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That unstoppable addiction

August 25, 2014 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

It’s not something I can control, it just happens. I often find myself feeling very strong, thinking I can stop whenever I want, thinking I’m not addicted or anything… and then…

Then I see Her on cam. And everything changes.

It’s hard to explain the reasons behind this addiction, but every time I see Goddess Adriana live on cam… my addiction grows and all I want is to be there, to worship Her, to serve Her, to make Her happy.

I know this sounds very like a cliche for a slave, as more or less every single slave says the same things about his Mistress…but I am just describing what’s happening to me…because it keeps surprising me each time.

I always believe I can control myself, I always believe there are things I will never do for a Mistress. And yet, each time. Goddess Adriana makes me do things I’ve never done before for anyone else. Things like draining my credit card completely (to the point my bank blocked it for a few days), or buying pantyhose for a Mistress… things like feeling such a STRONG desire to be in Her presence, to meet Her, to be really at Her feet.

Or things like…the ATM dream. A dream I keep having recently where I picture me and Her in front of an ATM, with Her teasing me badly with her feet (and not only) while whispering in my ear “more…take out more”.

Why do I have this addiction for Her? There are many reasons…but I don’t think I have to stay here and explain them…to me, She’s just the perfect Goddess, that’s all. And the addiction I’m feeling for Her is something I have never felt before for anyone else…so…She is special. Absolutely special.

Low on cash: the forced abstinence

June 2, 2014 YourMoneySlave Comments 1 comment

Now…this is one of the things i hate most: being low on cash (not only because of my findom addiction, but also because of other expenses) and therefore…being forced to stay away from all this world.

Yes i know, in a way i should be happy…for a week i won’t be able to spend on Financial Domination. Not a cent, nothing. I have 80$ left on my credit card…and believe me, i do need them till next pay period….

It’s exactly a forced abstinence.

What can i do about it? Nothing at all… i just need to stay away from my computer when i have privacy…when the temptation is higher… mostly because, no matter the temptation, money aren’t there…so there is no way i could see any of the gorgeous Goddess i serve.

One of those nights…

April 24, 2014 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

So my wife went to sleep. I’ve been working till a few minutes ago, and mind you is about 1.30 am… so I’m here, sitting in front of my computer, trying to relax.

And that’s when it happens: I’m alone, it’s night, I’m online. It’s like my fingers move by themselves..typing the address of the site I mostly visit my Goddesses from… but She’s not online. The one I have been thinking about since 2 days isn’t online… and I wish She was. Yes, I wish She would use her power on me tonight…but She’s not online.

And so…it’s one of those nights when I say…

I’ll wait 10 minutes, then go to bed if She doesn’t show up

And 10 minutes become 20….and then 30… and in the end…i will just feel useless and went to bed very late. It has happened before…it will happen tonight…unless…i just shut down my laptop and go to sleep.

Will I?

What if your Goddess has a kid?

March 10, 2014 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

I have to admit, i don’t consider myself an “easy to catch” slave, surely not an “easy to keep”. I have many reasons why i could suddenly stop feeling weak in front of a Goddess and today i am facing a new one that’s… making me think a lot about my “relationship” with a specific Goddess.

I won’t say her name, of course, but rest assured that She is someone i have NEVER spoke about in this blog, because I’ve actually met her just a week ago or so. She is absolutely gorgeous: brunette, long hair, slim, perfect legs and feet… and also a brain to fall for… in a few words, I’ve spent a lot with her and, even worst, i have been telling her lots of personal data…as I’ve never done before. So yes… i am totally into her…at the moment.

Last night we spent a long time together…even on Skype (and BOY…Skype makes it all so more REAL)… and it was magnificent. She took even more money and info from me… so I’m more and more weak for her…but then…today… i did what i always like to do (maybe it’s wrong)…i went searching for info about her online.

And I’ve found out she has a kid. Now…should this change anything on the way i feel for her? And if it does, why? She is still gorgeous, powerful, sexy, smart and everything else…but… but she has a family. She’s not “free“….. damn it i don’t even know how to explain this… but thinking about her as a mother, as a sweet mother… makes me feel WAY less weak thinking about her…is this wrong of me?

Don’t take me wrong, i am NOT saying she shouldn’t do what she does because she’s a mother, that’s absolutely NOT what i mean here….it’s how this makes me feel actually that is the question. Is the fact that all this make me feel less weak in front of her… it makes me see her more… human perhaps? Less dangerous? Maybe that’s it… the fact that she has a kid makes me think she is less dangerous… less “available”…less “free” of using the data i gave her…

I am sure i won’t be able to stop seeing her immediately…because when i say she is GORGEOUS, i really mean it…one of the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen…but i know…sooner or later…I’ll stop feeling weak in front of her…. and at that time…the next question will arise me… should i tell her the reason? Perhaps if i do…i could even still be close to her, even if not as a slave? She’s still a gorgeous woman… and hell…would still be great to make her teasing me from time to time…

…actually am i even making sense here?

Four years ago on this day…

January 4, 2014 YourMoneySlave Comments 0 Comment

Time surely goes fast. It seems yesterday that i’ve started this blog…instead it is four years now. And exactly four years ago i was writing my very first post.

“It’s late at night…the usual time when my “slave needs” raise up..when my wife is asleep and the temptation to do something exciting is high. And this is where it will all begin: this blog.“

Same old story. This will happen more and more after that day…and, as usual, i was also hoping to don’t do anything wrong…

“i won’t visit any of the gorgeous Mistresses there. I will just write this article and go to bed”

Yeah right…i bet… four years passed, and i still have to succeed on that. And then, at the end of the article, the sentence that really shows me how big my failure had been so far:

“the amount of money i will spend this year…that i hope will be less, much much less than last year… i would say a maximum of 500$ for the entire year “

I will end up that month spending 200$…and that year spending a total of 9.000$. The rest is history…and in 2013 alone i’ve spent 22.000$ as shown here.

If there is any resolution i think i can try to keep…is the one i made to my angel (remember her?) just last night: i will try to post more this year, i will force myself to do so. Let’s say…a minimum of three articles a month. That’s a goal i can achieve…i hope.