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No Way To Spend: And I’m Furious About It!

No Way To Spend: And I’m Furious About It!

It’s another one of those moments of my life. One of those that result in a simple thing: No money to spend whatsoever on Financial Domination.

Of course, I had similar moments in the past: lack of money, guilt feeling, fear of pushing it too far..and similar things. But well, this time is kinda different and it DOES make me feel REALLY mad.

As you probably all know (or you should, if you’ve read how i found my balance), I basically have two jobs (well, almost three actually). That’s the only way I found to be able to enjoy my financial domination fetish and still be able to go on with my normal life, taking care of my family as they deserve.

And this is where the issue I’m facing these days come out. The credit card I use for Financial Domination has been blocked. The reason? Some stupid bureaucracy stuff connected to my recent change of bank account. I’ve spent hours on the phone with those idiots, and they keep saying “we are working on it”…but 3 weeks passed, and NO NEWS. I am still waiting for a new credit card and, basically, all my Financial Domination funds are frozen!

And this time I really HATE this situation even more than before. I mean…when I didn’t have money, I was sad but well… I knew there was no easy solution. Same thing when I stopped because i felt guilty. Sad, but then again…it was my decision.

But this time? NO! Money is there. My NEED to spoil Goddesses is there. I don’t feel guilty AT ALL…and I still can’t spend a single damn cent!

P.S. If you feel this post was kinda useless…I do agree, but I had to throw out my anger somehow.

Am i really a slave…or just a hopeless wanker?

Am i really a slave…or just a hopeless wanker?

Some would argue that the difference between a wanker and a slave is not that big: I mean, in the end, it’s all about getting pleasure here…isn’t it? But a few days ago I faced a situation that made me start thinking seriously about this difference and which of those two I belong to.

I just had finished a session with a Goddess (a really great session, to be honest) and, out of the blue, another Goddess sent me a message on Skype.

“this would be the perfect time for you to worship my feet in nylon”

I didn’t worship Her feet since a long time actually because I could never see her online… so yeah, this would have been a chance to don’t miss…. But there was a big problem. I had just exploded a few minutes earlier, I wasn’t excited at all (physically at least, if you know what I mean)…and I felt like it would have been a total waste to have a session at that moment.

What’s the point in having a session, if you are not excited? If she can’t keep you on the edge? If you can’t…well… be hard for Her? To me, it doesn’t make sense, or at least it takes away a huge part of the joy in the session itself… but… does this make me a wanker or a slave?

What would have a real slave answered? Would have he started a session just for the pleasure of making his Goddess happy? Does this make me a bad slave?

What do you think?