Ignored, hiding, falling, soon to be drained

Ignored, hiding, falling, soon to be drained

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This is surely a peculiar (if not weird) period for me, that could be summarized by the title of this post: Ignored, hiding, falling and soon to be drained.

Ignored

One of the Goddesses i’m mostly weak for, is ignoring me recently. I don’t blame her, as more than once i’ve been “exploding” just while she was asking to send a paypal tribute. Most probably She’s giving attention to slaves that are more worth than me, but the more She ignores me, the more i desire to be drained by Her again.

Hiding

Yes, i’m hiding from my biggest nightmare: One Great Diva .
I know very well that She is the one capable to totally hypnotize me, completely make me weak and unable to do anything but what She orders me to do. That’s why i’m hiding from Her. After a few weeks She’s back online, and i keep looking at her pictures online but i’m making sure She doesn’t find me online…because i know that one word from Her is all i would need to fall again into her power.

Falling

This is peculiar. Recently i’ve been spending A LOT with a girl that’s not even a Mistress, even if She has her “dominant moments” (as she likes to call them). She’s gorgeous, she’s smart, funny, intelligent and very very open mindend. The woman i could easily fall for…she is maybe even more dangerous than the Goddesses, for my marriage. As i’ve always said, i could never leave my wife for a Goddess, i could never fall in love for a Mistress…but what about this girl? I’m lucky that, till now, she doesn’t want any kind of contact outside videochat…so in a way it’s all reduced to the videochat world…but still…i spent hours in private chat with her, and not at a cheap price…and many times she didn’t even tease me, just talked…and it felt really good.

Soon to be drained

This is going to happen VERY soon. MsSupreme told me She’s waiting for a new pair of shoes, and as soon as She gets them, She will drain me. This is the kind of thing i can’t resist from: a Goddess chasing me, ordering me to serve her, ordering me to go and see her because She knows there’s something She will use to make me weak…and MsSupreme totally knows how to make me weak…She does. And it will happen soon, maybe even tonight…or tomorrow.

So well…that’s it. I was just feeling like sharing what’s going on these days with this mess that is my life.

Dangerous night

Dangerous night

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My only hope is to find the strength to resist the temptation… and just go offline. Because tonight, at this moment, One Great Diva and MsSupreme are both online… lots of temptation…lots of danger…

Never spend as much as in May

Never spend as much as in May

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This is getting way out of control. Last month i’ve spent more than i’ve ever spent in a month on financial domination… more than 2.000$.

I thought i could fight, i thought i could resist…but it seems pointless…perhaps i should gave up alltogether and just embrace my real nature of Money Slave.

Or perhaps i should try real time domination, meeting up with one of my Goddesses…perhaps that would give me the definitive answer: am i a real moneyslave, or am i just a useless videochat wanker?

In any case….this is not looking good at all… i shouldn’t spend that much…i keep saying it…but yet…i keep spending more and more…

Miss Olivia is back

Miss Olivia is back

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When i just thought One Great Diva, MsSupreme and Mistress Sandra were enough for my problems…Miss Olivia comes back online…. and decided to remind me who is in control of the situation: not me.

She showed up online and sent me a quick message on messenger:

“Hi, i’m wearing my new shoes”

That was is. I decided to go in her videochat to have a quick look but… She decided i was going to stay longer, much longer…she ended up raping my wallet and brain…reminding me how powerful She can be when She decides She wants to get You. There is no escape, no escape at all.

After a really long videochat i went offline…and since then… all i can think of is…

What would it be to meet her for real?

It happened.

It happened.

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So it happened. Only a few days ago i was writing about Miss Olivia’s new shoes, about how i found them irresistible… and then, the other night, She contacted me on messenger saying this:

I think you should know i wear the shoes..need some help about the nylons. Got 3 pairs, hard to pick the right one.
Join video

I just went in, like a puppet executing an order. And i saw her: gorgeous as ever.

A super short black dress, her long legs and then…those sandals. She started talking, and my brain started to get foggy…then she put on pantyhose…perfect tan pantyhose…and those sandals again.

Looking at her crossing and uncrossing those perfect legs, while listening to her voice was…just too much. Too much to handle for any kind of man… and for me even more…

After a while i was like a zombie…listening and not writing at all in chat… and the She did it. She asked me to open my Paypal. With her convincing voice…with her crossed legs…with her dangling shoe…

And i exploded. As i never did before with Her, and for the first time i felt…embarassed to tell her what happened and why i would have not paid in Paypal… i just left, like a coward…and sent an apology the day after, to which she still has to answer.

How do i feel? Can’t describe it… but i can clearly see my weakness for her. Useless to deny it, useless to say i can be strong. She showed me that if She wants to get me, She can do it anytime.

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I believe no one would ever want to see her in video after reading this post…but in case you do, click here to enter Her videochat. Pure hell. Believe me.