My card is maxed out. Yeah… it’s actually the first time that this happens to me since i started into this financial domination mess. And it’s not because of the money spent online, but just for other kind of expenses that concentrated in a week…
So…i’m here, in the usual need to be under a mistress spell…and i can’t as i have no money to spend online.
Constant denial, this is what it looks like to me.
I had a horrible day today…and tomorrow at work it will be even worst… so i’m just sitting here, in front of the computer, feeling sort of sad…depressed…
And the weird thing is that… deep inside…i know that only her power would make me feel better…only letting her dominate me with her beauty would make me feel good again… and i do need that… but…she’s not around…and that makes me feel even worst….
As days pass by…i realise that i won’t be able to do what i’ve promised myself starting this blog: i won’t stop serving Her and the other Mistresses…because this is who i am, this is where i find pleasure…
Sucker, stupid, loser. That’s what i am. I’ve promised to myself to go to bed at 1:00 am tonight… instead i didn’t, and 5 minutes later WildStorm (Sheena) contacted me on messenger:
WildStorm (Sheena): hi
me: hello Goddess
WildStorm (Sheena): come in my room
me: i shouldn’t…i want to resist the temptation.
WildStorm (Sheena): you should..but i have my nylons on
WildStorm (Sheena): and i want you in, dog
WildStorm (Sheena): someone needs to lick my heels
me: i want to be strong…but God…. the thought of you…and my wife is not even home…i feel…defenseless…
WildStorm (Sheena): see, u know where to go now
me: yes my Goddess, i do
And that was it. I went into her room and remained there for nearly one hour and a half, staring at her beautiful teasing. I ended up spending $254.80 (logged into the Status page) and i completely exploded when she asked me to pay her $500 via PayPal, which i didn’t. Because i went offline after literally exploding.
I’m a stupid. I’m weak. I am not going to be strong enough to do what i’ve promised myself. This had been a really bad, bad, bad night for me.
