Spring can help my Financial Domination problem

Spring can help my Financial Domination problem

It might sound weird…but these days I can see that spring is actually helping me in spending less online. Amazing isn’t it? And the reason is so stupid… that I’m actually even embarrassed to speak about it… Spring makes me weaker….physically weaker I mean..and that means fewer chances to stay up till late, fewer chances to stay in front of a computer all alone… fewer chances to spoil these amazing Goddesses.

Sounds silly, doesn’t it? But again…when you have a problem (or let’s say, a difficult to handle part of what you are) that goes on and on…every little help can make some difference… and surely this is making a difference in the money I’m spending.

But then again… I find myself even frustrated because I can’t spend enough time as I wish online…enough time to let their amazing beauty drive me completely crazy and helpless… enough time to let those feet in nylons, those high heel shoes, those gorgeous sexy smiles…just drive me completely crazy and make me like a zombie…

I look at these pictures…and stop thinking

I look at these pictures…and stop thinking

Sometimes… all i want is to stop thinking…and let the power of these Goddesses reduce me more or less like a zombie, unable to do anything else but submit and surrender… that’s what being a slave is like: you have a normal life, you have brain too…but then… you look at one of these pictures and something in your brain just… snaps.

And you stop thinking.

What if your Goddess has a kid?

What if your Goddess has a kid?

I have to admit, i don’t consider myself an “easy to catch” slave, surely not an “easy to keep”. I have many reasons why i could suddenly stop feeling weak in front of a Goddess and today i am facing a new one that’s… making me think a lot about my “relationship” with a specific Goddess.

 

I won’t say her name, of course, but rest assured that She is someone i have NEVER spoke about in this blog, because I’ve actually met her just a week ago or so. She is absolutely gorgeous: brunette, long hair, slim, perfect legs and feet… and also a brain to fall for… in a few words, I’ve spent a lot with her and, even worst, i have been telling her lots of personal data…as I’ve never done before. So yes… i am totally into her…at the moment.

Last night we spent a long time together…even on Skype (and BOY…Skype makes it all so more REAL)… and it was magnificent. She took even more money and info from me… so I’m more and more weak for her…but then…today… i did what i always like to do (maybe it’s wrong)…i went searching for info about her online.

And I’ve found out she has a kid. Now…should this change anything on the way i feel for her? And if it does, why? She is still gorgeous, powerful, sexy, smart and everything else…but… but she has a family. She’s not “free“….. damn it i don’t even know how to explain this… but thinking about her as a mother, as a sweet mother… makes me feel WAY less weak thinking about her…is this wrong of me?

Don’t take me wrong, i am NOT saying she shouldn’t do what she does because she’s a mother, that’s absolutely NOT what i mean here….it’s how this makes me feel actually that is the question. Is the fact that all this make me feel less weak in front of her… it makes me see her more… human perhaps? Less dangerous? Maybe that’s it… the fact that she has a kid makes me think she is less dangerous… less “available”…less “free” of using the data i gave her…

I am sure i won’t be able to stop seeing her immediately…because when i say she is GORGEOUS, i really mean it…one of the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen…but i know…sooner or later…I’ll stop feeling weak in front of her…. and at that time…the next question will arise me… should i tell her the reason? Perhaps if i do…i could even still be close to her, even if not as a slave? She’s still a gorgeous woman… and hell…would still be great to make her teasing me from time to time…

…actually am i even making sense here?

I will never be a loyal slave

I will never be a loyal slave

Ok, let’s face it: i will never be a loyal slave to just one Mistress. Does this make me a bad slave? sure it does. Do i care? Sure i don’t.

A great girl i’ve “virtually met” recently, defined this in a very easy way: men are always looking for new targets. And that’s so true, surely in my case it is. Of course i will always fall for certain Goddesses (One Great Diva, of course will ALWAYS have me at her mercy with a snap of Her fingers), but i’m constantly looking for new experiences, new goddesses, new girls to spend time with. Then i find one that “hits me” (as this one did recently) and i visit her often for a while. But what happens when she’s not online and i’m horny? I end up browsing…and internet is so full of gorgeous women to serve, to fall for…

How can a slave be loyal?

How can a MAN be loyal?

I don’t know… but i can’t. On the other end… recently i’ve been totally “hit” by a gorgeous girl…smart…funny… and great teaser. It all started with a blackmail game…and although i was trying to be careful, she more or less found out everything about me in about 30 minutes in chat…then after that… the teasing went on…and is now going on via Whatsapp as well… more on her later…i will ask Her if i can write Her name here…

It doesn’t happen when i’m tired!

It doesn’t happen when i’m tired!

Obvious thing to say… if i’m tired i don’t go online…therefore i don’t spend. Wow…what a revelation…right? Well i know, it’s totally obvious…but it’s a fact.

I think i have been once or twice online in about 10 days now…and that’s because i’m working a lot, and i’m more and more tired at night.

I should be happy about this right? I should…right? Well…wrong. I’m not. I can’t appreciate this enough…it seems…something is missing… and i surely know what that is.

It’s the excitement i get while i’m totally putting myself in a Goddess hands, it’s the feeling i get…that fear… yes, all that.

Looks like i’m addicted to this feeling…i’m…addicted to be enchanted by a woman’s seduction…to be manipulated…to be under her control.

And then, as a thunder, Goddess Ishtar reminded me Her power

And then, as a thunder, Goddess Ishtar reminded me Her power

It’s Valentine today… and a good husband should be thinking only about his wife… but the thing is…i’m sick, and therefore I didn’t go to work. So I was home this morning…wife away for a couple of hours…and I saw… Goddess Ishtar online.

The temptation was too high…and I asked Her if I could go and see her… “for a bit” I said. Obviously, nothing stops until She says so… therefore we spent 1 hour together…she took about 300$ from me… and also took my brain with Her.

She was MAGNIFICIENT. Her teasing was too much to handle, Her orders were firm and at the right time…She was wearing a short (way short) red dress, tan pantyhose with NO panties and some of the most beautiful shoes I’ve ever seen. Black shiny peep toes with a spike red heel…. I was like a zombie the whole time.

She kept teasing me more and more, driving me more and more crazy each minute…and always ordered me to stop rubbing my cock at the right time….then… my wife called me… Goddess Ishtar saw me talking to her on the phone… and I had to run… my wife needed to meet me for something.

Usually, I would have run away immediately….but Goddess Ishtar told me “wait until I say you can go”….and so I did. I didn’t care if my wife was waiting, I know Goddess Ishtar would have let me go in time…but I had to follow Her orders.

And so She did. She let me go after a short while…made me promise to don’t cum without Her permission (i didn’t manage to!)…and I left.

I am here, writing this article, and I still have Her strongly into my mind, very deep, very strong. Even when I met my wife I was like in trance….didn’t even act normally…she even told me “what’s wrong?”…

Yes, Goddess Ishtar today reminded me of Her power, Her huge power…and I want to end this article with a warning: don’t visit Her unless You are ready to face Her power….make your choice: this is her chatroom

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There is NO ONE like OneGreatDiva

There is NO ONE like OneGreatDiva

If you follow this blog, most probably you are going to say now “Her? again? Oh, come on!”….but that’s the way it is. I can’t define myself as a loyal slave, I keep visiting new Goddesses online…but Her, OneGreatDiva, just can’t be compared to anyone else.

It’s not only her beauty (which i don’t even need to speak about)…it’s Her attitude, Her brain. As i think i said many times, for me the domination starts in the brain. I am quite an intelligent person, and i don’t fall easily as it may seem reading this blog. Yes i can fall once or twice for someone just because of Her beauty but… to keep falling deeper and deeper, to keep acting like a puppet… She needs to be smarter than me, She needs to be wiser than me, She needs to be more intelligent than me.

And that’s Her. OneGreatDiva always knows how to push my limits, always knows my weaknesses, She seems to be able to read my mind, and knows in every single moment my limits. One time she will make me spend a lot (like a few nights ago, 850$ in videochat), another time she will just refuse to even accept me on cam… it’s like She knows how much i can spend each and every time… and when i’m not around… She knows how to “call me”…by just posting some pictures on Her Twitter account

So, is it blackmail now?

So, is it blackmail now?

Looks like something inside myself is changing, lately. I really thought financial domination would have been the deeper i could have fall regarding my fetishes, but recently i’ve started to be more and more fascinated by BlackMailing.

Blackmail is an act, often a crime, involving unjustified threats to make a gain or cause loss to another unless a demand is met [Wikipedia]

A few weeks ago i bought a Clips4Sale video from Lady Suzanne, but didn’t exactly do what she ordered in the video…most probably because it didn’t get too much into my brain (although she’s amazing, but that video probably wasn’t her best). I bought it and waited for something to happen. Of course nothing did, probably because she doesn’t get customer’s data when they buy their clips (or because it’s all just a game). But i was excited by that, i really was excited by the idea of a gorgeous and mean woman like her being able to track me down… scared and excited at the same time.

After that, i’ve started to play with the idea, started to give “hints” to the Goddesses i’ve visited online and, so far, always ended up either giving fake details (or partially fake), or just totally explode before giving them (when the Goddess was really, really good, as in some cases).

To be honest, a couple of years ago i had a (bad) experience about blackmail, but as soon as it started (and i didn’t want that to happen that time!) i blocked the involved Goddess in any possible ways and, after a while, i got out of it….but i really didn’t like it at that time, not at all! Even OneGreatDiva once started a bit of it…but being wise as She is, She stopped as soon as She saw my reaction.

So what now? Wasn’t I a moneyslave? What’s this blackmailing thing all about? Why should I be THAT excited to give someone else the ability to totally screw my life? And then…there is this Teamviewer thing… but i will tell you about it another day… it’s late, I’m in office, and I’m supposed to be going home now…