Ok i will say it again: i’m broke. Till monday my credit card is maxed out….so i can just…sit here and dream on free stuff…and that hurts, a lot. I’ve been browsing around pictures for a while tonight, and some of them are really driving me crazy…i’ll post them here and well…if you’ll click on them you’ll see whom they belong to…
My card is maxed out. Yeah… it’s actually the first time that this happens to me since i started into this financial domination mess. And it’s not because of the money spent online, but just for other kind of expenses that concentrated in a week…
So…i’m here, in the usual need to be under a mistress spell…and i can’t as i have no money to spend online.
Constant denial, this is what it looks like to me.
One Great Diva has, obviously, lots of moneyslaves…and it’s quite common for Her to receive stuff from them….well… yesterday She sent me two pictures of the shoes She just got…
I know why She sent them to me…She wants to rape my wallet again…. She wants to show me how great her power is…as if i didn’t know it already…
Looks like my financial domination fetish isn’t going to get weaker anytime soon…
This time i think i’ve really found a new nightmare that is going to be strong for a while. Last night i’ve seen a Goddess i’ve never seen before…and i was shocked by her beauty and attitude. As perfect and strong as… Sheena i would say.
Miss Mira is blonde as Sheena and she has the same attitude: slow moves, slow teasing, smoking and…demanding, way demanding. I’ve spent one hour with her…and in the end i literally run away as i knew she wouldn’t have let me go easily.
She had tan pantyhose and some high heel sandals on…and believe it or not…now i’m in such a great need to see her….just to see that beauty in some different outfit.
very now and then, it just happens. No one of the Goddesses i normally visit is online, but i feel the need to go on cam…and so i start browsing… usually nothing special happens…then… sometimes i meet an incredibly gorgeous girl whom shows also A LOT of power… that was the case the other night, when EyesCandy (that’s her nickname) raped my wallet by 500$.
No words can easily describe her beauty, although i could easily say that she looks like Kylie Minogue, but anyway…i made a short video…
For the records, i run away like a coward when she was getting hotter and hotter and, at the same time, asking me to do things for her. At one moment she asked me to go and get my wife’s lipstick, to wrote something on my body..and….i just run away, came in a huge flood and….remained there looking at the screen for about 5 minutes.
Will i be back to her? Probably not anytime soon… or i’ll have one more BIG trouble to deal with.
I hate the way things are going now in my private life, i really hate it. What happened? I lost ALL my privacy, ALL my chances to spend time with myself and well…with my financial domination fetish fight. The reason? My mother-in-law came visit us, and she’ll be here for another full week.
I should be happy…this way i really can’t go online and spend money…but i’m not. I hate that i am FORCED to stay away from that…from the thing that excites me the most.
One thing is my desire to fight it, another to be forced to not go online. I know how this will end…as soon as i’ll have privacy again…i’ll spend a fortune…
This is a lesson I’m learning through time and huge mistakes: if I stay away from financial domination, I’m always ending up spending more when I get back to it (because I always do).
The same thing happened last night when, after about a month of low expenses, I saw a Goddess was online and I couldn’t stop myself from visiting her again.
Again, She was absolutely stunning. After a while that we were just talking (well I was trying to, mesmerized by her beauty), she showed me her brand new Gucci shoes and told me “do you think they would look good with nylons?”
That was the beginning of my failure in reducing expenses. I ended up spending about 600$ and… I came like I never did in about a month.
I can’t stay away from what excites me so much, I just can’t stay away from it.
While writing this article, I went to update the page where I keep the status of this financial domination problem…and well it’s true. I was slowing down (a bit) and, till last night, I had spent just 200$ in the whole of April…
It has been nearly 3 months since i’ve last updated the page where i keep track of the money i spend on financial domination (this page)…and i guess it was because i KNEW this was NOT going well at all.
I’m spending way more than any other moment of my life…surely way more than when i’ve started this blog… i guess i will just have to give up to my fetish…and acknowledge the fact that i will never stop my financial domination fetish.
