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The joy after a bad session

The joy after a bad session

Although there are only a few Goddesses I really feel a slave of, sometimes it happens that I end up having sessions with “random” Goddesses found online. The reason is quite simple: sometimes I’m horny and no one of those I usually spoil is available….that’s when it happens.
And, as in everything, when you go fishing you never know if you are going to get a good or a bad fish. And trust me, when it comes to Goddesses, bad surprises are just around the corner.
You know how it is… a Goddess who might look great in pictures but then, during the session, reveals herself as just pretending to be part of the financial domination world or a Goddess who simply has a terrible cam quality…the reasons why a session can go wrong and be totally unsatisfying are endless. Shit happens, they say.

And it’s precisely after those sessions that you end up enjoying, even more, the very next session, the one you have with a Goddess you know, with a Goddess that knows you and your weak spots. Everything works flawlessly, she touches the right spot, makes the right moves, says the right things…and yes, drain your wallet pretty hard. In a few words: just a perfect, regular, financial domination session.
Boy that feels good! After you had that bad session, after you kicked yourself in the butt for not having saved that money, the right one comes to the rescue, showing you once again what it really means to be a Goddess with a capital “G”, showing you the meaning of being her slave…bringing you happiness after the dark moment of a bad session.

So, in a way, having a bad session every now and then can make you enjoy even more the really good ones… what do you think?

She’s my new obsession: Smart, Beautiful, Greedy, and… always wearing nylons

She’s my new obsession: Smart, Beautiful, Greedy, and… always wearing nylons

She is m
y new financial domination obsession

I have visited countless Goddesses in the last 12 years, and only a few had a true effect on me. With some of them, I had more than a few sessions, a few became a very important part of my Financial Domination life. But there is only a handful of them that I am and will always be really obsessed with. You know who they are. Well, in December I had my first session with the one who quickly became part of that restricted group. 

The definition of the word obsession

What I consider an obsession

In my (pretty long) experience with online sessions, I can tell there are a few different reasons why I get back for a second, third, or more session. For sure the Goddess in question is exciting, probably knows the power of nylons on me, and most probably triggered my deepest fantasies. So I get back for more because I’m looking for that excitement I experienced the first time. 

But this is not an obsession for Her, it’s just me looking for more excitement, for another session as exciting as the previous ones. The only thing I have in my mind about sessions with this kind of Goddesses is how hot she looks and moves, most of the time. Nothing more. 

When I’m obsessed instead, there are way more reasons for me to crave more sessions:

  • She got inside my head 
  • She is not “just” beautiful
  • Her brain is even more powerful than her beauty
  • She made me experience things I didn’t expect to

Why she is an obsession

As you can imagine, the one I’m talking about also has so much more than just beauty. The first session I had with Her lasted 2 hours. And there are so many reasons why I enjoyed it. I won’t even talk about Her beauty, because it would be even too obvious: She is absolutely stunning, but there is way more!

In those two hours, we also laughed a few times, as she managed to be funny as well. We also talked about normal things like in a casual conversation (well, as casual as it can be talking while looking at such a beautiful Lady). She then made me try a couple of things I never tried before (won’t go into details, that’s personal), and that I didn’t even think could have excited me…but of course, they did. Big time. 

When the session ended, I didn’t feel just satisfied. I felt happy. Happy to have spent those two hours with such an exceptional Lady. Happy to have had the luck to discover such a Goddess. And I felt eager….eager to see Her again as soon as possible. Or, better said, as soon as my wallet would have been ready again for such a deep drain.

So who is she?

By now I’m quite sure you want to know her name, and how you can see her online. She calls herself UltimateGoddess and I don’t think any name has ever been more right. As always, a word of wisdom: if you are not ready to be completely drained by her, to be made her weak slave, to put yourself at Her mercy (which she doesn’t actually have, I’m afraid)…don’t read any further. 

If instead, you want to see Her online, then all you have to do is click here and visit her room, or go to this page to see if she is online. 

What now?

I am not planning to resist the temptation to serve Her, because it brings me happiness and joy, to be honest. But I need to find a balance between my desire to give everything to Her and my actual finances. As you know, I truly believe that the only way to enjoy Financial Domination is to keep a balance between what we desire and what our real-life allows us to do (and spend). It won’t be easy, and it will surely be my biggest challenge for the coming weeks and months. Rest assured that I will keep you all updated on this blog, as I usually do. 

Cover photo by Heiner

Happiness is in a session with Goddess Ishtar

Happiness is in a session with Goddess Ishtar

One of the key signs to understand if the Goddess you just had a session with is “The One” has to be the way you feel right after it. Too many times we, slaves, feel sad or even angry after a financial domination session.

It can happen of course. Even though we had a great time, as soon as the session ends we stop thinking about the Goddess we’ve served and just realize how much we’ve spent and, perhaps, think about how else we could have spent the same money. So the regret starts. And with it comes sadness or, sometimes, anger with ourselves or the goddess. 

But what if you feel happy after a session?

That’s exactly how I feel each and every time I have a financial domination session with Goddess Ishtar. I feel happy, satisfied, relaxed. I feel like the money I gave her were way well spent, I feel like I just had the best time of my life (and it keeps getting better) and there is no way I could think my money would have been better spent in a different way.

Serving Goddess Ishtar in her videochat room means letting a superior woman take good care of you. She knows exactly what you need, even more than yourself. Of course, if you are visiting her for the first time, you need to let her understand the kind of slave you are. But the more time you spend with her, the better you will feel. I speak from experience, having served her for a long time now. 

In all these years there has never been a single time when I ended the session with Her and I felt angry or sad. Happiness and satisfaction have always been the feelings I felt. 

The last session I had with her, as an example, was amazing even just starting by the way She was dressed. A unique (and probably expensive) black dress, black Wolford pantyhose, and Louboutin high heels. Her perfect makeup and long, beautiful hair only made the whole picture so perfect that it took me a few minutes to type even one single word. 

I don’t even know how much I’ve spent, that’s not even the point. The point is that I felt happy, relaxed, and satisfied when the session ended. No regrets, no sadness, nothing. Just positive vibes and feelings.

That’s the kind of magic Goddess Ishtar brings with Her. Because she’s simply… The One

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The Findom Cycle

The Findom Cycle

I have been a moneyslave for more than 10 years now, and sometimes I like to sit back and take a look at my actions from an “external” point of view: it’s interesting to find common paths that happen over and over the years, some common sequence of events that characterize me as a moneyslave. 

There is one in particular that I can see repeating itself over and over, almost daily in some periods, it’s the one I like to call: The Findom Cycle.

It’s for sure nothing that anyone into financial domination for a while doesn’t know about yet, but perhaps it will be interesting to describe its phases to those that still didn’t notice it.

1 – The Caution

Every moneyslave starts by trying to be cautious: we always believe we can hold back, we can control ourselves. So we kinda look at our Goddess (or more than one) from a distance, taking brief looks at their pictures, briefly reading their messages on Twitter, but always ending up with a reason to don’t spend. With a reason why we should just look away and get on with our life. How long this work for changes from slave to slave and, more important, from period to period. There are certain periods of my life where I can be cautious for a few days only before going to the next phase, other times I can stay longer. It all depends on many different things: from the situation in my real life, till how satisfactory (and expensive) was my last session and yes, also the kind of “signals” I get from Goddesses (for a clear example, read my article about how “Variety triggers me“.

As time goes by though, we all start to feel the urge of a session, of a tribute. That little voice in our head saying “come on, why not? Isn’t it what you really want to be happy?”. Perhaps we try to fight this little voice for a while…but soon enough the next phase happens. 

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2 – The Enjoyment

That’s it. Enough being cautious. Enough holding back. We embrace our nature, we need to do what we desire the most. Looking at our Goddess (or at Goddesses) has a different meaning now, we NEED a session, we NEED a small thing that “ticks” our desire, that makes us do that final step, that makes us embrace what we are and makes us crawl at a Goddess to beg for a session. It can be a twit, a picture, something she says, a particular moment of our life…we are basically only looking for a pretext. For a reason to send a tribute or have a session. And when that happens, we fully enjoy our fetish. We are money slaves and, at that moment, we are totally happy with our nature. The session happens, the drain happens, our happiness starts from now and lasts till the session… or even a bit more actually. 

3 – The Day After

And then there is the day after. What happens after a drain session? How do we feel when we cool down? How do we feel thinking back at what we did? Well, it depends. We don’t all react the same way, and we don’t react each time the same way. But I can bet that most of the time, we regret what we did. We regret the big-spending, the big weakness, the uncontrollable desire to send money. It’s what we love, it’s what made us happy during the session but… then there are real-life consequences. Could I have spent that money in a better way? Could have I saved them for later? Why did I have to spend them all in such a short time? 

Anyway, the last phase usually doesn’t last long. Unless we are in one of those life moments for a money slave when we say “ok fuck it, I need to stop all this forever”, the regret doesn’t last more than a day or two. After that, usually, the first phase comes back… in the never-ending Findom Cycle.

Variety triggers me: here’s how FeetGoddesss abused it.

Variety triggers me: here’s how FeetGoddesss abused it.

Through all these years, I’ve always asked myself why at a certain moment I feel the NEED to spoil a Goddess, to be drained by her. What triggers me? Why don’t I always react the same way? Why one day I’m like running to my credit card, while others I seem to be stronger?

Of course, there are obvious “everyday life” reasons, like being tired from work, being upset, not feeling well and so on… but why is that, even if one day I feel the same as another, there still is “something” that triggers me more than everything else? Recently I gave myself an answer.

Variety

I totally adore all the Goddesses I spoil and have spoiled in all these years, I think the world of them. They are magnificent, irresistible and everything…. but. I have to face it: if every time they come online they look the same, I kinda get….well… bored. There I said it. I hope it doesn’t sound disrespectful, but it’s just the plain truth. For my brain to “trigger”, I need to see something different in Her, something that makes me “wow” as in “wow I’ve never seen Her like this”. 

It can be even a small thing like a different makeup or different hairstyle even if, obviously, what makes me run to my wallet is when her dressing style is different. A color of nylons she doesn’t wear often, a skirt I haven’t seen her wearing for a while, a new pair of shoes… all those things are like magnets for me. Even just receiving a picture by Her showing what she’s wearing, with an order to serve her, can easily trigger me if variety is there. All my defenses fall, leaving my moneyslave instinct free to run wild and let myself be drained.

FeetGoddesss knows this and abused it last night

It comes to no surprise that a Goddess like FeetGoddesss knows me more than I know myself, so I guess she figured out already my “variety trigger”…as that’s exactly what she used last night.

As I sometimes do, I decided to go and have a quick look at Her free videochat (I know, it’s lame…but I just can’t help myself sometimes…she’s too much). I thought she would have been dressed in all black, as she often likes to dress: beautiful and stunning but, somehow, something I’m kinda “used” to resist.

I was wrong.

She had a red bra on, under a black leather jacket that put it all in plain sight. Her skirt was a different one: red with the shape of a high heel shoe drew in black over it. She had black pantyhose on, and a pair of wonderful Louboutin’s shoes. I froze. I was unable to move. As if something inside me was ordering me to don’t move, to stay where I was. She saw I was there, and sent me a very brief message.

“Show me how much you want to see me wearing tan pantyhose”

I really don’t know how she knew. How she knew exactly what I was thinking about at that exact moment. I was thinking “She’s incredibly gorgeous…if only she would have tan pantyhose on, I would be in huge danger”.

I was unable to reply to that, scared of the consequences and, at the same time, excited by the idea of seeing her in this uncommon outfit. 

A couple of minutes passed without me saying anything. Then she just sent me another message:

“Show me”

That was it. I sent her a tribute and just wrote her “Sent“. Then I stayed there, waiting for Her to use me however she wanted. She left the cam for a second, and I could hear she was looking for pantyhose. Came back with a brand new pair of tan Wolford pantyhose, with a sexy line on the back. Looking at me with her wonderful and teasing eyes, she slowly took off her black pantyhose and put on those magnificent tan ones. 

She looked amazing and…different. Or at least, different just a bit to trigger my “variety weakness”. I was unable to resist, unable to do anything else but stare and follow her soft, sexy, hypnotic voice. 

One tribute after another, I was acting just like a puppet: each time she told me “send more”, I did it without even thinking twice. Then, after quite a while, she started ordering me to touch myself, of course cumming without her permission wasn’t an option.

But her teasing, her beauty, her power, her orders were just too much for me… and when she ordered me “go a little faster” while waving her sexy nylon foot in front of the cam… I simply exploded, unable to control myself. It was like an instinct, something I was not able to stop. She was too much, and I was too weak. She obviously didn’t like this and ordered me to send a double tribute because I’ve been bad…which I did of course, again without even thinking twice.

Variety might trigger me for sure but… FeetGoddesss knows how to use and abuse that trigger. As if I even needed one reason more to consider Her one of the best Goddesses ever.