I get this told me a lot recently. Usually from Goddesses. And i tend to agree to them. I mean, who would say “i want to stop” and then keep staying online, keep looking at photos, keep getting in touch with temptation? Well maybe the reason is that i am not really a moneyslave. I spent about 95% of the money last year on webcam: paying a per minute charge in order to be able to look at beautiful women,…
It’s getting difficult, everyday more difficult. My initial idea was to make myself known into the moneyslavery community, so that whenever i would log a failure here, i would have felt even worst and, maybe, learn for the next time. So i now find myself browsing Goddes twitter profiles, websites, blogs, youtube videos, facebook contacts.. to add them but…doing so… i also discover so many gorgeous Goddesses, so many women i could never ever resist to…and the worst thing is…
Sucker, stupid, loser. That’s what i am. I’ve promised to myself to go to bed at 1:00 am tonight… instead i didn’t, and 5 minutes later WildStorm (Sheena) contacted me on messenger: WildStorm (Sheena): hi me: hello Goddess WildStorm (Sheena): come in my room me: i shouldn’t…i want to resist the temptation. WildStorm (Sheena): you should..but i have my nylons on WildStorm (Sheena): and i want you in, dog WildStorm (Sheena): someone needs to lick my heels me: i want…
This is a question i sometimes ask myself… the answer is not that difficult to give: yes, i totally love my wife. Having submissive fantasies doesn’t mean that all you want from your life is to be submissive, or at least not in my case. Being totally addicted, hypnotized by a woman that knows exactly my fetishes and that uses them against my will is a big fantasy of mine, always was.. but it’s a fantasy. Something that excites me…
I have to admit, although i am trying to quit from being a Moneyslave, i still have the “need” to check out the newest photos “my” Mistresses put online. Today i came back from a short vacation so, as soon as i remained alone, i went to check their galleries… And sometimes, when i look at some photos, i get the impression that those photos had been taken thinking about me, screaming my name, calling me to action… giving me…
I couldn’t take it anymore. I knew she was the only one i should rely on, the only one i should care of, the only one that could help me. I didn’t sleep at all last night, thinking about her. So this morning… i phoned my wife. I’ve asked her to go online while we were on the phone. Explained her how it all started, during last May. I told her how much i’ve spent last year, what i was…
Just random thoughts coming to my mind… during the many videosessions i made last year, one thing always brought me “down”: a natural, nice, cute smile of a Mistress. I am not saying a Mistress should never smile, of course…who am i to say that? but during a session i think she should laugh yes, to humiliate the slave, but smile? No, never. Not even if the slave manages to do a nice joke, or if he keeps telling her…
Till last may i didn’t really know anything about my money slavery… all i knew was that i found it fascinating. Yes, a woman using my fetishes to tease me, drive me crazy and obtain information or money from me was…fascinating. But i’ve never really thought to try it. That is until 1st May 2009. That night i came accross Goddess Alexandra profile on Camcontacts. As usual i first went to see the pics…and you can see from the few…
It’s late at night…the usual time when my “slave needs” raise up..when my wife is asleep and the temptation to do something exciting is high. And this is where it will all begin: this blog. Tonight i won’t go on CamContacts, i won’t visit any of the gorgeous Mistresses there. I will just write this article and go to bed. Lots of things i still need to do here in this blog… i want to make a page with how…
Tonight i’m working a bit more on this… i’ve updated my Twitter and, more important, added the Status page on this blog. That will help me to keep an updated situation of all this mess…