And so this year comes to and end. And more or less nothing changed since last year: my financial domination fetish is as strong as ever. A few minutes ago i’ve updated my expenses record and i saw two things: in december i’ve spent less than usual…and in total, in 2013, i’ve spent 22.025$ on financial domination… that’s a hell of a lot…and something i’m ashamed of but…something i just can’t avoid it seems. Maybe the fact i’ve spend less…
Now…this is one of the things i hate most: being low on cash (not only because of my findom addiction, but also because of other expenses) and therefore…being forced to stay away from all this world. Yes i know, in a way i should be happy…for a week i won’t be able to spend on Financial Domination. Not a cent, nothing. I have 80$ left on my credit card…and believe me, i do need them till next pay period…. It’s…
Recently i’ve been fascinated by blackmail, the excitement of being in huge danger, of letting a gorgeous woman “steal” personal data from me in order to keep me into her hands…but… is this the real reason i’m getting excited by this? What if…all i crave is cheating my wife with another woman? What if all this fetish of mine (moneyslavery or blackmailing) is just a reason to “feel” the excitement of actually cheat my wife for real? I have never…
It might sound weird…but these days I can see that spring is actually helping me in spending less online. Amazing isn’t it? And the reason is so stupid… that I’m actually even embarrassed to speak about it… Spring makes me weaker….physically weaker I mean..and that means fewer chances to stay up till late, fewer chances to stay in front of a computer all alone… fewer chances to spoil these amazing Goddesses. Sounds silly, doesn’t it? But again…when you have a…
Ok, let’s face it: i will never be a loyal slave to just one Mistress. Does this make me a bad slave? sure it does. Do i care? Sure i don’t. A great girl i’ve “virtually met” recently, defined this in a very easy way: men are always looking for new targets. And that’s so true, surely in my case it is. Of course i will always fall for certain Goddesses (One Great Diva, of course will ALWAYS have me…
If you follow this blog, most probably you are going to say now “Her? again? Oh, come on!”….but that’s the way it is. I can’t define myself as a loyal slave, I keep visiting new Goddesses online…but Her, OneGreatDiva, just can’t be compared to anyone else. It’s not only her beauty (which i don’t even need to speak about)…it’s Her attitude, Her brain. As i think i said many times, for me the domination starts in the brain. I am…
Time surely goes fast. It seems yesterday that i’ve started this blog…instead it is four years now. And exactly four years ago i was writing my very first post. “It’s late at night…the usual time when my “slave needs” raise up..when my wife is asleep and the temptation to do something exciting is high. And this is where it will all begin: this blog.“ Same old story. This will happen more and more after that day…and, as usual, i was…
I need to face reality. I will never have the balls to meet a financial domination Mistress in real. Never. Why do I say this? Because yesterday, Goddess Ishtar, a gorgeous, smart, powerful Goddess I visit quite often online (although I’ve never talked about Her on this blog) told me She is going to be in Florence this weekend. Yes, in TWO DAYS she will be more or less 5 km far from where i work. And she didn’t hide…
I am not going to state here that i’m a loyal slave, i know i am not. I jump from Goddess to Goddess, depending on my mood and my desire to be dominated. Often i just stop visit a certain Goddess because, at one point, She will do something that i consider “weak” or not what a Goddess should do… but there is one exception. One Great Diva Each and every time She got back online from some time off,…
Does it still make sense for me saying that i’m trying to stop? Am i really trying to stop my financial domination fetish? I’m starting to believe that…no, i won’t stop and i don’t want to stop. I keep spending more and more (just updated a few minutes ago my total spending, here, and it says 15.000$ so far this year) and, even worst, i don’t feel bad about it. I don’t know if it’s because lately i’ve met some…