My name is YourMoneySlave, and for more than fifteen years I have been documenting my experiences inside the world of financial domination.

Unlike most people who write about findom, I am not approaching the subject as a researcher, a journalist, or an outside observer. I write about it because I have lived it. Financial domination has been the most persistent fetish of my adult life, and understanding why has become something of an obsession in itself.

Over the years I have spent thousands of dollars on online Mistresses, video chat sessions, custom content, and various forms of financial submission. Like many people involved in this world, I have gone through periods where I felt completely in control, only to realize later that I was rationalizing behaviour I barely understood myself.

What started as a fetish eventually became something else: an attempt to understand my own behaviour.

I became increasingly fascinated by the psychological mechanisms behind financial domination. Why do certain fantasies become obsessions? Why do intelligent people repeatedly make decisions that work against their own interests? Why can pleasure, shame, excitement, guilt and attachment coexist so easily within the same experience?

Those questions eventually became the foundation of everything I write.

I have no cam. I have a fetish for feet, pantyhose, high heels, elegant dressing, teasing looks. I am deeply triggered by women who understand those weaknesses and use them strategically. That has always been my vulnerability.

That is what I used to say during video chat sessions while exposing every weakness to women I barely knew, hoping one of them would become the perfect financial dominatrix.

A few came very close.

Why This Blog Exists

In 2009 I spent roughly $9,000 on financial domination and webcam sessions.

On December 31st of that year, after spending another $400 in less than two hours, I reached a point where I could no longer ignore what was happening. For the first time, I stopped asking whether I could afford it and started asking why I kept doing it.

Instead of simply trying to quit, I decided to document everything publicly.

Every success.

Every relapse.

Every mistake.

Every excuse.

Every uncomfortable realization.

The idea was simple: if I could not understand my behaviour privately, perhaps I could understand it by documenting it openly.

What started as a personal experiment slowly evolved into a blog followed by thousands of readers interested in financial domination, fetish psychology, addiction, power exchange relationships, and human behaviour.

The goal was never to present myself as an authority. The goal was to understand what was happening to me and to document that process honestly.

Losing Everything And Starting Again

In September 2016, a hardware failure destroyed the server hosting the original version of this blog.

Years of articles disappeared overnight.

Fortunately, not everything was lost.

Using archived resources such as the Wayback Machine, I managed to recover most of the old content and rebuild the site from scratch. The process took time, but it also gave me the opportunity to revisit years of writing and see recurring patterns that I had completely missed while living through them.

Since then I have continued writing, documenting not only my own experiences but also the broader psychological mechanisms that seem to drive financial domination relationships.

The PayPig Chronicles

Over the years the blog expanded into The PayPig Chronicles, a podcast dedicated to exploring financial domination from the submissive perspective.

The podcast covers topics such as addiction, emotional attachment, compulsive spending, shame, secrecy, manipulation, recovery, relapse, and the complex relationship between fantasy and reality.

Although the format has changed, the purpose remains exactly the same as it was in 2009: to better understand a world that is often discussed in simplistic terms but is rarely examined in depth.

Inside The Mind Of A PayPig

After more than fifteen years of writing articles, documenting experiences, speaking with readers, interacting with dominants and submissives, and reflecting on my own journey, I eventually realized that I had accumulated enough stories, questions, mistakes, and observations to fill a book.

That book became Inside The Mind Of A PayPig: Fifteen Years Inside Financial Domination.

It is not a guide.

It is not a manifesto.

It is not an attempt to convince anyone that financial domination is either good or bad.

It is a personal memoir and psychological exploration of obsession, desire, shame, power, attachment, and the questions that continue to follow me after all these years.

If you would like to learn more, read a free sample here:

books.yourmoneyslave.com

What Others Say About Me

Over the years I have been interviewed by several international publications covering financial domination and related psychological topics.

For a complete overview of media coverage, visit the Media / Press page.

• 4th Feb 2015 – Interview with Vice.com
• 5th May 2017 – Article in Wonderzine based on my interview
• 22nd May 2017 – South China Morning Post article about Financial Domination
• 1st April 2022 – Interviewed by Italian magazine Frisson

Why I Continue Writing

Financial domination is often reduced to money, sex, humiliation, or fantasy.

In reality, it is far more complicated.

Behind every tribute, every session, every relapse and every obsession there are emotional needs, psychological triggers, cognitive biases, behavioural patterns, and deeply personal stories that rarely receive the attention they deserve.

I continue writing because I believe those mechanisms are worth exploring.

Not from a safe distance.

Not as an outside observer.

But from the inside.