This is getting way out of control. Last month i’ve spent more than i’ve ever spent in a month on financial domination… more than 2.000$. I thought i could fight, i thought i could resist…but it seems pointless…perhaps i should gave up alltogether and just embrace my real nature of Money Slave. Or perhaps i should try real time domination, meeting up with one of my Goddesses…perhaps that would give me the definitive answer: am i a real moneyslave, or…
I think i’ve said more than once that, quite often, even if none of the gorgeous and dangerous Mistresses listed here is online, if i feel the NEED to be dominated, i try to visit different Goddesses. But, believe it or not, the web is full of “so called” mistresses that, in fact, don’t even know what they are doing or at least, not completely. Some of them are almost “there”…they are gorgeous, they know how to dress, they know…
It happens. Even if i know how dangerous that would have been for my wallet, i see a picture like the one below, posted by Sheena, and i start to regret i wasn’t online when She was. I don’t see i’ve ever seen Her with those shoes, and i believe there is something different on Her makeup…moreover, She’s wearing purple lingerie (shown in other pictures)…She’s hot…as ever…and yes, i wish i would have been online to let her make…
Sometimes it just happens: i sit down and think. And that’s a problem, because when i think…usually big questions come up. In my everyday life i consider myself a good husband, a good father (she’s not even 2 years old) and a clever and hard worker…but…that’s the problem. Can a man like that…end up with a fetish like mine? Spending all those money here, while i should instead save them for my daughter? And lately…i’m not just craving to be…
Article originally posted on January 10th, 2012 Why, with all the gorgeous Mistresses that are already raping my wallet on a regular basis, do some “so called Goddesses” think they could just message me, coming out of nowhere, and ask me: “Do you want to be my moneyslave?” No, i don’t WANT to be a moneyslave, i don’t WANT to be a moneyslave of no one, especially if i don’t even know who you are or where you are coming…
It all started two nights ago, when Sheena was online and, after a “good evening” from my part, ordered me to go into her videochat in 5 minutes. Five minutes passed, but another guy went in before me…and She told me to wait. I waited 2 hours just to be able to see Her…but i didn’t and had to go. The night after, She was online again. As soon as i logged on messenger, She told me “Get in”. I…
So i had the chance to update my Current Status page, were i keep track of how much my Financial Domination problem is costing me. Well it seems i managed to slow down a bit, as in September i spent less than what i spent in the same month last two years…but i know the reason behind this, and that’s not something that makes me feel any better: personal problems. I had been stressed by some personal issues, not realted…
It’s getting worst. Since she raped me a few days ago, i updated my current status page and…it didn’t look good at all. I’m spending way more than last two years….and it doesn’t look like i can stop. I keep going there, looking for those Financial Domme i know but also always to seek for new ones…as if i’m always looking for more women to rape my wallet… this is not going to stop…
This had been my worst year so far. I’ve been updating my status page and i just noticed it. My Financial Domination fetish isn’t over at all…it’s actually getting stronger and more expensive. What to do? I don’t really have an answer to this question…all i know is that at the moment my mind is only focused on One Great Diva’s feet, on her legs, on her eyes… nothing else counts at the moment…nothing else.
It doesn’t help to feel like being a slave of more than one Mistress, as i am… there are times…when… i’m the mood to serve…i’m ready to let them use their power on me but… no one of them is online. Tonight is one of those nights…and all i can do is…dream about them.