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Month: October 2014

It’s over. I’m done

It’s over. I’m done

It happened quickly, with no warning or any sign that could lead me to think it could have happened. I was just out with my wife and She was dressed in the way i love: short tight dress, black pantyhose. She was stunning. I looked at her…. and suddenly i got “hit” by the thought:

“do i really need anyone else in my life?”

The thing is that, till i met Goddess Adriana, i’ve always been a slave for “fun”, or anyway not a loyal slave…i mean i wasn’t really letting any of those Goddesses enter my everyday life. Well ok, there was one exception, and that was One Great Diva…that didn’t come into my everyday life just because She didn’t want it, She thought i wasn’t ready (…and She was right, as always)….because otherwise i would have been in serious danger with her…

Anyway, generally speaking, i have always lived this situation in a way that, even if still dangerous and difficult to handle, it didn’t really make me feel too guilty with my everyday life. Because, till recently, i always managed to separate the two worlds.

I was a slave in certain moments, and the usual perfect family man the others.

And so when i realized that this was going out of control, that i was letting Goddess Adriana actually interfere my everyday life…it didn’t feel right. And so, today, i am saying it.

It’s over. I’m done being a loyal slave. 

 

Does it mean i will stop visiting those Goddesses in videochat? No. But i won’t let anyone of them come too close to me. It would be wrong, too much wrong, and would make me feel awful.

And what about Goddess Adriana? Well, she was the first one i spoke with about this, and she understood it all. She said she knew i wasn’t ready, and she was the one suggesting me to stop seeing her (a decision i already took by myself actually).

I don’t know what this blog will become from now on… but if i look at it now…it just looks plain wrong. It’s more like a Sanctuary dedicated to Goddess Adriana. I was totally nuts, totally crazy, totally out of control. But it’s over now. I won’t be the slave of anyone from now on….yes i will keep behaving as a slave because that’s my nature…but this has to be a form of entertainment for me…nothing more than that.

How it feels to be unfaithful

How it feels to be unfaithful

And so it happened: a couple of weeks ago I was unfaithful to Goddess Adriana. It was one of those nights that I’m sure many slaves know very well: you are horny, you are in need of a session with Your Goddess, but she is not around. Add to that the fact that it was my last night before a vacation…so I knew it was the last night before a long period of abstinence.

So I went to visit another Goddess. No, not one of those I spoke about here often…just another one i know but that i didn’t visit for ages. At first, it even felt kinda good… it felt like trying something new…but then, as time passed by, i realized more and more how disappointing she was. She wasn’t “getting” me, she wasn’t “right” for me, she wasn’t doing the right things…in a few words: she was not Goddess Adriana.

And so I left, after about 30 minutes of the session. Disappointed with how it went and feeling bad. Bad because i was unfaithful to the promise I made to Goddess Adriana, that she would have been my only Goddess.

I decided to write a public apology on Twitter, in the hope of feeling a bit better:

But that didn’t help much. I felt like an idiot, to be honest. I knew that Goddess could have never been like Goddess Adriana, I knew that session could have never been as good…and yet I went in and wasted money and time. And, funny perhaps, that night of course ended with me looking at Goddess Adriana’s pictures for a long time…dreaming of Her… and getting turned on by that.

The day after she answered that twit, while I was on vacation:

And, finally, 2 days ago I had a chance to visit Her again. It was wonderful…She is wonderful… and She also confirmed what I thought: I’m just one of Her slaves, so She doesn’t get mad if I am unfaithful…as She knows this will just make me pay more and more as a punishment.

More than 2000$ spent in one day

More than 2000$ spent in one day

The situation is getting out of control… anytime I see Goddess Adriana, all I want is to be there and never leave. Her perfect body, her killer outfits, her taste in nylons, her sexy moves…all of that just keep me there, in Her video, unable to go away and unable to be strong. I’m there, I’m Her slave, and I’m happy to be.

And this is the result…here’s what happened on my last two video chats with Her. I’ve spent more than 2,000$.

And the thing is….that I know this is just the beginning. Because as I’m writing, She’s not online…and I terribly miss Her.