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Spoiling Goddess Ishtar in 2022

Spoiling Goddess Ishtar in 2022

I have been a PayPig for more than 12 years now, and if there is one Goddess out there that has been a constant, prominent presence in my Financial Domination journey, that for sure is Goddess Ishtar.

The way I spoiled Her online more or less remained the same till a few months ago when I noticed She opened her new fan page

As soon as I saw that page, I was fascinated by the great variety of ways I could now spoil, serve and worship Her: I was not only limited to paying to see her on cam or to send her tributes!

To better explain what I’m talking about, I will try to describe the “process” that usually leads me to a draining session with Her, from the very moment when it all begins, a moment when I am usually not even excited, horny, or have any intention to send tributes.

Photos and videos to lure You in

Her page is like a magnet to me, and I’m pretty sure She uses it for that purpose. I visit it daily to watch her new content. I can’t resist the temptation to look at Her beauty, to drool on those pictures and videos, even when I don’t plan to have a session or send tributes, I still visit Her page and drool. And I think that’s exactly what makes her page so dangerous. Of course, I joined it so I can see all the content, but the monthly cost is nothing compared to the danger that page brings. I don’t even feel like that is a monthly tribute or anything, it’s just what allows me to watch her content, to drool on it, and to crave Her power.

Sending tips: when your desire starts to grow

I won’t deny that I always try to resist the temptation to be financially drained: it comes naturally, as a form of “self-defense”, let’s say. And besides, where is the excitement if I don’t even try to resist? It’s part of the process for me, it’s part of my way of living financial domination…it has always been there. And this is exactly why the ability to send tips to Goddess Ishtar, anytime and from anywhere, looks like the perfect way to give in a bit, but not too much. At first, it feels like the perfect way to stay in control of the situation. You think you are just sending a small tip, feeding your desire to spoil, but can still keep it under control in this way. But that’s not really what’s happening in your brain. Tipping Her is the perfect way for your brain to get used to spending, to open your wallet a bit…ready for it to be drained big time later.

The thing is that… I look at one picture I like and want to express my gratitude to Her. Just pressing the “like” button doesn’t feel enough. That’s how the little green button “tip” on the bottom of the picture starts to demand to be clicked. It looks like the only way to satisfy a bit of my need of serving Her, but what it really does is open up my brain for the soon to come real draining. At this stage, what usually happens is that I end up sending a tip on each of the new photos or videos She posts. It feels good to do that, it feels natural, it feels like the thing to do.

The wait after the tips

The next “phase” I always go through is the “wait” after the tips. And the funny thing is that, although I always go through this phase, it always goes the same way: I wait for something that never happens.

Each time I, as a slave, send a tribute to a Goddess (even a small tip), deep inside I always have the huge desire for her to acknowledge that tribute…you know, the classic “good boy” message, at the very minimum. But there is NO chance for this to happen after just a few tips, surely not with Goddess Ishtar. She is one of the most desiredbusy Goddesses out there. A slave needs to do way more than just a few tips for her to even notice him. And it doesn’t matter that I’ve been spoiling Her for ages…actually, that makes it even less likely. She knows what I can tribute, and I’m pretty sure she will always ignore me (or pretend to) if I am only sending a few tips. 

What this “phase” does to me though, is that it makes my desire to serve Her grow even more. Every minute I get more and more eager to be really in contact with Her, to see Her reaction to my tributes, to feel Her power on my skin, to feel Her beauty get inside my brain and do a carnage in there…

The big drain

So, to summarize a bit, my excitement and need to spoil Her started growing by looking at her pictures and videos, which lead to sending her tips…and this only made me start opening my wallet a bit…while my excitement kept growing.
What do you think happens as soon as She comes online? Picture this: I’m on her page, looking at those pictures, sending tips, and adding comments, my excitement is growing and I see she becomes available.
That’s the moment when it all ends as it always did in all these years: a big, satisfying, exciting, draining session like only Her can give to me. The difference between before she had this page and now is that, in a way, now the session starts when she is not even online. The big drain in the real session is like the inevitable conclusion of this process, where I, the slave, have so many more ways to fall deeper and deeper into her trap. 

Conclusion

We could say that her page is, in a way, a big, elegant, exciting, huge trap for us, slaves. But it’s the kind of trap we all want to fall in, the kind of trap we crave to be caught by, the kind of trap that gives us so many more ways to spoil Her, serve Her, get excited and weak for Her. If you haven’t done it yet, don’t waste more time: click here and enjoy her new page…you will thank me later.

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The joy after a bad session

The joy after a bad session

Although there are only a few Goddesses I really feel a slave of, sometimes it happens that I end up having sessions with “random” Goddesses found online. The reason is quite simple: sometimes I’m horny and no one of those I usually spoil is available….that’s when it happens.
And, as in everything, when you go fishing you never know if you are going to get a good or a bad fish. And trust me, when it comes to Goddesses, bad surprises are just around the corner.
You know how it is… a Goddess who might look great in pictures but then, during the session, reveals herself as just pretending to be part of the financial domination world or a Goddess who simply has a terrible cam quality…the reasons why a session can go wrong and be totally unsatisfying are endless. Shit happens, they say.

And it’s precisely after those sessions that you end up enjoying, even more, the very next session, the one you have with a Goddess you know, with a Goddess that knows you and your weak spots. Everything works flawlessly, she touches the right spot, makes the right moves, says the right things…and yes, drain your wallet pretty hard. In a few words: just a perfect, regular, financial domination session.
Boy that feels good! After you had that bad session, after you kicked yourself in the butt for not having saved that money, the right one comes to the rescue, showing you once again what it really means to be a Goddess with a capital “G”, showing you the meaning of being her slave…bringing you happiness after the dark moment of a bad session.

So, in a way, having a bad session every now and then can make you enjoy even more the really good ones… what do you think?

She’s my new obsession: Smart, Beautiful, Greedy, and… always wearing nylons

She’s my new obsession: Smart, Beautiful, Greedy, and… always wearing nylons

She is m
y new financial domination obsession

I have visited countless Goddesses in the last 12 years, and only a few had a true effect on me. With some of them, I had more than a few sessions, a few became a very important part of my Financial Domination life. But there is only a handful of them that I am and will always be really obsessed with. You know who they are. Well, in December I had my first session with the one who quickly became part of that restricted group. 

The definition of the word obsession

What I consider an obsession

In my (pretty long) experience with online sessions, I can tell there are a few different reasons why I get back for a second, third, or more session. For sure the Goddess in question is exciting, probably knows the power of nylons on me, and most probably triggered my deepest fantasies. So I get back for more because I’m looking for that excitement I experienced the first time. 

But this is not an obsession for Her, it’s just me looking for more excitement, for another session as exciting as the previous ones. The only thing I have in my mind about sessions with this kind of Goddesses is how hot she looks and moves, most of the time. Nothing more. 

When I’m obsessed instead, there are way more reasons for me to crave more sessions:

  • She got inside my head 
  • She is not “just” beautiful
  • Her brain is even more powerful than her beauty
  • She made me experience things I didn’t expect to

Why she is an obsession

As you can imagine, the one I’m talking about also has so much more than just beauty. The first session I had with Her lasted 2 hours. And there are so many reasons why I enjoyed it. I won’t even talk about Her beauty, because it would be even too obvious: She is absolutely stunning, but there is way more!

In those two hours, we also laughed a few times, as she managed to be funny as well. We also talked about normal things like in a casual conversation (well, as casual as it can be talking while looking at such a beautiful Lady). She then made me try a couple of things I never tried before (won’t go into details, that’s personal), and that I didn’t even think could have excited me…but of course, they did. Big time. 

When the session ended, I didn’t feel just satisfied. I felt happy. Happy to have spent those two hours with such an exceptional Lady. Happy to have had the luck to discover such a Goddess. And I felt eager….eager to see Her again as soon as possible. Or, better said, as soon as my wallet would have been ready again for such a deep drain.

So who is she?

By now I’m quite sure you want to know her name, and how you can see her online. She calls herself UltimateGoddess and I don’t think any name has ever been more right. As always, a word of wisdom: if you are not ready to be completely drained by her, to be made her weak slave, to put yourself at Her mercy (which she doesn’t actually have, I’m afraid)…don’t read any further. 

If instead, you want to see Her online, then all you have to do is click here and visit her room, or go to this page to see if she is online. 

What now?

I am not planning to resist the temptation to serve Her, because it brings me happiness and joy, to be honest. But I need to find a balance between my desire to give everything to Her and my actual finances. As you know, I truly believe that the only way to enjoy Financial Domination is to keep a balance between what we desire and what our real-life allows us to do (and spend). It won’t be easy, and it will surely be my biggest challenge for the coming weeks and months. Rest assured that I will keep you all updated on this blog, as I usually do. 

Cover photo by Heiner

Happiness is in a session with Goddess Ishtar

Happiness is in a session with Goddess Ishtar

One of the key signs to understand if the Goddess you just had a session with is “The One” has to be the way you feel right after it. Too many times we, slaves, feel sad or even angry after a financial domination session.

It can happen of course. Even though we had a great time, as soon as the session ends we stop thinking about the Goddess we’ve served and just realize how much we’ve spent and, perhaps, think about how else we could have spent the same money. So the regret starts. And with it comes sadness or, sometimes, anger with ourselves or the goddess. 

But what if you feel happy after a session?

That’s exactly how I feel each and every time I have a financial domination session with Goddess Ishtar. I feel happy, satisfied, relaxed. I feel like the money I gave her were way well spent, I feel like I just had the best time of my life (and it keeps getting better) and there is no way I could think my money would have been better spent in a different way.

Serving Goddess Ishtar in her videochat room means letting a superior woman take good care of you. She knows exactly what you need, even more than yourself. Of course, if you are visiting her for the first time, you need to let her understand the kind of slave you are. But the more time you spend with her, the better you will feel. I speak from experience, having served her for a long time now. 

In all these years there has never been a single time when I ended the session with Her and I felt angry or sad. Happiness and satisfaction have always been the feelings I felt. 

The last session I had with her, as an example, was amazing even just starting by the way She was dressed. A unique (and probably expensive) black dress, black Wolford pantyhose, and Louboutin high heels. Her perfect makeup and long, beautiful hair only made the whole picture so perfect that it took me a few minutes to type even one single word. 

I don’t even know how much I’ve spent, that’s not even the point. The point is that I felt happy, relaxed, and satisfied when the session ended. No regrets, no sadness, nothing. Just positive vibes and feelings.

That’s the kind of magic Goddess Ishtar brings with Her. Because she’s simply… The One

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The Findom Cycle

The Findom Cycle

I have been a moneyslave for more than 10 years now, and sometimes I like to sit back and take a look at my actions from an “external” point of view: it’s interesting to find common paths that happen over and over the years, some common sequence of events that characterize me as a moneyslave. 

There is one in particular that I can see repeating itself over and over, almost daily in some periods, it’s the one I like to call: The Findom Cycle.

It’s for sure nothing that anyone into financial domination for a while doesn’t know about yet, but perhaps it will be interesting to describe its phases to those that still didn’t notice it.

1 – The Caution

Every moneyslave starts by trying to be cautious: we always believe we can hold back, we can control ourselves. So we kinda look at our Goddess (or more than one) from a distance, taking brief looks at their pictures, briefly reading their messages on Twitter, but always ending up with a reason to don’t spend. With a reason why we should just look away and get on with our life. How long this work for changes from slave to slave and, more important, from period to period. There are certain periods of my life where I can be cautious for a few days only before going to the next phase, other times I can stay longer. It all depends on many different things: from the situation in my real life, till how satisfactory (and expensive) was my last session and yes, also the kind of “signals” I get from Goddesses (for a clear example, read my article about how “Variety triggers me“.

As time goes by though, we all start to feel the urge of a session, of a tribute. That little voice in our head saying “come on, why not? Isn’t it what you really want to be happy?”. Perhaps we try to fight this little voice for a while…but soon enough the next phase happens. 

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2 – The Enjoyment

That’s it. Enough being cautious. Enough holding back. We embrace our nature, we need to do what we desire the most. Looking at our Goddess (or at Goddesses) has a different meaning now, we NEED a session, we NEED a small thing that “ticks” our desire, that makes us do that final step, that makes us embrace what we are and makes us crawl at a Goddess to beg for a session. It can be a twit, a picture, something she says, a particular moment of our life…we are basically only looking for a pretext. For a reason to send a tribute or have a session. And when that happens, we fully enjoy our fetish. We are money slaves and, at that moment, we are totally happy with our nature. The session happens, the drain happens, our happiness starts from now and lasts till the session… or even a bit more actually. 

3 – The Day After

And then there is the day after. What happens after a drain session? How do we feel when we cool down? How do we feel thinking back at what we did? Well, it depends. We don’t all react the same way, and we don’t react each time the same way. But I can bet that most of the time, we regret what we did. We regret the big-spending, the big weakness, the uncontrollable desire to send money. It’s what we love, it’s what made us happy during the session but… then there are real-life consequences. Could I have spent that money in a better way? Could have I saved them for later? Why did I have to spend them all in such a short time? 

Anyway, the last phase usually doesn’t last long. Unless we are in one of those life moments for a money slave when we say “ok fuck it, I need to stop all this forever”, the regret doesn’t last more than a day or two. After that, usually, the first phase comes back… in the never-ending Findom Cycle.