I doubt there is anything worst in the life of a slave than disappointing your Goddess. And i’m not talking about the fact of being lack of money and unable to spoil Her (all the Goddesses i always served are wise enough to understand this), but when you do (or don’t do) something she was expecting from you. When you misbehave. When you do something that, in a way, kinda hurts her or even make her believe you have been disrespectful.
And that’s what i did. I disappointed Her.
My punishment? The worst ever.
“You have time to think of what you did, i’ll let you know when you can crawl back to spoil me”
No chance to recover. Nothing to be done to make Her forgive me. She decided i have to stay away from Her for a while, and She will decide whenever i can come back to Her.
What a bad period for me…. first i lost my site, then i had to stop spending…now this. They say shit happens in life…but damn…this is way too much.
Time surely goes fast. It seems yesterday that i’ve started this blog…instead it is four years now. And exactly four years ago i was writing my very first post.
“It’s late at night…the usual time when my “slave needs” raise up..when my wife is asleep and the temptation to do something exciting is high. And this is where it will all begin: this blog.“
Same old story. This will happen more and more after that day…and, as usual, i was also hoping to don’t do anything wrong…
“i won’t visit any of the gorgeous Mistresses there. I will just write this article and go to bed”
Yeah right…i bet… four years passed, and i still have to succeed on that. And then, at the end of the article, the sentence that really shows me how big my failure had been so far:
“the amount of money i will spend this year…that i hope will be less, much much less than last year… i would say a maximum of 500$ for the entire year “
I will end up that month spending 200$…and that year spending a total of 9.000$. The rest is history…and in 2013 alone i’ve spent 22.000$ as shown here.
If there is any resolution i think i can try to keep…is the one i made to my angel (remember her?) just last night: i will try to post more this year, i will force myself to do so. Let’s say…a minimum of three articles a month. That’s a goal i can achieve…i hope.
This is a lesson i’m learning through time and huge mistakes: if i stay away from financial domination, i’m always ending up spending more when i get back to it (because i always do).
Same thing happened last night when, after about a month of low expenses, i saw EyesCandy was online and i couldn’t stop myself from visiting her again.
Again, She was absolutely stunning. After a while that we were just talking (well i was trying to, mesmerized by her beauty), she showed me her brand new Gucci shoes and told me “do you think they would look good with nylons?”
That was the beginning of my failure in reducing expenses. I ended up spending about 600$ and… i came like i never did in about a month.
I can’t stay away from what excites me so much, i just can’t stay away from it.
It’s getting worst. It’s nearly one year and a half since i started this blog, and after all this time i can clearly see that i’m getting deeper into Financial Domination. I’m trapped.
As of today, i spent more than any other of the previous years…and that’s not what i promised myself when i started this Finacial Domination blog. I was going to stop, i was going to resist, i was going to spend less.
Nothing of all that happened. My fault, of course, but also because of the power of theFinancial Domme that was here before i started this blog and that’s here today as well: One Great Diva.
I won’t shut this blog off, and i will keep posting about my journey into Financial Domination and money slavery…but my hope to stop is getting weaker and weaker…
It seems it was silly for me to even think Financial Domination could have been over… She brought me back into it with a…”virtual slap” i could say.
One Great Diva caught me online the other night… at first i was acting strong, well i was actually sure to be strong enough..but her attitude, her beauty, her power…made me fall all over again into Financial Domination.
She got 300$ in half an hour…and more via tributes… it’s like nothing has changed since she first made me a money slave, more than one year ago. I was so sure to be over it, to be able to control it…and then…here i am… made a money slave again by the one that brought me into Financial Domination at first: One Great Diva.
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