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When it’s closer… you finally open your eyes

September 5, 2015 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

It was getting closer and closer…it was going to happen, the moment i have been waiting for and dreaming of since months. Finally, i would have been able to experience a live, real life, moneyslavery session. During all those months i have been thinking of what it could have happened, making it like the perfect moment ever for me, as a moneyslave. Everything was perfect.

But.

It was probably perfect only in my head. I wanted it to happen so badly, that i lost sight of a few things that were just not right. A few missing spots. A few “not so perfect” things. When the moment came, i just opened my eyes on these things…and decided that no, it was not going to happen. When it will happen, it will have to be perfect…at least in my head. I will do it when i won’t have any doubts on what i’m going to do.

And before you ask, no, it had nothing to do with the Goddess i was going to make it with. Only my fault, only in my head something just… did not “click”. Maybe it will happen in the future, maybe it won’t. But this time, it would have just been not right to do it.

Everything you think you know about addiction is WRONG

August 5, 2015 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

Today i stumbled across this TED talk from Johann Hari, a british journalist that spent three years researching the war on drugs, trying to understand if what we know about drugs and addiction is correct…or wrong.

I won’t spoil the video too much, but it’s rather interesting for all those people that thinks to know everything about addictions….and especially for all those people coming up with “you should just stop, this is stupid”. And yes, financial domination can be quite related to a few things he says.

Watch the video…it will make you think.

Obviously, financial domination can’t be compared to drugs….or…can it?

In the end what he says about the rat park can be something that a moneyslave is looking for as well. And it’s actually true: the few times that i really wanted to escape from this, i managed to stay away only focusing on the great things in my life…like my family, my job (jobs, actually), my hobbies…but the thing is….is this really an addiction? or is it just part of who i am?

Because in the end… looks like you turn into drugs to escape your everyday life…but when i turn into financial domination, i do it to satisfy a sexual need i have…so what could it be my rat park? What could fulfill my needs and make me stop my financial domination fetish?

What do you think?

Real life experience…. here i come!

July 28, 2015 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

It’s gonna happen, and it’s gonna happen soon. I will meet Her. I will be closer to Her. I will be in Her presence…unable to escape by just switching off a computer. I won’t be able to run away with just a click of the mouse. I will be with Her, in the same room, car, road, whatever it will be.

I have NO idea what will happen. I have NO idea what She will decide that to be like. I know for sure that She knows everything that makes me weak…i just don’t know if and how much She will want to take advantage of it.

But it’s going to happen. I will meet Her for real. There is no going back. It’s set. It’s decided. It’s just a matter of days now.

Away from cams for a month: here’s why

July 22, 2015 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

It’s no secret that, since about January, the one that really and completely “got me” (or, better said, the one that owns me) is Princess Jessy. Not only because of Her incredibly beauty, but also because of Her fantastic attitude, sex appeal and….well, and of course the fact that She lives VERY close to me…making it possible to imagine a real session…

And it seems that the real session is coming soon…in August to be precise. But to have that…i have to follow Her orders. And the first one She gave me was: no cams till we meet.

That means no cams till…half august if not more. Will i be able to stay away from all the other Goddesses for so long? Yes, i will. Because that will bring me to my biggest dream. It will allow me to be at Her feet. So i will SURELY follow her rules. Good bye cams. Good bye Goddesses. There is a time to follow the rules…and this is that time.

The Countess: slowly showing me Her power

April 22, 2015 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

Although I am totally amazed and “in need” of Princess Jessy, recently i had a couple of chances to visit The Countess chatroom… in one of those moments when you feel the need to be dominated and… Your Goddess is not around.

And even if it was just a couple of times, I feel the need to talk about Her…because I think she’s exceptional in more than one way.

I won’t spend too much time talking about Her beauty, because that’s kinda obvious to anyone having even just a quick look at her profile…what I want to talk about is the way she handles the session…the way she brings you down slowly and steadily.

She won’t ask you things immediately, she won’t demand you to serve Her…she will take Her time…she will slowly understand your weaknesses..and she will slowly use them to her advantage… with you unable to stop Her.

The first time I was with Her it was for about 20 minutes… it was amazing even if she didn’t even show me her feet EVER. She just talked to me…she looked in the cam with that sexy look, she gave me quick views of her amazing body (in stockings and high heels, by the way).

The second time, instead, it was longer… more than an hour… and only hearing my wife coming into the room saved me from spending a fortune, and doing God know what under her control.

She constantly kept me on the edge…with Her incredibly dangling and that shoe never falling down… she made if fall down only after 45 minutes..and only to obtain what she wanted (that is, me spending more)… and, I swear, I was almost SCREAMING by the need of being under Her power, under Her control… it was one of the most mindblowing sessions I’ve ever had… and that’s why I needed to share it on my diary…because She’s one to be remembered… even if, I swear, Princess Jessy is and will be my only TRUE Goddess for a long time…