I have been a PayPig for more than 12 years now, and if there is one Goddess out there that has been a constant, prominent presence in my Financial Domination journey, that for sure is Goddess Ishtar.
The way I spoiled Her online more or less remained the same till a few months ago when I noticed She opened her new fan page.
As soon as I saw that page, I was fascinated by the great variety of ways I could now spoil, serve and worship Her: I was not only limited to paying to see her on cam or to send her tributes!
To better explain what I’m talking about, I will try to describe the “process” that usually leads me to a draining session with Her, from the very moment when it all begins, a moment when I am usually not even excited, horny, or have any intention to send tributes.
Photos and videos to lure You in
Her page is like a magnet to me, and I’m pretty sure She uses it for that purpose. I visit it daily to watch her new content. I can’t resist the temptation to look at Her beauty, to drool on those pictures and videos, even when I don’t plan to have a session or send tributes, I still visit Her page and drool. And I think that’s exactly what makes her page so dangerous. Of course, I joined it so I can see all the content, but the monthly cost is nothing compared to the danger that page brings. I don’t even feel like that is a monthly tribute or anything, it’s just what allows me to watch her content, to drool on it, and to crave Her power.
Sending tips: when your desire starts to grow
I won’t deny that I always try to resist the temptation to be financially drained: it comes naturally, as a form of “self-defense”, let’s say. And besides, where is the excitement if I don’t even try to resist? It’s part of the process for me, it’s part of my way of living financial domination…it has always been there. And this is exactly why the ability to send tips to Goddess Ishtar, anytime and from anywhere, looks like the perfect way to give in a bit, but not too much. At first, it feels like the perfect way to stay in control of the situation. You think you are just sending a small tip, feeding your desire to spoil, but can still keep it under control in this way. But that’s not really what’s happening in your brain. Tipping Her is the perfect way for your brain to get used to spending, to open your wallet a bit…ready for it to be drained big time later.
The thing is that… I look at one picture I like and want to express my gratitude to Her. Just pressing the “like” button doesn’t feel enough. That’s how the little green button “tip” on the bottom of the picture starts to demand to be clicked. It looks like the only way to satisfy a bit of my need of serving Her, but what it really does is open up my brain for the soon to come real draining. At this stage, what usually happens is that I end up sending a tip on each of the new photos or videos She posts. It feels good to do that, it feels natural, it feels like the thing to do.
The wait after the tips
The next “phase” I always go through is the “wait” after the tips. And the funny thing is that, although I always go through this phase, it always goes the same way: I wait for something that never happens.
Each time I, as a slave, send a tribute to a Goddess (even a small tip), deep inside I always have the huge desire for her to acknowledge that tribute…you know, the classic “good boy” message, at the very minimum. But there is NO chance for this to happen after just a few tips, surely not with Goddess Ishtar. She is one of the most desired, busy Goddesses out there. A slave needs to do way more than just a few tips for her to even notice him. And it doesn’t matter that I’ve been spoiling Her for ages…actually, that makes it even less likely. She knows what I can tribute, and I’m pretty sure she will always ignore me (or pretend to) if I am only sending a few tips.
What this “phase” does to me though, is that it makes my desire to serve Her grow even more. Every minute I get more and more eager to be really in contact with Her, to see Her reaction to my tributes, to feel Her power on my skin, to feel Her beauty get inside my brain and do a carnage in there…
The big drain
So, to summarize a bit, my excitement and need to spoil Her started growing by looking at her pictures and videos, which lead to sending her tips…and this only made me start opening my wallet a bit…while my excitement kept growing.
What do you think happens as soon as She comes online? Picture this: I’m on her page, looking at those pictures, sending tips, and adding comments, my excitement is growing and I see she becomes available.
That’s the moment when it all ends as it always did in all these years: a big, satisfying, exciting, draining session like only Her can give to me. The difference between before she had this page and now is that, in a way, now the session starts when she is not even online. The big drain in the real session is like the inevitable conclusion of this process, where I, the slave, have so many more ways to fall deeper and deeper into her trap.
We could say that her page is, in a way, a big, elegant, exciting, huge trap for us, slaves. But it’s the kind of trap we all want to fall in, the kind of trap we crave to be caught by, the kind of trap that gives us so many more ways to spoil Her, serve Her, get excited and weak for Her. If you haven’t done it yet, don’t waste more time: click here and enjoy her new page…you will thank me later.