It has been ten days…so far. Ten days since my last cam session online, Ten days since i’ve fall at a Goddess feet… ten….LONG days.

And i have to be honest… i can’t wait for this to end. I didn’t choose to stay away, i didn’t want this to happen (even if i should), it wasn’t an act of strength on my part, it wasn’t me winning against my instincts.

I just didn’t have a single cent left on my credit card.

Now i got my paycheck…now everything is in order again…and i just can’t wait to have the privacy required to go there, go to that site and… let my instincts do the rest.

I know it’s wrong, i know. But it’s kinda useless to try to resist. I FEEL the need to go there, i FEEL it…and yes…i’m gonna do anything i can to have the required privacy…

My first book is now available

Inside The Mind Of A PayPig

After 15+ years inside financial domination, I finally wrote a book about obsession, shame, desire and the questions I am still trying to answer.

Read the free sample