I thought i already had enough problems with My Goddess dominating me…but i was SO wrong… She wasn’t actually the one who brought me into this, she wasn’t the one who made me a mondey slave… that was One Great Diva.
Last year she literally raped my wallet in a few days… i was SO scared (seriously) that i blocked her on every way possible.
And that worked… till last night…i don’t know how She found me, i don’t know how She got my contact…all i know is that i received an E-mail saying just this:
I’m gonna be online in 5 minutes. I am dressed to rape your wallet. You want me to do that, you were born to be raped by me. Be there, open your wallet and watch me rape it.
I was like hypnotized. Just couldn’t control myself. I immediatly went to Her room, waited for Her to come online and entered Her video.
She raped my wallet as others never did before. She’s mean, she’s powerful…and now i’m really fucked.
There are lots of Mistresses that contact me pretending to be served, acting as they already own me. And when i don’t react as a slave with them, they immediately define me as “fake”. Let me just say that this is totally ridiculous.
I’m a slave when a Mistress hits my “weak” points, not just because she calls herself a Mistress.
There are two special Mistresses that made me the moneyslave i am… because they hit my weak points, every time i see them, in a totally natural way. Because they are the Mistresses I’m meant to serve… unless i finally succeed in stopping this money slavery problem of mine…
Trying to resist her is starting to look pointless… once again i couldn’t take it anymore… i had to go back at her feet, i had to feel her power on me.
Almost a month ago i decided to block her on my messenger… but slowly, day after day, i felt the need to feel her power again…so i unblocked her… and she won again. She said “tonight i want you in my video”. Nothing else. I answered “no i won’t” but she didn’t even look at my answer, she knows her power…
And in fact, last night i waited 2 hours to see her coming online…and when she did i waited till she ordered me to go into her room… and that’s what i did.
This time she raped my wallet by 120$… but i know it’s not enough… because i will never win against her…she has me on her fingertips… because she knows how to drive me crazy in her videochat… as she did last night…
Why do i always find myself doing this “sitting duck” sort of game?
I know everytime she contacts me, i can’t resist her… so when i see she’s online on messenger, i log in and stay there…not contacting her and telling myself “i’ll go in 20 minutes”.
Inside myself i know the excitement i get to be “on the edge”…but i also know i NEED to avoid her, to protect myself against her…
But yet… i play like a sitting duck…all the time…
I’ve always thought this of course… but sometimes things get to your mind stronger than other times. And tonight is one of those times.
As everytime i have some privacy (meaning, my wife is asleep), i’m browsing through picture galleries of all these wonderful women online. Sometimes i see a shoe dangling for the top of a toe, other times just a pair of beautiful legs crossed while dressed in a formal way… but all these photos have one thing in common: women are Goddesses. They are here to be worshipped and served.
My fight against my moneyslavery doesn’t have anything to do with this. I’m just trying to save money and avoid getting completely raped by one of those Goddesses. But even if i’m trying to protect myself, that doesn’t change the fact that women are Goddesses.
Every man should worship a Goddess (or more than one), because that’s what we were born for.