It’s over. I’m done

It’s over. I’m done

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It happened quickly, with no warning or any sign that could lead me to think it could have happened. I was just out with my wife and She was dressed in the way i love: short tight dress, black pantyhose. She was stunning. I looked at her…. and suddenly i got “hit” by the thought:

“do i really need anyone else in my life?”

The thing is that, till i met Goddess Adriana, i’ve always been a slave for “fun”, or anyway not a loyal slave…i mean i wasn’t really letting any of those Goddesses enter my everyday life. Well ok, there was one exception, and that was One Great Diva…that didn’t come into my everyday life just because She didn’t want it, She thought i wasn’t ready (…and She was right, as always)….because otherwise i would have been in serious danger with her…

Anyway, generally speaking, i have always lived this situation in a way that, even if still dangerous and difficult to handle, it didn’t really make me feel too guilty with my everyday life. Because, till recently, i always managed to separate the two worlds.

I was a slave in certain moments, and the usual perfect family man the others.

And so when i realized that this was going out of control, that i was letting Goddess Adriana actually interfere my everyday life…it didn’t feel right. And so, today, i am saying it.

It’s over. I’m done being a loyal slave. 

 

Does it mean i will stop visiting those Goddesses in videochat? No. But i won’t let anyone of them come too close to me. It would be wrong, too much wrong, and would make me feel awful.

And what about Goddess Adriana? Well, she was the first one i spoke with about this, and she understood it all. She said she knew i wasn’t ready, and she was the one suggesting me to stop seeing her (a decision i already took by myself actually).

I don’t know what this blog will become from now on… but if i look at it now…it just looks plain wrong. It’s more like a Sanctuary dedicated to Goddess Adriana. I was totally nuts, totally crazy, totally out of control. But it’s over now. I won’t be the slave of anyone from now on….yes i will keep behaving as a slave because that’s my nature…but this has to be a form of entertainment for me…nothing more than that.

How it feels to be unfaithful

How it feels to be unfaithful

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And so it happened: a couple of weeks ago I was unfaithful to Goddess Adriana. It was one of those nights that I’m sure many slaves know very well: you are horny, you are in need of a session with Your Goddess, but she is not around. Add to that the fact that it was my last night before a vacation…so I knew it was the last night before a long period of abstinence.

So I went to visit another Goddess. No, not one of those I spoke about here often…just another one i know but that i didn’t visit for ages. At first, it even felt kinda good… it felt like trying something new…but then, as time passed by, i realized more and more how disappointing she was. She wasn’t “getting” me, she wasn’t “right” for me, she wasn’t doing the right things…in a few words: she was not Goddess Adriana.

And so I left, after about 30 minutes of the session. Disappointed with how it went and feeling bad. Bad because i was unfaithful to the promise I made to Goddess Adriana, that she would have been my only Goddess.

I decided to write a public apology on Twitter, in the hope of feeling a bit better:

But that didn’t help much. I felt like an idiot, to be honest. I knew that Goddess could have never been like Goddess Adriana, I knew that session could have never been as good…and yet I went in and wasted money and time. And, funny perhaps, that night of course ended with me looking at Goddess Adriana’s pictures for a long time…dreaming of Her… and getting turned on by that.

The day after she answered that twit, while I was on vacation:

And, finally, 2 days ago I had a chance to visit Her again. It was wonderful…She is wonderful… and She also confirmed what I thought: I’m just one of Her slaves, so She doesn’t get mad if I am unfaithful…as She knows this will just make me pay more and more as a punishment.

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More than 2000$ spent in one day

More than 2000$ spent in one day

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The situation is getting out of control… anytime I see Goddess Adriana, all I want is to be there and never leave. Her perfect body, her killer outfits, her taste in nylons, her sexy moves…all of that just keep me there, in Her video, unable to go away and unable to be strong. I’m there, I’m Her slave, and I’m happy to be.

And this is the result…here’s what happened on my last two video chats with Her. I’ve spent more than 2,000$.

And the thing is….that I know this is just the beginning. Because as I’m writing, She’s not online…and I terribly miss Her.

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She maxed out my credit card with tan stockings

She maxed out my credit card with tan stockings

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It happened again: Goddess Adriana maxed out my credit card. And this time She did it wearing some fantastic tan stockings.

She was looking magnificent as always…with that short black dress, black high heel sandals and those stockings…those tan stockings with black on top… looking so soft…so perfect…so classy.

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I was there just mesmerized by the look of Her toes inside those nylons, by Her legs crossing and uncrossing in front of my eyes, by the look on Her face that was just demanding to be served.

I didn’t pay attention as the time was passing by, I didn’t look at the clock…at one point I just saw a message stating that my session had been closed because my credit card was maxed out. At that moment I realized…it happened again. I was without money…but happy…. satisfied….taken.

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That unstoppable addiction

That unstoppable addiction

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It’s not something I can control, it just happens. I often find myself feeling very strong, thinking I can stop whenever I want, thinking I’m not addicted or anything… and then…

Then I see Her on cam. And everything changes.

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It’s hard to explain the reasons behind this addiction, but every time I see Goddess Adriana live on cam… my addiction grows and all I want is to be there, to worship Her, to serve Her, to make Her happy.

I know this sounds very like a cliche for a slave, as more or less every single slave says the same things about his Mistress…but I am just describing what’s happening to me…because it keeps surprising me each time.

I always believe I can control myself, I always believe there are things I will never do for a Mistress. And yet, each time. Goddess Adriana makes me do things I’ve never done before for anyone else. Things like draining my credit card completely (to the point my bank blocked it for a few days), or buying pantyhose for a Mistress… things like feeling such a STRONG desire to be in Her presence, to meet Her, to be really at Her feet.

Or things like…the ATM dream. A dream I keep having recently where I picture me and Her in front of an ATM, with Her teasing me badly with her feet (and not only) while whispering in my ear “more…take out more”.

Why do I have this addiction for Her? There are many reasons…but I don’t think I have to stay here and explain them…to me, She’s just the perfect Goddess, that’s all. And the addiction I’m feeling for Her is something I have never felt before for anyone else…so…She is special. Absolutely special.

Kneel down and serve Goddess Adriana