Recently i wrote about my financial problems, and that i would have not have any session or spending for some months.
But i’m too weak.
And that’s why i know tonight i’m going to fall again and spoil Her. Recently i was finding more and more difficult to stay away but, luckily, no Goddess ever contacted me ordering to serve Her or anything (at least none of those Goddesses i already fall for, “my” Goddesses). That till this morning when i got this message:
It’s time to crawl back to me Tonight you will spoil me I accept only yes as an answer…
And all i could think of was… “i can’t wait to be there tonight”. I will do anything to be free and available to spoil Her. It’s my duty… and it’s in my nature.
Let me tell you one thing: if you have a 6 years old blog…. DO HAVE A BACKUP. Don’t be a fool like i was…because then, when everything gets lost and you need to repost the old content (at least those you can find on the Internet Archive)….well… it’s a hell of a job!
I’ve been working on this for DAYS and i guess i’m ALMOST at half of the job done. But i won’t stop till i post again all that i can. Too bad i’m more or less only able to recover text…but anyway…
What’s wrong with the new Goddesses Wannabe? They keep contacting me asking to be their slave, as if all i need to become someone’s slave is for her to ask me (or to order it to me). Do i look that stupid? Do they think i spend what i spend just for charity, with anyone that comes up to my door asking for it?
Jeez….i even got a few requests from masters! LOL! Guys i’m NOT into that ok? If i look at you acting as a master, i will just LAUGH as loudly as i can. To me, there is no such thing as a “Master”. We are inferior creatures and we simply can’t compete with women. Masters shouldn’t even exist in my opinion!
Look..it’s that simple:
If i don’t come to you begging for your attention, it means i am NOT interested.
And you asking (or “ordering”) for that only makes you look pathetic in my eyes. So it’s pointless. Maybe there are slaves that start serving anyone coming to them demanding it…but i doubt the real, good slaves (like myself) are like that. I spend a lot (at least compared to what i earn for a living) but i DON’T give my money just to anyone.
Is it clear? Hope so…but i’m sure those requests will keep coming…
Basically, i am no one… so i don’t really receive messages often from the “contact me” page here. But sometimes i do, usually from others sharing the same experience of me, writing me to exchange opinions or just talk. Other times i get messages from “dommes” that say “i’m the best bla bla bla spoil me” (and that’s just not what a domme should do)… but what i got yesterday… was surreal. So DUMB that i couldn’t even believe it was real.
So i get this message:
I don’t really know what all this crap is. All I know is that I’m a female and I want money for doing nothing. I’m a student who needs to pay off some things like books and all that.
At first i just thought this was a joke… wanted to ignore that…but i thought on answering, just to see if it could go on…
Good luck with your studies then
I thought it was over.. but then i even got another reply!
So you’re going to pay me?
How can you be SO dumb? Can you even read english? Can you even TRY to understand what is this all about??? I might not be the most intelligent person ever…but at least, before contacting someone, i try to read a bit more…i try to avoid looking like a complete IDIOT.
Oh well..what can i say…at least she put a smile on my face
Now…this is one of the things i hate most: being low on cash (not only because of my findom addiction, but also because of other expenses) and therefore…being forced to stay away from all this world.
Yes i know, in a way i should be happy…for a week i won’t be able to spend on Financial Domination. Not a cent, nothing. I have 80$ left on my credit card…and believe me, i do need them till next pay period….
It’s exactly a forced abstinence.
What can i do about it? Nothing at all… i just need to stay away from my computer when i have privacy…when the temptation is higher… mostly because, no matter the temptation, money aren’t there…so there is no way i could see any of the gorgeous Goddess i serve.
I think i’ve said more than once that, quite often, even if none of the gorgeous and dangerous Mistresses listed here is online, if i feel the NEED to be dominated, i try to visit different Goddesses.
But, believe it or not, the web is full of “so called” mistresses that, in fact, don’t even know what they are doing or at least, not completely.
Some of them are almost “there”…they are gorgeous, they know how to dress, they know how to put the camera, they know how to tease but…the more i get weak…the less they know what to do with the power they have on me.
If you are not into domination, you are probably thinking “hey that’s good, you won’t risk anything with them”….WRONG. That’s actually the reason why i never visit them again.
If She doesn’t even try to take advantage of me…all i was looking for is lost, even if She is gorgeous and sexy… i’m there to be dominated…i’m there to feel the risk…if there is no risk…i get no excitement at all.
Just something i wanted to share…especially with those that still can’t understand what me and others are into, why we are doing this and why we can’t stop or, better said, deep inside we don’t WANT to stop.