I have to admit, i don’t consider myself an “easy to catch” slave, surely not an “easy to keep”. I have many reasons why i could suddenly stop feeling weak in front of a Goddess and today i am facing a new one that’s… making me think a lot about my “relationship” with a specific Goddess. I won’t say her name, of course, but rest assured that She is someone i have NEVER spoke about in this blog, because…
Time surely goes fast. It seems yesterday that i’ve started this blog…instead it is four years now. And exactly four years ago i was writing my very first post. “It’s late at night…the usual time when my “slave needs” raise up..when my wife is asleep and the temptation to do something exciting is high. And this is where it will all begin: this blog.“ Same old story. This will happen more and more after that day…and, as usual, i was…
Does it still make sense for me saying that i’m trying to stop? Am i really trying to stop my financial domination fetish? I’m starting to believe that…no, i won’t stop and i don’t want to stop. I keep spending more and more (just updated a few minutes ago my total spending, here, and it says 15.000$ so far this year) and, even worst, i don’t feel bad about it. I don’t know if it’s because lately i’ve met some…
That’s an obvious thing maybe, or maybe not. But everytime it happens to me, i do realise that, no matter what’s my mood or how things are going in my life, certain photos will ALWAYS make me weak and give me the need to visit the one that took them… Yes it’s her, Sheena, that asked me to don’t post anything with her on this blog…but i suppose if i cover her face, it’s ok…
It’s all going down the toilet. Lately i’m having less and less sex with my wife…and the weird thing is that the reason is NOT this financial domination fetish. In fact lately i’m finding less and less satisfaction even in this, which is good in a way. But what’s going on? To be honest, everything BUT sex is going great with my wife…i could say that it’s because i’m working way too much, but this has always been there, at…
Each time i update the page where i keep a log of the money spent on financial domination (here), i’m always well..surprised. I keep saying i’d like to stop this financial domination fetish i have, i keep saying i should try a real life experience with a financial domination mistress…but then…i’m addicted to cam, that’s what i am. In July and August, i spent nearly 4.000$ in financial domination, all in cam. Is it too much? No, because if it…
I’m pretty sure some people, reading my latest post, will start thinking either that i’m a complete fool, or that i’m making things up. Well, none of the two is correct. I’m not a fool (or not completely one) and this is all damn real. I’m just a moneyslave…or better said, a “cam” moneyslave. And now i have a new nightmare: GoddessFever. I first went into Her room a few days ago, as i was curious because of her high…
As i wrote a few days ago, lately i’ve been spending a lot of time with a new camgirl. She’s not a domme (or at least she’s not one…used to a while ago, long story), but she’s beautiful, funny, smart and intelligent: a girl i could spend hours with, a girl i could see myself going crazy for (but it won’t happen, believe it or not i DO care of my family). So well, last night she acted as sort…
And so it happened. I knew it was going to, as I wrote a few days ago on this blog: MsSupreme was going to rape my wallet, and it happened. It was a few nights ago…all She had to do was telling me she was online and invite me (well, order me) to come in: I executed the order as I was really missing the view of her perfect arched feet in nylons… and there She was. Wearing a short…
This is getting way out of control. Last month i’ve spent more than i’ve ever spent in a month on financial domination… more than 2.000$. I thought i could fight, i thought i could resist…but it seems pointless…perhaps i should gave up alltogether and just embrace my real nature of Money Slave. Or perhaps i should try real time domination, meeting up with one of my Goddesses…perhaps that would give me the definitive answer: am i a real moneyslave, or…