It’s getting worst. Since she raped me a few days ago, i updated my current status page and…it didn’t look good at all.
I’m spending way more than last two years….and it doesn’t look like i can stop.
I keep going there, looking for those Financial Domme i know but also always to seek for new ones…as if i’m always looking for more women to rape my wallet… this is not going to stop…
UPDATE: Mistress Sandra asked me to clarify that this post refers to an old session i had with her (roughly in June) and that She wasn’t online at the time of my writing here. She’s back these days…and i’m going to probably fall again…
One Great Diva let me free for a while…but that doesn’t mean i’m safe. I’m a slave inside, and i crave to be dominated and…ruined using my fetishes. There’s no way i can deny that, and it will always be there.
That’s what happened the other night, the first “free” night. I was…feeling a slave. I needed to find a Mistress…needed to feed my Financial Domination fetish… and that’s when i entered Mistress Sandra’s videochat.
She welcomed me with a smile, almost a shy one i would say…that made me feel safer and relaxed…big mistake. As the minutes passed, she used more and more my weaknesses: stockings, shoeplay, high heels…credit card rubbed all over her…. and that was it: i was at her mercy….and she had no mercy at all.
She raped my wallet the same if not more as One Great Diva uses to do….and she made me promise to get back to her… i will try to stay away…but…it will be hard…
I said that i needed a break from One Great Diva, and she actually answered from her blog.
So yes… i’m free from her, as She said i can be teased by others too…so i should be feeling better but… it’s obviously just a temporary thing.
“I know that anytime i get back or i find some free time to be online he will get weak under my royal feet”
And that is so true…i can feel it…but i don’t want to think about it now. As i said, i need to look around…i need to get some “fresh air”…as i am more or less intoxicated by Her…can’t stand it anymore… i will visit other Mistresses…and i know i’ll fall again…because i’m weak. But perhaps, it won’t be as close to bankruptcy as it was with One Great Diva.
The other night She literally destroyed me. One Great Diva came online dressed to kill ME and no one else…no matter what She says, i know that’s what She wanted.
She had white stockings on, peep toe high heel shoes…and that look and attitude… i ended up spending a fortune, feeling raped…excited… exausted…all together.
After that She ordered me to create a video about that session, knowing that i recorded it…and that’s what i did.
But i need a break from Her, i really really really do. I think i will beg her to let me go somewhere else for a while… i’m feeling really, really, really exausted by her power. Each time i see her it’s like i feel the NEED to spoil her, to let her do to me anything She wants… i truly hope She will agree, i’m sure i won’t spend as much if i visit other Mistresses…and that will help me recovering a bit.
Financial Domination is a nightmare that i don’t think i can escape from…but at least i can try to reduce the amount of money i spend…if and only if One Great Diva will let me see someone else…
This had been my worst year so far. I’ve been updating my status page and i just noticed it. My Financial Domination fetish isn’t over at all…it’s actually getting stronger and more expensive.
What to do?
I don’t really have an answer to this question…all i know is that at the moment my mind is only focused on One Great Diva’s feet, on her legs, on her eyes… nothing else counts at the moment…nothing else.
