It’s over. I’m done
It happened quickly, with no warning or any sign that could lead me to think it could have happened. I was just out with my wife and She was dressed in the way i love: short tight dress, black pantyhose. She was stunning. I looked at her…. and suddenly i got “hit” by the thought:
“do i really need anyone else in my life?”
The thing is that, till i met Goddess Adriana, i’ve always been a slave for “fun”, or anyway not a loyal slave…i mean i wasn’t really letting any of those Goddesses enter my everyday life. Well ok, there was one exception, and that was One Great Diva…that didn’t come into my everyday life just because She didn’t want it, She thought i wasn’t ready (…and She was right, as always)….because otherwise i would have been in serious danger with her…
Anyway, generally speaking, i have always lived this situation in a way that, even if still dangerous and difficult to handle, it didn’t really make me feel too guilty with my everyday life. Because, till recently, i always managed to separate the two worlds.
I was a slave in certain moments, and the usual perfect family man the others.
And so when i realized that this was going out of control, that i was letting Goddess Adriana actually interfere my everyday life…it didn’t feel right. And so, today, i am saying it.
It’s over. I’m done being a loyal slave.
Does it mean i will stop visiting those Goddesses in videochat? No. But i won’t let anyone of them come too close to me. It would be wrong, too much wrong, and would make me feel awful.
And what about Goddess Adriana? Well, she was the first one i spoke with about this, and she understood it all. She said she knew i wasn’t ready, and she was the one suggesting me to stop seeing her (a decision i already took by myself actually).
I don’t know what this blog will become from now on… but if i look at it now…it just looks plain wrong. It’s more like a Sanctuary dedicated to Goddess Adriana. I was totally nuts, totally crazy, totally out of control. But it’s over now. I won’t be the slave of anyone from now on….yes i will keep behaving as a slave because that’s my nature…but this has to be a form of entertainment for me…nothing more than that.