This is getting way out of control. Last month i’ve spent more than i’ve ever spent in a month on financial domination… more than 2.000$. I thought i could fight, i thought i could resist…but it seems pointless…perhaps i should gave up alltogether and just embrace my real nature of Money Slave. Or perhaps i should try real time domination, meeting up with one of my Goddesses…perhaps that would give me the definitive answer: am i a real moneyslave, or…
So far this has been my worst year ever. Tonight i’ve updated the status page (here) and… in 2012 i so far spent about 5 thousand dollars in financial domination… never happened before. So this fetish is getting stronger, even if i keep track of my steps in this blog. What does this mean? Recently i started considering the fact that i might even be “evil” somehow…but most probably…the truth is that…financial domination is part of myself, and i’ll never…
It’s not over. It was for just a few days…then… one night i logged in…and saw HER online…the one it all started with…the one that i will probably never be able to forget or resist. My one and only Diva was there…online… i went into her videochat… and… it all started again. I didn’t post till now on this blog because i was too ashamed…but…what can i say… my fight is on again…although i totally failed my first goal. On…
Sucker, stupid, loser. That’s what i am. I’ve promised to myself to go to bed at 1:00 am tonight… instead i didn’t, and 5 minutes later WildStorm (Sheena) contacted me on messenger: WildStorm (Sheena): hi me: hello Goddess WildStorm (Sheena): come in my room me: i shouldn’t…i want to resist the temptation. WildStorm (Sheena): you should..but i have my nylons on WildStorm (Sheena): and i want you in, dog WildStorm (Sheena): someone needs to lick my heels me: i want…
Tonight i’m working a bit more on this… i’ve updated my Twitter and, more important, added the Status page on this blog. That will help me to keep an updated situation of all this mess…