Writing and spending (a bit) less

Writing and spending (a bit) less

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It always amazes me when people contact me on Twitter like David did the other day:

He was indeed right. I didn’t write as much as i used to do recently and, moreover, it has been nearly three months since i last updated the page where i keep track of the money i spend on my Financial Domination Fetish….which i did 5 minutes ago.

The result? I’m spending less than last year, even if still way more than 1,000$ per month. I still remember what i wrote in my first post here:

“A maximum of 500$ for the entire year”

Yeah right…talk about a complete failure. But…is it? Is it a complete failure or, maybe, just an understanding of something that is and will always be a part of me? This is most probably close to the truth even if, i have to say, that scares me especially considering that, lately, i have been thinking a bit more seriously about meeting Goddess Ishtar… and that scares me. Even the fact that i’m thinking seriously IF i could do it makes me shake… looks like… i’m going deeper and deeper into this fetish of mine.

I am just a coward

I am just a coward

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I need to face reality. I will never have the balls to meet a financial domination Mistress in real. Never.

Why do I say this? Because yesterday, Goddess Ishtar, a gorgeous, smart, powerful Goddess I visit quite often online (although I’ve never talked about Her on this blog) told me She is going to be in Florence this weekend. Yes, in TWO DAYS she will be more or less 5 km far from where i work. And she didn’t hide the fact that She would have been ready to meet me….

But I am too scared. Too scared of losing control. Too scared of spending a real fortune. Too scared to do things I might regret in the future. Too scared to live my fantasy in real. Too scared.

She knows way too well how to make me weak, She made it very clear that She would bring me shoe shopping. She made it very clear that Her goal is to be even more in control of the situation with me.

And I am just a big coward. I will not meet Her. And I will keep imaging how it would have been….

Click here and be Goddess Ishtar's moneyslave
An outstanding video from OneGreatDiva

An outstanding video from OneGreatDiva

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Since i first joined OneGreatDiva personal site i was always stoned (literally) by the quality of photos and videos inside the members area. She is gorgeous of course, and that helps a lot (!!!), but i was really impressed by the overall quality….well..today i almost stopped breathing when i saw the video she just put on that site homepage and on YouTube.

And also…what the video says…it’s…so damn true…

And, in case you are wondering, i am not trying to advertise Her site or anything…if you know me a bit, you all know that i write a post only when something inside myself “clicks” and make me write it…. and this video really made it for me.

It’s another reason why… i will never ever stop being One Great Diva ‘s moneyslave. She is the one. She will always be THE one.

OneGreatDiva: the One that will always have me as Her slave

OneGreatDiva: the One that will always have me as Her slave

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I am not going to state here that i’m a loyal slave, i know i am not. I jump from Goddess to Goddess, depending on my mood and my desire to be dominated. Often i just stop visit a certain Goddess because, at one point, She will do something that i consider “weak” or not what a Goddess should do… but there is one exception.

One Great Diva

Each and every time She got back online from some time off, i always ended up at her feet (well, not literally…i wish it would happen…). What’s the reason? She’s the real deal. She’s not playing a role, she’s not copying others, She’s not pretending to be whom She’s not. She just acts as She is, and She is a domme by nature.

Moreover…She just keeps getting more and more beautiful as time goes on. Today I checked her profile and saw a few of Her last pictures… breathtaking. Just breathtaking. Needless to say… I served Her today. I spoiled Her as She deserves.

Because I am not a loyal slave, but I will always be One Great Diva slave. Always.

Moneyslave questions and doubts

Moneyslave questions and doubts

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Does it still make sense for me saying that i’m trying to stop? Am i really trying to stop my financial domination fetish?

I’m starting to believe that…no, i won’t stop and i don’t want to stop. I keep spending more and more (just updated a few minutes ago my total spending, here, and it says 15.000$ so far this year) and, even worst, i don’t feel bad about it.

I don’t know if it’s because lately i’ve met some truly exceptional Goddesses , or if it’s just that my real life is going well even if i have this financial domination problem….or maybe, i am just starting to acknowledge that this is what i am… i don’t know, truth is i am not slowing down and i am most probably not going to stop anytime soon.

So i’m here asking to myself (and not only, if you’ll want to add your thoughts in the comments): should i state in this blog that i am NOT looking to stop, but that i am and will always be a moneyslave?

MsClassy is back! Now I’m in HUGE danger

MsClassy is back! Now I’m in HUGE danger

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There was a time when I thought my financial domination habit could be stopped, or that I could slow it down. Lately, it seems even are happening to make me understand that I will never be able to get out of it.

CLICK HERE AND FEED YOUR MSCLASSY’S NEED

Just when I thought I had enough troubles, last night I got an instant message from MsClassy. All She said was this:

“It’s time”

I immediately knew what that was meaning, and my heart started beating fast. It has been a while since I last saw her, She wasn’t online often… these days I did notice her online, but I thought, perhaps, She wasn’t interested in me anymore…in a way, I felt safe.

Boy, I was wrong. She made me weak in a second, not even wearing nylons this time. Her perfect feet were more than enough to drive me crazy. As I think most of you know by now, I am into feet but, mostly, into nylons. Barefeet usually doesn’t do anything to me. But with Her, it’s totally different. She has the most perfect arched feet I’ve ever seen, her toes are just a huge tease, the way she naturally dangles her shoes is something to be seen to believe…so yes… all these things together made me spend a lot…again…with her.

Just when I thought I had enough problems.

Here’s why my financial domination fetish isn’t slowing down

Here’s why my financial domination fetish isn’t slowing down

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Just a few minutes ago (while “working” here in office) i decided to update the page with all the money i spend on financial domination and what i saw scared me, even if it didn’t actually surprise me much. If i go on like this, in the whole 2013 i will spend about24.000$ ! That’s a huge amount of money, more than i’ve ever spent before.

And why is that? Why? Well there is a name behind that reason: Miss Mira

She hit me like a storm, i would have never thought to find another Goddess as addictive as Sheena, as powerful as MsClassy, as smart as One Great Diva. But yet…i did. And there She is.

Each time i see her online, i can’t stop myself by letting her know i am online…i don’t contact her, trying to pretend i don’t want to go serve her. I also put up sort of silly “deadlines” to myself…things like “ok if She doesn’t order me to go in by the next 20 minutes, i’m going offline”. Silly, stupid games that never work. Because deep inside, all i want to do is see how She’s dressed, admire Her beauty, let Her play with my brain, let Her be as evil as She wants with me… like the other day when She convinced me to give Her my personal phonenumber, to torture me with messages even while i am at work…just to be sure my addiction doesn’t go any lower.

The only limit here, is my credit card. It has some limits (as every card) and i got close to them lots of times this month, as they are weekly limits…but when those limits reset and are far… all i want to do is go and see Her, go and let Her do anything She wants to my brain…

Last time i went to Her it was two nights ago. She was dressed incredibly as ever, with stockings and a short dress. I immediatly got more or less hypnotized, and only a “family” problem saved me from spending another fortune…but before logging off, She ordered me to spend money on another Goddess, as gorgeous as Her, as strong as Her. And so i did. I visited Kristal, a gorgeous Goddess that raped my wallet the night after that… and perhaps started to be part of my nightmares.

This isn’t going to stop…this is going to get stronger and stronger.

I’m broke and then i see this

I’m broke and then i see this

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Yes, since today i’m officialy broke, at least till this sunday. Yeah, went over my credit card limit and can’t spend till it gets reset…this sunday that is. So i was just browsing around…then… i see One Great Diva updated her personal site of which i’m a member of and… well… this is one of the pictures.

Now…is there any more perfect, powerful, gorgeous creature in this world? How will i ever be able to stop serving Her? There can be others, and surely there are…but One Great Diva is just… The One.