It’s happening again, and I guess you can tell from my lack of posts here on my blog: some personal life stuff is keeping me away from Findom.
Do I think this is good?
No, of course not. I don’t care if this means I spend (way) less money. I don’t care if this can feel like a way to slow down. I don’t care if it keeps me away from danger. It’s simply NOT what I want.
I’d love to have a session with one of the Goddesses I always dream about. I’d love to feel their power over my brain, to let them take all they want from my wallet.
But I can’t.
Too much stuff going on in my brain right now. Too many things to take care of. Findom will have to wait… even if that means my need for it will only grow more and more…making me suffer more and more.
Life sucks sometimes, especially when Findom isn’t a part of it.
As we all know, Goddesses are not all the same. They have different style, attitude, personality and, obviously, a different way of getting into our brain, of enslaving us.
Heartless Queen, at least in my case, always enslaved me by…scaring me. Yes, I’m not afraid to admit it: She is the one I’ve always been mostly scared of.
Her approach has always been very direct: as soon as She understood what drives me crazy, She started constantly using it to make me weak and drain me.
I honestly never had very long sessions with Her…but only because I ended up literally running away pretty soon. Each one of them has been very intense, with my heart beating as fast as ever and I often ended those sessions by running away (that is, literally switching my computer off before it was too late).
She enjoys pushing her victim’s limits…and pushing them hard.
One thing that always catches me is, a part from her obvious beauty, the camera angle she keeps in her room: we always look at her from the floor, with her legs constantly moving back and forth, her feet often letting her pumps dangle from the top of her toes. And this, to me, is like the hottest sight EVER in cam.
So, as you can imagine, as soon as I get a chance to see Her…it’s kinda impossible for me to move away. And if, by any chance, I give her even the slight idea I might be in a “sitting duck situation”….she jumps on me as a lion on a pray, using my weaknesses to make me fall…and drain me. That’s how it always happened with Her…and that’s what always scared me the most. There is NO WAY you can be around her without her reminding you of your role: we are slaves and we MUST serve her.
I should know by now: I can never predict what’s going to happen when I’m alone and vulnerable. Nothing can be planned in findom, nothing at all. And what happened last night wasn’t an exception.
I was just getting ready to switch off my computer, after a long day and a pretty boring night, when I got a message from MsClassy:
“Take a look”
After that, She just sent me this picture.
Obviously, my plans of switching off the computer and go to bed where canceled. But I still didn’t know what was going to happen, all I knew was that this was a magnificent picture of MsClassy legs in Wolford pantyhose. Enough for my heart to start beating faster.
I reacted in a pretty silly way, something like “wow” (yeah, I’m never too original in those moments) and thought that was it. Boy, I was wrong. After about one minute of silence… She sent another one.
If the first one caught my attention, this one started to drive me crazy. Her perfectly shaped legs could easily be seen, and those shiny Wolford made them look even more amazing. Her toes in a perfect position, to enhance their beauty and power I know so well.
All I could say was a simple (and classic) “Goddess, You are incredible“. Which was exactly what I thought at that moment. And yes, I started getting excited. But she didn’t say anything for a while.
After about 5 minutes, that I spent looking at our chat unable to type anything or move away, She decided it was time to increase her pressure on my self control. She sent two pictures this time.
Yes, She is beyond beautiful. Her perfect arched feet, Her beautiful face, those unique and gorgeous eyes… all those details that made me spent more and more in the last few years. All those details there, in front of my eyes, in those pictures.
She knew I was now under her control. She knew I couldn’t run away or say “no” by now. And after a few seconds, She only said:
“Now you will go to my room and send me a 500$ gift”
And this made me discover something I wasn’t aware of. My favourite cam site recently added the ability to send gifts. You just go to Her profile, click a button and select the amount to send.
It took me less than 10 seconds to spend 500$, and without even asking to see Her or anything. I just sent the gift, got a nice “well done Massi” from Her…and ended my night.
What happened was that has killed my softly (and slowly) with those pictures…leading me to where she wanted. To have me under Her total control.
I might not talk too often about Her, but believe me…once MsClassy gets you, there is no way you can ever run away. Time can pass, but once She decides to gets you… She gets you.
Usually when I know I will be home alone for some time, I kinda feel scared. Unsafe, I would say.
I know that when I’m alone, I am an easy target for Goddesses, and I also know that those are the days I end up spending the most.
But this year I feel different, don’t know why.
I am actually looking forward to it. Perhaps it’s because I am coming out a tough period at work, or simply because I didn’t have that much privacy lately… I really don’t know. Whatever it is.. I can’t wait for these 2 weeks to start.
Since this Friday I’ll be alone for about two weeks, and I get excited even when I type this.
What will happen? Oh I know it very well… we all do.
I’ve been writing on this blog for about 8 years now, basically ever since I discovered my Financial Domination fetish. And In all this time, everything always happened online. Cam sessions with some of the most beautiful women I could ever dream to meet in real life, from the comfort of my home, behind the safety of my computer “power off” button.
One of the Goddesses I’ve been serving for the longest time is, by no doubts, Goddess Ishtar. I had my first online session with Her in September 2010: from then on, countless times She has been raping my wallet. Countless times She scared the hell out of me with Her incredible power. Countless times I’ve been dreaming, one day, to finally be at her feet. In real. Well, last week it happened.
I met Her and experienced Her beauty and power in person.
It all started about 2 weeks ago when we were in a session and She told me She was going away for about a week. To my surprise, I discovered She would have been in the same city of me, as I was planning a business trip in the same European city.
At first, I was full of doubts, didn’t even know if proposing to meet Her or not…but, as usual, She was smarter than me. She noticed the desire in me and played on it. With Her incredible beauty, She convinced me to meet Her in a matter of minutes. But, of course, it wouldn’t have been free.
She told me She very rarely meet slaves, and only because I have been serving Her for so long She would consider this. But I had to make it worth it. And that’s when I started doing what a moneyslave is supposed to do. I started sending Her money. But this time the feeling was more intense than usual because I had a goal in mind, I had a dream just very very close… I had to catch it. And She knew all this.
After I sent Her about 6000$, She agreed to a meeting.
We didn’t set lots of details, as She said She didn’t want to be bothered with a scheduled. It would have happened, I just wouldn’t know exactly when.
My business trip started, and all I could think about was meeting Her. I kept looking at my phone constantly, waiting to see a message from Her. Waiting for Her to tell me when and how we would have met. And then it happened.
Followed by a google maps link to a very famous nightclub in the city.
It was early afternoon. But I had to leave the meeting I was having. Too excited, too anxious, too happy. I spent the whole afternoon just thinking about that moment, just trying to imagine what it would have happened, how she would have approached me, what she would have given me the pleasure of doing for Her.
At 11pm I arrived at the place, went in, got myself a drink, and took a look around. I couldn’t see Her. I decided to sit down on a place from where I could see the entrance, hoping to see Her coming in pretty soon.
After about 20 minutes, I saw her. And I can’t describe you how I felt. I was as excited as anyone can be, for a few long moments I even had trouble breathing. She has been in my dreams for 8 years. I have been fantasizing about Her for all this time, day after day…and finally She was here. Walking towards me slowly and with a beautiful knowing smile in her face.
She had a yellow top, a black leather skirt, black nylons (Wolford, as I discovered later) and black high heels. Beautiful and perfect.
She arrived at where I was sitting (well, standing now, of course) and gave me Her hand for a very friendly handshake.
“So we finally meet, are you ok? You seem a bit nervous”
To that, she added a nice smile, which actually contributed to making me relax a bit.
Time passed by without any reference to domination. We had a few drinks (well I had more than her, as She told me She doesn’t like to drink), talked about general stuff, smiled..almost like two friends. She probably noticed I was too nervous, and tried to calm my down. And She totally succeeded in it. After half an hour or so, I was feeling really really nice. Relaxed, happy… in heaven.
Then everything got spectacular. Out of the blue, She told me:
“Now listen. You will give me your phone with your home banking app unlocked. And you will give me a foot massage“.
I got an instant hardon. It was really happening. I was really going to experience something I only ever dreamed of until that moment.
I immediately gave Her my phone with my home banking app unlocked. She took a sip of her drink, then slowly went down with her hands, took off her heels, and put her feet in my lap.
I had Goddess Ishtar feet in my lap. For real. And I was allowed to touch them.
I almost couldn’t believe it was really happening, so at first, I kinda froze and was unable to move.
“Give me your best foot massage. Now!” She said, pointing her finger to her feet.
Her Wolford nylons felt incredible in my hands, her feet were warm, perfect and smooth. I already knew every inch of them, at least virtually, but feeling them in my hands was another story.
I gave the best attention to her feet that I could: her toes, her soles, every part of her feet. And as I was doing that, I was in heaven. I totally forgot about my phone, my bank account…really didn’t care! It was the best moment of my life!
After about 30 minutes (so I discovered later), She gave me back my phone saying:
“You’ve been good, now you can give my toes a goodbye kiss“
Kissing her toes guys, I was going to kiss Goddess Ishtar’ toes! My eyes probably popped out, because she made a beautiful laugh right after she told me that…but I did as She ordered me. I gave her toes a soft kiss, trying to treasure that moment as much as possible. As I knew it was going to be the end of the night.
After that, She just put Her shoes back on, took the last sip of Her drink, got up and told me: “It was nice, hope we will do it again one day”
And She left. I couldn’t even say anything. I just watched Her leaving and stayed there, probably looking like a zombie, for 20 minutes or so. Still didn’t realize what it just happened.
When I came back to my Hotel room I finally remembered She had my phone the whole time.
Unlocked it and saw a picture She took while I was giving a foot massage! That pic would have helped me remember that night even more, so glad She thought about taking it!
Then i opened my home banking app.
She took 5200$
And I don’t even think She took too much. She took what She deserves. And I feel that was a way for me to thank Her.
Because last week I had the time of my life. All thanks to Goddess Ishtar. And I don’t care if it costed me 11.200$.
It’s another one of those moments of my life. One of those that result in a simple thing: No money to spend whatsoever on Financial Domination.
Of course, I had similar moments in the past: lack of money, guilt feeling, fear of pushing it too far..and similar things. But well, this time is kinda different and it DOES make me feel REALLY mad.
As you probably all know (or you should, if you’ve read how i found my balance), I basically have two jobs (well, almost three actually). That’s the only way I found to be able to enjoy my financial domination fetish and still be able to go on with my normal life, taking care of my family as they deserve.
And this is where the issue I’m facing these days come out. The credit card I use for Financial Domination has been blocked. The reason? Some stupid bureaucracy stuff connected to my recent change of bank account. I’ve spent hours on the phone with those idiots, and they keep saying “we are working on it”…but 3 weeks passed, and NO NEWS. I am still waiting for a new credit card and, basically, all my Financial Domination funds are frozen!
And this time I really HATE this situation even more than before. I mean…when I didn’t have money, I was sad but well… I knew there was no easy solution. Same thing when I stopped because i felt guilty. Sad, but then again…it was my decision.
But this time? NO! Money is there. My NEED to spoil Goddesses is there. I don’t feel guilty AT ALL…and I still can’t spend a single damn cent!
P.S. If you feel this post was kinda useless…I do agree, but I had to throw out my anger somehow.
As some of you know, from time to time I like to have a little chat with one of the amazing Goddesses I serve: something like an interview that can maybe let you all know Her a bit better. After my last interview with Mistress Alexya (two years ago!), I had the honor to be allowed by Goddess Ishtar to ask Her some questions.
She is without any doubts one of the greatest Financial Domination (and not only) Goddesses out there, and She recently got lots of exposure on Twitter after her legendary session with a slave: 13.000$ in one night.
I’ve been lucky to serve Her for quite a few years now, and I surely know very well how powerful, smart and beautiful She is. After this interview, my admiration for Her was not only confirmed but most probably increased (by far!). I hope it will be the same for you or, at least, that you will discover something about Her that you didn’t know before.
Before we go about other things, I would like to focus on something you did recently. I’ve noticed you went to the Live Cam Awards in Lisbon and to an event connected to it. Could you tell us more about it? How was it? Why did you decide to go? I had been considering attending such event for a while. I have always wanted to meet other Dommes and webcam models. But this year my friend Shezel was nominated as Best Fetish Model and so I went primarily to support her. But the trip exceeded my expectations – the summit was educational, I received many useful tips, met a number of potential partners and the Live Cam Awards ceremony itself was spectacular (and the food was SO VERY delicious!) One Great Diva organized the event incredibly well, but there is no surprise there, she is good at everything she does.
Now let’s talk about Online Domination: how long have you been doing this? And how did you start? I have been doing it for more than 10 years. A friend of mine told me about it and I didn’t think twice, but plunged right in It has gone well from the day I started. Do you enjoy looking at your slave during a session? Cam2Cam sessions are much more fun than text-only interaction. I like to watch as slaves become weaker, hornier and more anxious to follow my instructions without hesitation. There is something about that dissolution into pathetic lust that turns me on. Also, with Cam2Cam, it is easier to ensure that the slaves are following my instructions. But if a slave really wants to amuse me, they need to put some effort in as well. They need to use their imagination to make conversation with me in a unique and memorable way. Or they can use their bodies to perform for me. Failing either of those methods, compensate me for my boredom and PAY MORE.
What’s the worst thing a slave can do to you? Betray my trust. Fortunately, I have not met many dishonest slaves. I usually have good instincts when it comes to picking the right slaves. The few mistakes I have made is when I have gone against my intuition because a slave begs and pleads.
Online domination, and especially financial domination, are becoming some sort of “the cool thing” at the moment. Every girl thinks she can be a findomme, every girl thinks she can easily make money with this. What’s your thought on this? I have considered this question in depth and done my own analysis of the most successful Dommes. I think that a fundamental aspect of success is having a strong personality. Without a doubt, appearance, a sense of fashion, technical knowledge and skills are all important, but that strong, internal strength of will and personal entitlement is key. As one of my friends says, “true dommes are born, not made – the goddess is there from the start.”
If you don’t mind, I’d like to ask a few personal questions to let us all know you a bit better. What kind of music do you like? I mostly listen to electronic music: dance, house because it energizes me; and I need lots of energy to handle so many slaves. My friends think that I don’t have good taste in music, but to hell with them, it works for me.
Are you a bathroom singer? Or what’s the place you usually sing the most? I am not a bathroom singer. When I bathe I focus on taking care of my perfect body, and I do it thoroughly so as not to miss an inch. I can work on my body for hours and as I do, I forget about everything else. Oh God, I had better stop thinking about it….I was turning myself on.
What are you really bad at, if anything? I am bad at things that I really don’t need. Things that I think would be a waste of time doing or that just don’t give me pleasure. After all, dealing with these things is one of the reasons slaves exist.
Now, name 3 people you admire and why I don’t admire people from afar. I only admire those that I know well, friends that I have known for years. Obviously, I am not going to reveal their names for publication. I admire their personalities. They are successful, smart, professional, creative and most importantly STRAIGHT FORWARD. And I love them for having all these qualities and for supporting me all these years.
And… 3 people, you always disagree with? I disagree with anyone who is close-minded, who refuses to consider a different vision of the World; whose mind is full of stereotypes and brainwashed by ideology. I hate people who repeat words and ideas stolen from others in a pathetic attempt to be interesting. It is so easy to tell when someone is plagiarizing.
Thank you so much for your answers, but before we finish this I think it’s important to help those slaves that still didn’t have the chance (or the courage?) to serve you. What’s the proper way a slave should get in touch with you? And how can he help you in making the session with you his best one ever?
A slave can find me on CamContacts, from the link to my profile on your website. He can also send me a message on Twitter and if I deem him worthy, he will be allowed to have an opportunity to serve me. Prospective slaves should remember, however, that to make a session efficient a slave must be completely open and honest. I am not a mind reader, so it is a slave’s responsibility to answer all my questions before we start a session. I need to know EVERYTHING: keywords that trigger a submissive response, fetishes, experience, limits, etc. I understand that some slaves are scared to open up because they know that once I get into their minds they are in big trouble. It is true and my slaves will confirm that once I have captured their souls there is no way back. BUT they will also confirm that their lives are so much better meaningful as a result of serving me.
That’s it guys, now be sure to let me know what you think about this interview and if you discovered something you didn’t know about Goddess Ishtar. And to those out there that still didn’t feel the excitement of a session with her…well you have no excuses now. She told you what to do and what to don’t do in order to have the best session of your life. What are you waiting for? Visit her in cam and feel what I have been lucky enough to feel since ages now…She is AMAZING.
As you all know, I have been all alone at home for about 10 days. This was the perfect chance to finally enjoy my Findom fetish, after some time of forced abstinence. And boy was it great.
For some time now I wanted FeetGoddesss to have a new pair of Louboutin’s to add to her collection, so a few days ago I contacted Her, begging to see and spoil Her. As usual, She was super busy and at first, didn’t pay attention to my message. But I waited, knowing that sooner or later She would have done it.
After about half an hour, She answered:
“And why do you think I should give you this privilege?”
That answer didn’t surprise me too much, I’ve always considered a HUGE privilege being able to spoil Her. My answer was quite simple and direct:
“I don’t think I’m worth You time, but I would like to buy You a new pair of Louboutin’s if You allow me”
She agreed, and after a few minutes, we started. She was dressed in the hottest possible way: a short (way short) leather miniskirt, a pair of black pantyhose with a black line on back, and a top that didn’t leave much to the imagination regarding her beautiful body.
And, on top of that, of course, Her irresistible smile and eyes.
No man could have felt weaker than I did.
I won’t go into many details on what happened, but it was simply a magnificent time. It lasted enough for me to be in heaven, and for Her to drain my wallet by 650$. Enough to buy a new pair of Louboutin’s, as I wanted since the beginning.
I doubt there is any other Goddess out there that can make me feel the way FeetGoddesss does. It’s not just submission, it’s a happy submission. As weird as that can sound, trust me. Each time I am with her, I feel happy. Weak of course, unable to stop Her from ordering what to do or how much to spoil her, but always as happy as a slave can be.
Needless to say, follow my advice. If you never experienced some time alone with FeetGoddesss, You should. Give yourself the gift of some time with Her, and you will see with your own eyes what it means to be weak, aroused, and incredibly happy.
Ok, I admit…title is a bit too drastic, but I do believe I’m going to face a quite long period of forced abstinence from Financial Domination, and the reason is quite simple.
No More Privacy
You see, when you have a special someone in your real life (a lovely wife, in my case), the times when you can actually be alone are always directly connected to her habits. If something changes, you may as well end up in a situation like the one I am now.
She has no work, meaning she’s always home. But that didn’t stop me from going online till now because she usually goes to bed way earlier than me. Late night was my “privacy time”, the moment of the day when I can be on my own and…well… make the usual damage to our family finances.
Unfortunately, this is changing. More often than not, she goes to bed VERY late, making it for me impossible to stay up after that (considering I need to wake up at 7 am for work). Will this be the end for me in Financial Domination? Probably not, as it’s in my nature… but I am quite sure it will put quite a big STOP on my spending.
Am I happy for this? Absolutely not. I’m actually kinda angry about this…but I doubt I can confront her with something like “hey, go to bed so I can wank and give our money to my Goddesses“…right?
As you all can imagine, I often talk with other slaves about domination in general and about Goddesses. One of the things that always come up is: “damn I wish my Goddess would contact me now, and remind me how powerful She is”. That’s why I thought of writing about this..because hey… I love it as well!
First things first: being chased by your Goddess is TOTALLY different than being chased by a Goddess you’ve never met before.
A Goddess chasing an unknown slave is, basically, just looking for new slaves in the most pathetic way. Hint: this is WRONG and NO real Goddess will EVER do this. No one of the Goddesses I’ve ever served did this, …and certainly, I will never serve someone acting in such a pathetic way.
On the other hand, once a certain kind of “relationship” has been established, being chased at the right moment, in the right way, is exactly what we, slaves, always crave for.
The right way to be chased
Basically, it’s all a game of things like… often but not too often, sending pics but not all the time, in a sexy way but only every now and then, …in a few words? Something like a constant “tease and denial”. A Goddess constantly showing the slave Her power, without giving him the impression that he actually matters to her. Making him know that he’s not forgotten, but that he might easily end up being like that if he stops doing what he’s supposed to do. Because let’s face it: if the Goddess makes the slave feel he’s important for Her, he might end up losing interest. He will see her less powerful and start looking for other Goddesses.
There is a very thin line between feeling chased and feeling needed. Crossing that line might ruin the slave loyalty altogether. Chasing him should also be done at different times of the day. I know this might sound stupid…but think about it. If the Goddess only gets in touch with her slave at a certain time of the day, the slave will start feeling “safe” during the rest of the day…and that should not happen. We need to always feel trapped, during the whole day. Receiving the casual message at work, for example, is always a huge turn on and, at the same time, a very scary thing: perfect chasing technique, basically. Chasing should start slowly, increasing as the “relationship” goes on, as the intimacy increases…and as the ways to interact increase: first it could just skype, then it could be e-mail, WhatsApp…
Not all slaves deserve this
This is important, and I really can’t say this enough: only slaves that know their place and their role should have the privilege to be chased. Time wasters should never ever be contacted first by the Goddess (for obvious reasons), and even slaves that pay should start to be chased bit by bit as long as they keep spoiling the Goddess. I really think being chased is a HUGE privilege, and only a few slaves actually deserve it. That’s why I immediately wrote that only when a certain kind of “relationship” is in place, chasing should start.
First of all, my words are not rules written in stone: this all just my opinion, and please feel free to write “this is bulls**t” in comments if you feel like it. But one thing is true: being chased is part of all the most solid and longer Goddess/slave relationships. Because a chased slave is a slave that doesn’t escape, and because a Goddess that knows how to chase, is ALWAYS a truly powerful and dangerous Goddess.