Almost a month passed since I had the most amazing real-life experience (and the first one actually). Meeting Goddess Ishtar, giving her a foot massage, kissing her toes in nylons while she was taking money from my bank account. A dream come true, to say the least. And as days passed by from that night, I found myself thinking…
How do you come back to the usual “online sessions routine” after you had such an intense experience?
I still need to find out how to do that. Of course, I did have a couple of online sessions in the meanwhile, but they always left me a different sensation than before.
After the session ends, I find myself missing something. I am not totally satisfied.
Touching Goddess Ishtar’s feet in nylons can’t be compared to looking at a Goddess foot in a cam. Having her using my smartphone can’t be compared to sending money to a Goddess. Not even TeamViewer has the same feeling. She is not there with me. I am alone, at home, watching a computer screen. And it feels so cold. So damn cold.
And before you ask, no I didn’t have any online session with Goddess Ishtar since that night. I just don’t think I’m ready for that yet… I mean, if it feels cold having a session with a Goddess that I never met in real life…how would it feel to see her just online? Not able to be closer to her, not able to look at her up close…as I did just a month ago? Will I actually ever be able to pull myself together and beg her for an online session again?
I don’t know guys. I’m pretty sure I’ll get over this sooner or later, but when? Online sessions have always been the way I enjoyed Financial Domination, so I’m sure I will get back finding enjoyment in them… but I’m also sure I will always crave for more. I will always crave for something similar of that night. Online sessions will never be as awesome as that night. Never.