Does it still make sense for me saying that i’m trying to stop? Am i really trying to stop my financial domination fetish? I’m starting to believe that…no, i won’t stop and i don’t want to stop. I keep spending more and more (just updated a few minutes ago my total spending, here, and it says 15.000$ so far this year) and, even worst, i don’t feel bad about it. I don’t know if it’s because lately i’ve met some…
Just a few minutes ago (while “working” here in office) i decided to update the page with all the money i spend on financial domination and what i saw scared me, even if it didn’t actually surprise me much. If i go on like this, in the whole 2013 i will spend about24.000$ ! That’s a huge amount of money, more than i’ve ever spent before. And why is that? Why? Well there is a name behind that reason: Miss Mira…
Ok i will say it again: i’m broke. Till monday my credit card is maxed out….so i can just…sit here and dream on free stuff…and that hurts, a lot. I’ve been browsing around pictures for a while tonight, and some of them are really driving me crazy…i’ll post them here and well…if you’ll click on them you’ll see whom they belong to…
My card is maxed out. Yeah… it’s actually the first time that this happens to me since i started into this financial domination mess. And it’s not because of the money spent online, but just for other kind of expenses that concentrated in a week… So…i’m here, in the usual need to be under a mistress spell…and i can’t as i have no money to spend online. Constant denial, this is what it looks like to me.
This time i think i’ve really found a new nightmare that is going to be strong for a while. Last night i’ve seen a Goddess i’ve never seen before…and i was shocked by her beauty and attitude. As perfect and strong as… Sheena i would say. Miss Mira is blonde as Sheena and she has the same attitude: slow moves, slow teasing, smoking and…demanding, way demanding. I’ve spent one hour with her…and in the end i literally run away as…
very now and then, it just happens. No one of the Goddesses i normally visit is online, but i feel the need to go on cam…and so i start browsing… usually nothing special happens…then… sometimes i meet an incredibly gorgeous girl whom shows also A LOT of power… that was the case the other night, when EyesCandy (that’s her nickname) raped my wallet by 500$. No words can easily describe her beauty, although i could easily say that she looks…
I hate the way things are going now in my private life, i really hate it. What happened? I lost ALL my privacy, ALL my chances to spend time with myself and well…with my financial domination fetish fight. The reason? My mother-in-law came visit us, and she’ll be here for another full week. I should be happy…this way i really can’t go online and spend money…but i’m not. I hate that i am FORCED to stay away from that…from the…
This is a lesson I’m learning through time and huge mistakes: if I stay away from financial domination, I’m always ending up spending more when I get back to it (because I always do). The same thing happened last night when, after about a month of low expenses, I saw a Goddess was online and I couldn’t stop myself from visiting her again. Again, She was absolutely stunning. After a while that we were just talking (well I was trying…
It has been nearly 3 months since i’ve last updated the page where i keep track of the money i spend on financial domination (this page)…and i guess it was because i KNEW this was NOT going well at all. I’m spending way more than any other moment of my life…surely way more than when i’ve started this blog… i guess i will just have to give up to my fetish…and acknowledge the fact that i will never stop my…
That’s an obvious thing maybe, or maybe not. But everytime it happens to me, i do realise that, no matter what’s my mood or how things are going in my life, certain photos will ALWAYS make me weak and give me the need to visit the one that took them… Yes it’s her, Sheena, that asked me to don’t post anything with her on this blog…but i suppose if i cover her face, it’s ok…