Sometimes it just happens: i sit down and think. And that’s a problem, because when i think…usually big questions come up. In my everyday life i consider myself a good husband, a good father (she’s not even 2 years old) and a clever and hard worker…but…that’s the problem. Can a man like that…end up with a fetish like mine? Spending all those money here, while i should instead save them for my daughter? And lately…i’m not just craving to be…
Article originally posted on January 10th, 2012 Why, with all the gorgeous Mistresses that are already raping my wallet on a regular basis, do some “so called Goddesses” think they could just message me, coming out of nowhere, and ask me: “Do you want to be my moneyslave?” No, i don’t WANT to be a moneyslave, i don’t WANT to be a moneyslave of no one, especially if i don’t even know who you are or where you are coming…
It all started two nights ago, when Sheena was online and, after a “good evening” from my part, ordered me to go into her videochat in 5 minutes. Five minutes passed, but another guy went in before me…and She told me to wait. I waited 2 hours just to be able to see Her…but i didn’t and had to go. The night after, She was online again. As soon as i logged on messenger, She told me “Get in”. I…
So i had the chance to update my Current Status page, were i keep track of how much my Financial Domination problem is costing me. Well it seems i managed to slow down a bit, as in September i spent less than what i spent in the same month last two years…but i know the reason behind this, and that’s not something that makes me feel any better: personal problems. I had been stressed by some personal issues, not realted…
It’s getting worst. Since she raped me a few days ago, i updated my current status page and…it didn’t look good at all. I’m spending way more than last two years….and it doesn’t look like i can stop. I keep going there, looking for those Financial Domme i know but also always to seek for new ones…as if i’m always looking for more women to rape my wallet… this is not going to stop…
This had been my worst year so far. I’ve been updating my status page and i just noticed it. My Financial Domination fetish isn’t over at all…it’s actually getting stronger and more expensive. What to do? I don’t really have an answer to this question…all i know is that at the moment my mind is only focused on One Great Diva’s feet, on her legs, on her eyes… nothing else counts at the moment…nothing else.
It doesn’t help to feel like being a slave of more than one Mistress, as i am… there are times…when… i’m the mood to serve…i’m ready to let them use their power on me but… no one of them is online. Tonight is one of those nights…and all i can do is…dream about them.
It doesn’t stop…that’s a fact. I am spending more than last year and surely i am not slowing down… perhaps…this is just what i want…and i should really stop fighting this… what’s the point in fighting who i am? Actually… recently i find myself thinking more and more about… real life sessions… about a Mistress (well, i can say Her name… Miss Olivia) tempting me in a public place, using my fetishes to make me weak…and then.. using me to…
Yes tonight i came back online and ended up visiting a Mistress on videochat. Now i’m confused. I don’t even know what i’m writing about… all i know is that in the last 40 minutes i went from being happy, to sad, to angry to..confused as i am. Spent a lot? no. Felt Her power? Yes. But anyway…is it so difficult to understand that i’m not exclusive? I’m a slave that lives on emotions, because they are the reason i…
What happened today really surprised (and honoured me): one of my goddesses posted a comment to my blog! At first i was (and well, still am) VERY excited by this…but the nature of the comment made me think a lot: she is angry. Luckly she’s not angry with me (or well, not yet), but she is with some of the guys coming to her video after reading about Her on my blog because…well they just don’t know how to properly approach…