About sex and my fetish

About sex and my fetish

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It’s all going down the toilet. Lately i’m having less and less sex with my wife…and the weird thing is that the reason is NOT this financial domination fetish. In fact lately i’m finding less and less satisfaction even in this, which is good in a way.

But what’s going on? To be honest, everything BUT sex is going great with my wife…i could say that it’s because i’m working way too much, but this has always been there, at least in the last couple of years… the only reason i can find is that girl in office.

We are close friends since ages, i always thought she’s sexy and we always played (by words) on this, without ever going too far. But lately i’ve been thinking more and more to go further, and i saw little signals from her that could suggest that, maybe, if i try she will agree to have some fun… could that be the reason i’m having less sex with my wife?

Would be crazy… would mean i’m having less sex with my wife because i’m hoping to have sex with another woman? Stupid, plain stupid that would be…especially because that might not even happen.

The thing is that i’m feeling depressed about this…it hurts a lot to see that my wife is obviously disappointed…but at the same time i just can’t find the right energy to do that..the right desire to do it… does she tease me? No, almost never. She surely never do anything sexy to try to get it from me…she says “it should be the man that looks for the woman”…yeah but… she could help me a bit…

I don’t even know why i’m writing all this here…perhaps because this is the only place where i write about my deepest and darkest secrets…don’t know…but… tonight, i really feel down.

My Financial Domination fetish isn’t slowing down

My Financial Domination fetish isn’t slowing down

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Seems like one month passed since I last wrote something here about my usual and, probably, never-ending Financial Domination fetish…so why not putting down an update, more to remember myself how things are going than to anyone else.

My goddess asked me (ordered me) to remove all her videos I’ve ever shared online, and so I did it. I’ve actually found it kinda weird, as She was the one telling me at first that She was more than happy about them…but well, I suppose a slave can’t really judge a Goddess order, and surely I can’t if it comes from Her. Needless to say, I’ve been spending a LOT with her in October. Each time I see her, She looks more gorgeous and sexy to me… I don’t know why….but I’m sure if you ever visited Her, you’ll probably agree with me.

I’ve spent A LOT of time with One Great Diva too…actually, She is the one I’ve spent most of my time (and money) with. The reason is her new website: I’m a member of it and I can assure anyone reading this word that, if you join that site, you’ll be more and more addicted to her. In fact, I’ve been sending her lots of tributes lately…something I rarely did in the past…

Then…the best thing happening to me: my dark angel is still around, and we’ve been spending some truly quality time together lately. Lots of talks, lots of laughs, a few teasing…and once she did the sweetest thing I can imagine.
One night I was feeling really, really, really depressed because of some problems with my wife… went into her chat just to say hello and tell her I wouldn’t have been around for long…and I left. A few seconds after she contacted me on messenger, asking what was wrong… And from there we had a nice and kinda long chat where she helped me A LOT in getting back in a really good mood…and she also sent me two pictures that really really helped my mood a lot. The sweet thing is that she did all of this as any friend would do. That’s what I really like about her: she’s herself, all the time. She doesn’t let me “cross the line” and be too close to her (i know nothing about her private life, for example) but still…she acts in a friendly and great way that makes it all so natural and great… of course, that fact that she’s one of the most beautiful and sexy girls I’ve ever seen helps a lot too…

In the end…October was a huge spending month for me…as I’ve spent about 2.500$ This isn’t getting any better, and the page where I keep track of the money I spend is starting to look like a serious problem…

OneGreatDiva now has her own paysite: more ways to fall into temptation

OneGreatDiva now has her own paysite: more ways to fall into temptation

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In a way, i was expecting it. A beautiful star such as One Great Diva couldn’t keep letting people see her beautiful pictures and HD videos for free, it wasn’t right at all considering how many models have paysites without even deserving that.

So when the other day She posted this message on twitter, all i did was immediately go and see that playground (as She called it a few times afterwords).

And my God… it’s one of best looking sites i’ve ever seen. I’m not saying just because it’s Her site (even if, of course, that has a play into my opinion), but also because, even if i’m not a designer (far from that), i can see that it stands against many many other paysites.

Needless to say, i joined it immediately. Besides, compared to all the money i spend on Financial Domination in cam, those few euros didn’t look like a lot…and actually i was hoping they could have helped me reduce the need to see her live.

Nothing can be further from the truth. Since i’ve joined in, my addiction is actually growing. I visit it everyday just to see the site, look at the pics and praise Her beauty. I’ve already sent her a couple of tributes (as there are links reserved to members to do that) and i’m waiting anxiously for the first free cam show reserved to members that She will do.

I know some of you will now think “here’s a classic post made just to advertise Her”, but i swear this is not the case. I write what i feel writing in this blog, and One Great Diva (the one that made me a moneyslave) opening her own paysite is, for me, an event to remember and write about.

By the way…if you want to see it, here’s the address: http://www.divafootfetish.com

Missing my Angel

Missing my Angel

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It has been too long…really too long since i last spoke to my angel. I wrote about her a couple of times: She’s a sweet, gorgeous, intelligent and funny girl that, more than once, saved me from going online with one of the Mistresses here. Of course not for free, but still…she helped me a lot on slowing down a bit on my addiction.

I think it was the beginning of august when i last saw her…after that i’m sure she went on some sort of vacation. I saw she logged in a few times, and a few days ago she even messaged me during the day. But i was not at the computer, and when i came back (10 minutes later) i found just a message saying:

hey!

Last night she was online, and if you follow me on Twitter you know i wrote while i was waiting for her to be available…but time passed…and she didn’t become free…so i went to bed…still thinking about her…

When will i be able to spend some time with her again?

Drained by Loubotin shoes and Agent Provocateur stockings

Drained by Loubotin shoes and Agent Provocateur stockings

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There is always a first time, for everything. And a few nights ago it was my first time being drained by Louboutin Shoes and Agent Provocateur stockings: some of the most expensive and awesome shoes and stockings.

CLICK HERE AND BE DRAINED LIKE ME

MsClassy was wearing them and I actually knew that was coming, sooner or later. I knew She bought those stockings during a recent trip to Italy She made (boy I was SO excited to know that her feet were in my country)…and I knew that She received those shoes from another slave…

Perhaps you are asking yourself the same question I was asking myself: does it show the difference between those items and some less expensive ones? Yes, A LOT.

Those shoes are just perfect, just made to tease and, according to MsClassy, they are also very comfortable. And those stockings…it’s incredible how perfect and smooth they look even just in cam…i can only imagine what it can be to see them live…or even to touch them…

How much did I spend? I don’t know and don’t want to check…it was a lot, really a lot…but my brain just got blind as soon as I saw those shoes and nylons…

About 4.000$ spent on financial domination

About 4.000$ spent on financial domination

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Each time i update the page where i keep a log of the money spent on financial domination (here), i’m always well..surprised.

I keep saying i’d like to stop this financial domination fetish i have, i keep saying i should try a real life experience with a financial domination mistress…but then…i’m addicted to cam, that’s what i am.

In July and August, i spent nearly 4.000$ in financial domination, all in cam. Is it too much? No, because if it would be too much, i wouldn’t even be able to have a computer to type this article. Is it a lot? Yes, it is. It’s a lot and it’s causing me some financial troubles.

Again…the same question i keep asking myself since about 2 years now…

Will i ever be able to escape from financial domination?

Safe from one Goddess but… One Great Diva is back

Safe from one Goddess but… One Great Diva is back

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Just yesterday I wrote about GoddessFever, this new Goddess I visited that really made me feel like I’ve found yet another serious nightmare…but then, luckily, last night She made a couple of little “mistakes” that could help me stay away from her.

I believe most of the Financial Domination, at least in my case, start from a perfect attitude of the Goddess. I consider myself quite an intelligent person (yeah, those of you that don’t understand what financial domination is, will say I’m not), and therefore one Goddess, to get hold of me, has to always be more or less perfect. And I’m talking about attitude, not just beauty.

GoddessFever had been perfect the first night, a bit less in the second (when at one point she made some graphic things on cam that I don’t think a Goddess should ever do) and even less last night. At one point She described how She would have liked to cook me breakfast before I go to the office while wearing just a pair of nylon stockings.

This is a perfect image if we are talking about a sexy woman to date but…NOT for a Goddess to be served! Really…i kept thinking about it for the whole day today…and the more i thought of it, the less i felt the need to come back to visit GoddessFever. Great, isn’t it? One Goddess less to serve!

But… then… a few hours ago…i got an e-mail saying just this.

“Look at the picture attached to this e-mail then come and serve me.
I’m online.”

The picture is the one below…e-mail is from One Great Diva. My all-time nightmare, the one that made me a moneyslave, the one that can make me Her moneyslave anytime She wants. In fact, I couldn’t resist. I went in…and spent about 300$…for now.

But One Great Diva is back…and i’m serious danger.

New nightmare: 1.000$ in three days

New nightmare: 1.000$ in three days

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I’m pretty sure some people, reading my latest post, will start thinking either that i’m a complete fool, or that i’m making things up. Well, none of the two is correct. I’m not a fool (or not completely one) and this is all damn real. I’m just a moneyslave…or better said, a “cam” moneyslave.

And now i have a new nightmare: GoddessFever.

I first went into Her room a few days ago, as i was curious because of her high price and no shots of her face in her gallery…i wanted to see who was behind that 5$ per minute price. And i was totally shocked when i went in.

She’s beyond beautiful, reminds me of a top model i can’t recall the name of (Claudia Schiffer perhaps?) and, to make things worst, she has a vivid imagination and totally knows how to describe the fantasy of the slave in front of Her. She kept me there telling me about a possible meeting, about things She would have make me done…and at the same time teasing me a bit…not too much…but just enough to keep me there.

Till now i spent about 1.000$ into her room…She’s a new nightmare as She’s often online and…each time i look back at her face…i just can’t stop myself from going here, inside her room, again…