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It’s time to slow down

It’s time to slow down

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I’ve waited a bit to write this post because I first wanted to see if I was on the right path if I was able to keep my word. So far so good, some would say, so here I am telling you all about my good intentions.

Things were out of control

Ever since I sort of “made peace” with an old friend of mine (hint: I started using the best cam site for a paypig again), my spendings on financial domination sessions have been skyrocketing. You can see it yourself here, just take a look at the last three months of 2020 and January 2021. I have been spending the same in the past, but since 2016 I have never spent so much for so many months in a row. 

That site “exposed” me to an endless list of temptations, and I just started to taste all of them, ending up spending way too much.

I don’t regret it

Let me be clear: I am happy about those months. I had so many great sessions (and yes, also wasted some money on some really bad ones) and, on top of that, I was lucky enough to find my new obsession. The one I had my last session with, at the very beginning of February. The one I wrote about here: UltimateGoddess.

So, again, I really have no reason to regret those months: but you know what I’m like, I always want to stay inside my balance. I never want my spendings on financial domination to end up hurting the people I love most, never want my sins to be the cause of some troubles in real life. 

What I am planning to do

Here’s the tough part: writing down what my plans are and…try to stick to them. I have never been good at keeping the promises I make here on this blog, I have never managed to keep even one of them. I mean, this blog started with “I am writing here as I hope it will help me to stop“…and that was 11 years ago… so I don’t really look like being good in keeping my promises. But let me try once again.

My plan is to drastically reduce my financial domination spendings (meaning, no spendings at all) for at least two months. I am writing this after one month since my last session, so it seems I’m on the right path to this…but I still have to go a long way. As you all know, this is easier to be said than done, temptations are everywhere and, let’s face it, spending less doesn’t bring any sort of pleasure but… I’ll try my best. I need to slow down a bit, can’t really go on spending that much every month. I have to find a way to resist the temptation. I’ll keep myself busy perhaps, I’m not sure yet.

As you can tell, I am not sure if I will succeed, but rest assured that you will be the first to know on the pages of this blog.

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She’s my new obsession: Smart, Beautiful, Greedy, and… always wearing nylons

She’s my new obsession: Smart, Beautiful, Greedy, and… always wearing nylons

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She is m y new financial domination obsession

I have visited countless Goddesses in the last 12 years, and only a few had a true effect on me. With some of them, I had more than a few sessions, a few became a very important part of my Financial Domination life. But there is only a handful of them that I am and will always be really obsessed with. You know who they are. Well, in December I had my first session with the one who quickly became part of that restricted group. 

The definition of the word obsession

What I consider an obsession

In my (pretty long) experience with online sessions, I can tell there are a few different reasons why I get back for a second, third, or more session. For sure the Goddess in question is exciting, probably knows the power of nylons on me, and most probably triggered my deepest fantasies. So I get back for more because I’m looking for that excitement I experienced the first time. 

But this is not an obsession for Her, it’s just me looking for more excitement, for another session as exciting as the previous ones. The only thing I have in my mind about sessions with this kind of Goddesses is how hot she looks and moves, most of the time. Nothing more. 

When I’m obsessed instead, there are way more reasons for me to crave more sessions:

  • She got inside my head 
  • She is not “just” beautiful
  • Her brain is even more powerful than her beauty
  • She made me experience things I didn’t expect to

Why she is an obsession

As you can imagine, the one I’m talking about also has so much more than just beauty. The first session I had with Her lasted 2 hours. And there are so many reasons why I enjoyed it. I won’t even talk about Her beauty, because it would be even too obvious: She is absolutely stunning, but there is way more!

In those two hours, we also laughed a few times, as she managed to be funny as well. We also talked about normal things like in a casual conversation (well, as casual as it can be talking while looking at such a beautiful Lady). She then made me try a couple of things I never tried before (won’t go into details, that’s personal), and that I didn’t even think could have excited me…but of course, they did. Big time. 

When the session ended, I didn’t feel just satisfied. I felt happy. Happy to have spent those two hours with such an exceptional Lady. Happy to have had the luck to discover such a Goddess. And I felt eager….eager to see Her again as soon as possible. Or, better said, as soon as my wallet would have been ready again for such a deep drain.

So who is she?

By now I’m quite sure you want to know her name, and how you can see her online. She calls herself UltimateGoddess and I don’t think any name has ever been more right. As always, a word of wisdom: if you are not ready to be completely drained by her, to be made her weak slave, to put yourself at Her mercy (which she doesn’t actually have, I’m afraid)…don’t read any further. 

If instead, you want to see Her online, then all you have to do is click here and visit her room, or go to this page to see if she is online. 

What now?

I am not planning to resist the temptation to serve Her, because it brings me happiness and joy, to be honest. But I need to find a balance between my desire to give everything to Her and my actual finances. As you know, I truly believe that the only way to enjoy Financial Domination is to keep a balance between what we desire and what our real-life allows us to do (and spend). It won’t be easy, and it will surely be my biggest challenge for the coming weeks and months. Rest assured that I will keep you all updated on this blog, as I usually do. 

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Fixing my life, thanks to you

Fixing my life, thanks to you

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The end of August was kind of a nightmare for me, and you all probably know that by now. When I wrote about my sadness and guilt, I was really down. My wife was hurt, and it was all my fault. I didn’t know what to do, it was really a horrible moment.

But that article was of huge help, especially because of all the wise and nice words I got from many of you. Some wrote to me on Twitter, some added comments here… and it was really what I needed. I will never thank you all guys enough for helping me! Reading other people’s opinions on the situation helped me put things in perspective, sit down, pull myself together, and Do something about it.

If there is something I’m good at, it’s adjusting my behavior when things are going in the wrong direction. I did the same when I found my balance on spendings, and I did the same this time. Or, better said, I’m doing it. My wife comes first, always. Her needs have to be my main concern and, although I will never stop financial domination, I need to adjust the way I am for her to be happier.

I won’t get into many details (but my guess is that you can understand what I am “fixing”), but let’s say that the last three weeks had been great between us, and I couldn’t be happier.

Does it mean I started having financial domination sessions again? Yes, but that’s another story…

EveSchwarz destroys my balance

EveSchwarz destroys my balance

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Remember when I wrote about me finding the balance, that would let me live happily with my Financial Domination fetish?

In this post I described how I managed to keep spending without hurting my real life or people around me: finding another job was enough to cover my Financial Domination expenses.

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Well, turns out EveSchwarz disagrees with that. And She showed that to me the other night.

I was already on a tight budget this month, and I was totally determined in keeping things under control. But then…EveSchwarz showed up wearing a new pair of tan pantyhose I’ve never seen before Her wearing.

Lately, I learned She was actually wearing Wolford Naked 8 pantyhose, Agent Provocateur bra and panties…. and a beautiful pair of Prada Heels.

At first She didn’t pay attention to me (kinda normal, as She has dozens of slaves waiting to serve Her), but…after I made a few simple comments about the outfit…She knew She had me.

Dangling her heel in front of the camera She just said:

Come to me, You’ll spoil me properly tonight

And that’s exactly what I did. Like a zombie, I went into her private chat, and like a zombie, I started spending my hard earned money.

She was absolutely magnificent: her legs and feet looked even more perfect in those smooth Wolford Pantyhose. Her shiny heels were like a magnet to my eyes, like an instrument to hypnotize me. Her perfect lips moved slowly as she spoke in the most sensual and powerful voice.

I was in heaven. Or so I thought.

When the session ended I gave a look at to how much I had spent: 1000$. In a matter of minutes.

My budget? Destroyed. My balance? Lost. My money? In the right place: her pockets.

I always knew EveSchwarz was dangerous… and last night I just had another proof of that. I should certainly try to stay away from her chatroom now…but I already know I will fail. It’s impossible to avoid temptations for me.

Money slavery: here’s how I found my balance

Money slavery: here’s how I found my balance

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As you probably all know, I’m a moneyslave for ages now (five? six? I lost count). At first, I tried to fight this fetish of mine. Let’s face it, this is probably one of the worst fetishes when it comes to its interference into your everyday life. You end up spending a lot of money that you could have been used in other ways (for your life, your family, whatever). So it’s obvious that i first tried to fight it, to end it, to stop it totally.

I failed. Tried again… and failed. Tried..and failed.

It’s in our nature, it’s what drives us crazy. Giving money to a gorgeous woman that uses her beauty to drive us crazy, to reduce our brain to a tiny little…ATM. Where she just pushes a button and gets whatever she wants. And we literally explode with pleasure when this happens.

Let’s face it: it’s impossible to stop being a moneyslave.

You can’t just listen Goddess Resha calling you a dog and asking you to bark without getting excited. While Goddess Kmy keeps crossing and uncrossing her legs, what can you do other than become like a zombie? And whenever MsClassy looks at you directly into your eyes, with her perfect face, telling you that she’s going to show her latest agent provocateur stockings…what else can you do other than pay, pay, pay for that? And don’t make me mention the most natural reaction to One Great Diva special attitude: she just needs to snap her fingers while looking at You as only Her can do…and you are doomed.

But again… every day we feel the same fear. What if this fetish takes over our lives, what if we can’t control it anymore, what if we really go totally broke?

After ages and ages of looking for a way out of this, I came to the conclusion that each of us, needs to find a balance between what we need in our everyday life and..money slavery.

How can we find this balance?

Well, I don’t know about you…but I can tell you how I did it and how I think everyone should do it. The very first thing to do is put your everyday life as the MAIN thing to think about. And to do so…start this by masturbating and cumming…only AFTER that you’ll be able to focus on your everyday life…you know that better than me.

You need to find out how much money you really need each and every month, how much you will need for your future plans…just come out with a rough number, or with a few options. But please, DO NOT think about any Goddess at this moment. Log off from Twitter, Facebook, internet. Just focus on yourself.

After this…the hardest part. I don’t know about you…but I’m not rich. And when I did this “game”, I came out sad. Because from that number to my wage the distance was…almost none. I came out with “ok, I have 100$ a month for money slavery”….you can easily judge from my spendings that this is WAY far from what I need to spend as a moneyslave…. the only solution I had? Find another job. And that’s what I did. I am now working not less than 12 hours per day, but I can surely state that I found my balance. I let my earnings from this new job go to a new bank account I created, and it’s from there and only there that I take money for my financial domination fetish.

Is it a hard life? Maybe…but I am satisfied. I could never imagine completely stop giving money to those gorgeous women that use my fetishes in such a perfect way…and I’m more than happy to work more for this.

What about you? Did you find your balance?