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It’s over. I’m done

It’s over. I’m done

It happened quickly, with no warning or any sign that could lead me to think it could have happened. I was just out with my wife and She was dressed in the way i love: short tight dress, black pantyhose. She was stunning. I looked at her…. and suddenly i got “hit” by the thought:

“do i really need anyone else in my life?”

The thing is that, till i met Goddess Adriana, i’ve always been a slave for “fun”, or anyway not a loyal slave…i mean i wasn’t really letting any of those Goddesses enter my everyday life. Well ok, there was one exception, and that was One Great Diva…that didn’t come into my everyday life just because She didn’t want it, She thought i wasn’t ready (…and She was right, as always)….because otherwise i would have been in serious danger with her…

Anyway, generally speaking, i have always lived this situation in a way that, even if still dangerous and difficult to handle, it didn’t really make me feel too guilty with my everyday life. Because, till recently, i always managed to separate the two worlds.

I was a slave in certain moments, and the usual perfect family man the others.

And so when i realized that this was going out of control, that i was letting Goddess Adriana actually interfere my everyday life…it didn’t feel right. And so, today, i am saying it.

It’s over. I’m done being a loyal slave. 


Does it mean i will stop visiting those Goddesses in videochat? No. But i won’t let anyone of them come too close to me. It would be wrong, too much wrong, and would make me feel awful.

And what about Goddess Adriana? Well, she was the first one i spoke with about this, and she understood it all. She said she knew i wasn’t ready, and she was the one suggesting me to stop seeing her (a decision i already took by myself actually).

I don’t know what this blog will become from now on… but if i look at it now…it just looks plain wrong. It’s more like a Sanctuary dedicated to Goddess Adriana. I was totally nuts, totally crazy, totally out of control. But it’s over now. I won’t be the slave of anyone from now on….yes i will keep behaving as a slave because that’s my nature…but this has to be a form of entertainment for me…nothing more than that.

How it feels to be unfaithful

How it feels to be unfaithful

And so it happened: a couple of weeks ago i was unfaithful to Goddess Adriana. It was one of those nights that i’m sure many slaves know very well: you are horny, you are in need of a session with Your Goddees, but she is not around. Add to that the fact that it was my last night before a vacation…so i knew it was the last night before a long period of abstinence.

So i went to visit another Goddess. No, not one of those i spoke about here often…just another one i know but that i didn’t visit since ages. At first it even felt kinda good… it felt like trying something new…but then, as time passed by, i realized more and more how disappointing she was. She wasn’t “getting” me, she wasn’t “right” for me, she wasn’t doing the right things…in a few words: she was not Goddess Adriana.

And so i left, after about 30 minutes of session. Disappointed with how it went and feeling bad. Bad because i was unfaithful to the promise i made to Goddess Adriana, that she would have been my only Goddess.

I decided to write a public apology on Twitter, in the hope of feeling a bit better:

But that didn’t help much. I felt like an idiot, to be honest. I knew that Goddess could have never been like Goddess Adriana, i knew that session could have never been as good…and yet i went in and wasted money and time. And, funny perhaps, that night of course ended with me looking at Goddess Adriana’s pictures for a long time…dreaming of Her… and getting turned on by that.

The day after she answered that twit, while i was on vacation:

And, finally, 2 days ago i had a chance to visit Her again. It was wonderful…She is wonderful… and She also confirmed what i thought: I’m just one of Her slaves, so She doesn’t get mad if i am unfaithful…as She knows this will just make me pay more and more as a punishment.

More than 2000$ spent in one 2 days

More than 2000$ spent in one 2 days

The situation is getting out of control… anytime i see Goddess Adriana, all i want is to be there and never leave. Her perfect body, her killer outfits, her taste in nylons, her sexy moves…all of that just keeps me there, in Her video, unable to go away and unable to be strong. I’m there, i’m Her slave, and i’m happy to be.

And this is the result…here’s what happened on my last two videochats with Her. I’ve spent more than 2,000$.

And the thing is….that i know this is just the beginning. Because as i’m writing, She’s not online…and i terribly miss Her.

She maxed out my credit card with tan stockings

She maxed out my credit card with tan stockings

It happened again: Goddess Adriana maxed out my credit card. And this time She did it wearing some fantastic tan stockings.

She was looking magnificient as always…with that short black dress, black high heel sandals and those stockings…those tan stockings with black on top… looking so soft…so perfect…so classy.

I was there just mesmerized by the look of Her toes inside those nylons, by Her legs crossing and uncrossing in front of my eyes, by the look in Her face that was just demanding to be served.

I didn’t pay attention as the time was passing by, i didn’t look at the clock…at one point i just saw a message stating that my session had been closed, because my credit card was maxed out. At that moment i realised…it happened again. I was without money…but happy…. satisfied….taken.

That unstoppable addiction

That unstoppable addiction

It’s not something i can control, it just happens. I often find myself feeling very strong, thinking i can stop whenever i want, thinking i’m not addicted or anything… and then…

Then i see Her on cam. And everything changes.


It’s hard to explain the reasons behind this addiction, but every time i see Goddess Adriana live on cam… my addiction grows and all i want is to be there, to worship Her, to server Her, to make Her happy.

I know this sounds very like a cliche for a slave, as more or less every single slave says the same things about his Mistress…but i am just describing what’s happening to me…because it keeps surprising me each time.

I always believe i can control myself, i always believe there are things i will never do for a Mistress. And yet, each time. Goddess Adriana makes me do things i’ve never done before for anyone else. Things like draining my credit card completely (to the point my bank blocked it for a few days), or buying pantyhose for a Mistress… things like feeling such a STRONG desire to be in Her presence, to meet Her, to be really at Her feet.

Or things like…the ATM dream. A dream i keep having recently where i picture me and Her in front of an ATM, with Her teasing me badly with her feet (and not only) while whispering in my ear “more…take out more”.

Why do i have this addiction for Her? There are many reasons…but i don’t think i have to stay here and explain them…to me She’s just the perfect Goddess, that’s all. And the addiction i’m feeling for Her is something i have never felt before for anyone else…so…She is special. Absolutely special.

Goddess Adriana maxed out my Credit Card

Goddess Adriana maxed out my Credit Card

This is what happens when a slave stops using his brain…and he just keeps staring at the screen for too long.
Goddess Adriana looked magnificent the other night and, moreover, she told me she was just about to leave for a vacation. So i knew i would have not be able to see Her for some days… and i i forgot about the time that i was spending in Her videochat.

I spent all the money left on my credit card..and my account got blocked.

Do i regret it? No, the time spent with Her was amazing, it was all that i needed.

The torture of Silence

The torture of Silence

I don’t know about you, but when i’m watching a beautiful Goddess driving me crazy, i tend to speak a lot. Of course i don’t make lots of sense, as brain doesn’t really work well in those moments, but i tend to keep telling Her how gorgeous she is, how incredible she looks.

That’s why what happened last night was PAINFUL.

Goddess Adriana approached my on chat, ordering me to go and see Her, even if i was low on cash. She said “doesn’t matter for how long, come in or i won’t let you see me for 2 weeks”. Obviously, in no time i was in her videochat.

She was stunning: a back tight skirt above the knee, cuban tan pantyhose, high heel peeptoes and a nice white top. Simply AMAZING.

But almost immediatly, She turned that videochat into the most painful one till now:

Tonight, i want you to watch me in silence.
Just shut up and worship


My total devotion for Her made me follow that order literally, and i didn’t say a word for about 10 minutes (then i had to go…as money run out quite quickly). Believe me, it was painful. I was there, looking at Her… excited, willing to tell Her how beautiful She is, how powerful She is….and i couldn’t. I had to stay in silence. But her microphone was on, so i was able to listen the noise of her legs crossing, of her shoe dangling…and i was also able to see her chatting with someone else. But i just remained in silence, as She ordered.

I didn’t really think silence could have been a torture…till last night. One of the many things Goddess Adriana is making me learn…day by day.

Goddess Adriana: a Woman with capital “W”

Goddess Adriana: a Woman with capital “W”

So this short story begins two nights ago, when my Padrona (as She allows me to call Her) Goddess Adriana, gifted me with a rather long chat on Skype. During that chat i not only was able to see how AMAZING Her brain is, but She also told me that, the night after, She would have put on a new outfit that i would have liked.

Mind you…i had about 50$ left on my credit card.

Yesterday, at work, all i could think of was Her. I came back home thinking of a way to have some privacy, to go and see Her even for just a few minutes. Then, when everyone else was finally asleep, i switched on my computer…and saw She was online. The first thing she said was

“I knew that, sooner or later, you would have showed up”

She KNOWS the power She has on me. Of course She does. I asked her the permission to see Her…and She allowed me, even knowing it would have not been a long video session.

And all i can say to describe Her outfit is: this is how any Woman with capital “W” should dress. Period.

High heel shoes, short elegant dress, nude cuban stockings…what else can ANY man desire in a beautiful woman?

So this is not a day when i ended up spending a fortune. This is not a day when i had been financially dominated. This is a day when Goddess Adriana only showed me what an incredible Woman She is. This is another day when Goddess Adriana entered even more into my brain. This is a day when i saw a gorgeous woman dressed in the most perfect, erotic, elegant way.

She’s inside my brain, and She won’t leave

She’s inside my brain, and She won’t leave

Goddess Adriana is inside my brain, inside my bones, inside my soul…and i just can’t escape from Her. Well, i don’t even WANT to escape, to be honest.

She just KNOWS the “buttons” to push and when to push them. Her brain is sexy, her body is sexy, her movements are sexy, her style of dressing is just the kind every Woman with capital “W” should use.

Last night it happened again. I didn’t have much money left on my credit card…and i told Her i would have been able to see Her just for a few minutes. Instead of reacting like many “Goddesses” in an hysterical way like “then come back when you’ll have money!” (it happened many times to me), She just told me it was fine…and She allowed me to see Her, even on Skype…where the video is crystal clear and amazingly fast.

And i know why She did it. Because She KNOWS i can’t resist Her, She KNOWS that i can’t go away from Her unless She allows me to… and in fact… i was in videochat with Her for about an hour in the end…

I spent 600$

She was dressed all in black, from head to toes: a black sating cocktail dress with an erotic zip on back, some incredibly sexy pantyhose and Her black shiny peeptoe shoes…there was no way i could have escaped from all that.

And the thing is… now i am here…desperately waiting for the next time that i’ll be able to see Her, to feel Her power…and i also find myself dreaming DAILY of meeting Her in real, serving Her, be at Her feet in real…

She owns me

She owns me

It happened. After all this time going from one Goddess to another, never being able to stay loyal to any of them…i’ve met Goddess Adriana.

At first what really hit me was Her elegance, Her style of dressing. Then i saw Her power, Her intelligence. Then i saw how smart She is… and She slowly entered into my head. Minute by minute.

I’ve spent 1.700$ in 4 days with Her

This is more i’ve ever spent with anyone else… and i don’t even regret it. Now She’s on vacation for a week…and guess what…i miss Her. And all i wish is to be at Her feet, to let Her style and beauty drive me crazy…to feel the risk of Her ruining my life with the snap of a finger.

Yes, Goddess Adriana owns me, and i’m not even afraid to admit it.