This had been my worst year so far. I’ve been updating my status page and i just noticed it. My Financial Domination fetish isn’t over at all…it’s actually getting stronger and more expensive.
What to do?
I don’t really have an answer to this question…all i know is that at the moment my mind is only focused on One Great Diva’s feet, on her legs, on her eyes… nothing else counts at the moment…nothing else.
It doesn’t help to feel like being a slave of more than one Mistress, as i am… there are times…when… i’m the mood to serve…i’m ready to let them use their power on me but… no one of them is online.
Tonight is one of those nights…and all i can do is…dream about them.
It doesn’t stop…that’s a fact. I am spending more than last year and surely i am not slowing down… perhaps…this is just what i want…and i should really stop fighting this… what’s the point in fighting who i am?
Actually… recently i find myself thinking more and more about… real life sessions… about a Mistress (well, i can say Her name… Miss Olivia) tempting me in a public place, using my fetishes to make me weak…and then.. using me to go shopping… maybe shop about shoes… and modeling them in front of me… yes.. i am thinking about this more and more… and i find it really exciting.
But i do know one thing: that’s something i can’t afford. A real life session is going to cost WAY more than a videochat…and i can’t, can’t, can’t really afford that…at the moment…
Yes tonight i came back online and ended up visiting a Mistress on videochat. Now i’m confused. I don’t even know what i’m writing about… all i know is that in the last 40 minutes i went from being happy, to sad, to angry to..confused as i am.
Spent a lot? no. Felt Her power? Yes.
But anyway…is it so difficult to understand that i’m not exclusive? I’m a slave that lives on emotions, because they are the reason i spend… and emotions can come from different Mistresses… is it that difficult to understand? Why someone would be mad about it? And why this should cause me problems?
I don’t know. I am just confused…only thing i know for sure is that danger excites me, especially if it’s a beautiful and intelligent danger.
That’s all for tonight… probably no one will understand what i wrote…but in the end…a blog is personal….and even this one is personal. I write about what i feel, about whom i feel… and no one should even dream of telling me what to write or should try to influence my life because of what i write here.
What happened today really surprised (and honoured me): one of my goddesses posted a comment to my blog! At first i was (and well, still am) VERY excited by this…but the nature of the comment made me think a lot: she is angry.
Luckly she’s not angry with me (or well, not yet), but she is with some of the guys coming to her video after reading about Her on my blog because…well they just don’t know how to properly approach a Mistress online: so that’s why i thought about writing this sort of guide, especially because after all this time, i think to know what should be done. I believe this set of rules is valid for any cam session you might have, but in my case it has always been my favoirte cam site (this one)
1. Don’t think she can read your mind
That’s probably the main mistake many guys do. They think that because of She is a Mistress, She knows immediatly what the guy visiting her chat for the first time is into. Wrong. There are so many different kind of slaves, that you NEED to at least give her some hints of what you are looking for. Of course i know how hard it is to talk while you are in presence of a Mistress, but try to at least give her some hints!
2. If you are not into domination, just don’t visit her
Many Mistresses are of course incredibly beautiful women, so they also attract other kind of guys (not only slaves). But if she is a Mistress, don’t expect she will do anything else than dominate you! If you are looking for a Barbie Doll that will undress for you, just go somewhere else!
3. Entertain her
It can be with words, with actions, with gifts…anything. But try to be a bit active during the chat, that will most probably entertain the Mistress and the whole experience will be much better. But be careful: don’t be too active, always respect what She wants!
4. Don’t ask Her to do things for you
You are there to serve Her, not the other way around. If She wants to use your weaknesses (that you need to tell her or let her guess) then she will, if she doesn’t want to don’t ask her to. She’s there to be served and spoiled, not to entertain you. But be sure that if She is a great Mistress, She will use your weaknesses against you, she surely will.
5. Be patient
There is no Mistress out there that likes to run for us, slaves. She will take Her time, She will decide how long You will have to stay before having the chance to see anything. She is in charge during the videochat, not you. So just be patient and follow her.
WARNING!
Follow these simple rules and you will surely be in trouble as i am. But that’s what, deep inside, we are all looking for, aren’t we?
