ishtar: The Endless Power

February 13, 2020 YourMoneySlave Comments 1 comment

I’ve been serving Goddess Ishtar for quite a long time now, and one of the (many) amazing things I appreciate about her is the continuously growing power that She shows.

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It’s clear and evident by looking at the stories she publishes from time to time, describing sessions with her loyal slaves, or how she takes control of a new slave as soon as he joins her for a first session. In these stories you see with your eyes what she’s capable of, her words become like magnets, attracting more and more slaves to Her.

But another thing that keeps surprising me, it’s the effect she has on me. I mean ok, I’m submissive so we all know what it means when you find yourself in front of such a Goddess but… why do I always stop breathing when I see her?

There hasn’t been a single session with her that didn’t give me troubles in breathing. As soon as she opens her cam and looks into the camera, I get so caught up, so excited, so overwhelmed that yes, for some long seconds I simply stop breathing.

The intense look in her eyes is something that every slave should experience at least once in his life: you will not know what it means to be unable to move until you have Goddess Ishtar eyes looking right at you, with that fantastic expression on her face that clarifies who is in charge, who has the power to decide what’s going to happen in the next minutes/hours.

Some slaves I spoke to clearly told me their life changed completely since they met her: she took control of their life, she started pushing their limits harder and harder, making them unable to desire anything else but to serve Her, she gave a new meaning to their life. She made them happy.

And well…when it comes to pushing limits… I know very well what she’s capable of: my first real-time experience was with Her, and I still remember it VERY clearly in my mind. An unforgettable experience, something I will always treasure in my soul.

Every slave that serves her once understands her power, understands how dangerous she is, understands how manipulative and powerful she is…and yet… we all get hooked. Unable to stop serving her. Always wanting to see and serve Her more and more.

Because Goddess Ishtar’s power is Endless.

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I’ve got OneGreatDiva under my skin

February 12, 2020 YourMoneySlave Comments 1 comment

In Italy we use to say “Far from the eyes, far from the heart“, meaning that when you don’t see someone for a long time, even your love or attraction for them fades away. It’s natural, there is nothing wrong with it: when you don’t see the source of your infatuation for a long time, you tend to focus your attention elsewhere.

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In Financial Domination, usually, the same rule applies. You don’t see a Goddess for weeks, months…so you look elsewhere. And perhaps you don’t even think about that one anymore. Even if she shows up again, you’ve moved on, you are not interested anymore.

But I can’t get OneGreatDiva out of my mind

She was the one that made me a moneyslave, the first merciless Goddess that abused my weaknesses with no regrets, no limits. Like a hurricane she basically flipped over my entire life, making a man who thought he knew everything about himself discovering a world full of weakness, devotion, submission and, most of the time, fear.

It’s no secret that, because of her countless business activities, OneGreatDiva isn’t online as often as she used to be. Weeks, even months can pass between one day that she’s online and the next one. But nothing ever changes in the way I feel for her.

It’s like she’s under my skin, ready to control my actions and emotions at the snap of her fingers. Ready to exploit all my weaknesses in a matter of seconds. Ready to make feel that mixture of fear and desire as soon as she shows up.

Merciless as She is, whenever She knows she’s going to be online, she makes sure to let me know. Or better said, to send me the order to spoil her. Exactly like she did just yesterday when she just wrote to me

“I’ll be online this week, get ready to be abused”

And now I’m here, writing this post while feeling the fear of seeing a message on my Skype, waiting to be drained in her chatroom, waiting to worship and spoil her while looking at her video as I did countless times, and as I will keep doing probably for as long as she will want me to.

Take your chance, she’s online these days
As She told me, she is going to be online these few days. There is a special competition on the site she makes sessions on that allows her to earn even more money if we help her. I will be serving Her for sure, and you should do the same.
Her chatroom can be reached here. Don’t wast this chance, you never know when she can show up again