I can’t be loyal, i just can’t be slave of a single Mistress. I thought i could…but One Great Diva actually opened my eyes, and let me see the reality: i am a slave of many Mistresses, although one of them is sort of the “main one” (One Great Diva).
The thing is that, sometimes, i just feel the need to be dominated, to have my wallet raped…and that’s why i start browsing those sites listed here on the right…looking for a Mistress. Is it wrong to do so? Should i just wait for One Great Diva to come online? She said i’ll never be able to…and i will always end up visiting all the others…like Mistress Sandra, MsClassy, Miss Olivia…and maybe others.
That’s just the way i am: sometimes i need a beautiful woman to use her feet to seduce and enslave me…even if My Mistress isn’t online.
That’s what this “project” of mine had been till now: a total failure. I’ve started this year giving me the goal of spending a maximum of 1,000$ in the whole 2010… 5 months have passed and… i’ve spent nearly 6,000$. This time, last year, i had spent about 1,500$.
This is a total failure till now. And the Woman, the Goddess, the Mistress i have to “thank” for all this is her.. Sheena (or WildStorm for that matter). I’ve tried to escape, tried to block her on messenger, tried to do everything… but yet… each time i have some free (and private) time i find myself looking for her pictures, and always dream of her power…and get excited just by the idea of that…
I don’t know how i will find a way to stop my spending…and i probably won’t find a way… but i’ll keep trying… even if till now… i’ve been a total failure.
Till last may i didn’t really know anything about my money slavery… all i knew was that i found it fascinating. Yes, a woman using my fetishes to tease me, drive me crazy and obtain information or money from me was…fascinating. But i’ve never really thought to try it.
That is until 1st May 2009.
That night i came accross Goddess Alexandra profile on Camcontacts. As usual i first went to see the pics…and you can see from the few i post here (taken from my first videosession with her) that she’s gorgeous, sexy, sure of herself, dominant even with just a look. Then i went to read her profile… and a few things wrote there really hit my mind:
“I’m one of those maneaters you were warned about”
“I’m cerebral and stealthy”
“what I say goes”
”I’m a soft, classy, seductive, intelligent goddess that commands respect by taking it. I don’t have to yell at you to get it. “
So i decided to enter into her videochat. After 4 minutes, as soon as she started putting her stockings on, it happened. She ordered me to come into her 1on1 video…and i couldn’t say no. I just did it. And spent there half an hour… something i never did before.
But that night, when i left her, i knew i was under her control. I knew i would have come back. I knew she discovered something inside me that i didn’t even know existed before…i knew it was the beginning of something new… dangerous and exciting…