My card is maxed out. Yeah… it’s actually the first time that this happens to me since i started into this financial domination mess. And it’s not because of the money spent online, but just for other kind of expenses that concentrated in a week…
So…i’m here, in the usual need to be under a mistress spell…and i can’t as i have no money to spend online.
Constant denial, this is what it looks like to me.
very now and then, it just happens. No one of the Goddesses i normally visit is online, but i feel the need to go on cam…and so i start browsing… usually nothing special happens…then… sometimes i meet an incredibly gorgeous girl whom shows also A LOT of power… that was the case the other night, when EyesCandy (that’s her nickname) raped my wallet by 500$.
No words can easily describe her beauty, although i could easily say that she looks like Kylie Minogue, but anyway…i made a short video…
For the records, i run away like a coward when she was getting hotter and hotter and, at the same time, asking me to do things for her. At one moment she asked me to go and get my wife’s lipstick, to wrote something on my body..and….i just run away, came in a huge flood and….remained there looking at the screen for about 5 minutes.
Will i be back to her? Probably not anytime soon… or i’ll have one more BIG trouble to deal with.
This is a lesson I’m learning through time and huge mistakes: if I stay away from financial domination, I’m always ending up spending more when I get back to it (because I always do).
The same thing happened last night when, after about a month of low expenses, I saw a Goddess was online and I couldn’t stop myself from visiting her again.
Again, She was absolutely stunning. After a while that we were just talking (well I was trying to, mesmerized by her beauty), she showed me her brand new Gucci shoes and told me “do you think they would look good with nylons?”
That was the beginning of my failure in reducing expenses. I ended up spending about 600$ and… I came like I never did in about a month.
I can’t stay away from what excites me so much, I just can’t stay away from it.
While writing this article, I went to update the page where I keep the status of this financial domination problem…and well it’s true. I was slowing down (a bit) and, till last night, I had spent just 200$ in the whole of April…
It has been nearly 3 months since i’ve last updated the page where i keep track of the money i spend on financial domination (this page)…and i guess it was because i KNEW this was NOT going well at all.
I’m spending way more than any other moment of my life…surely way more than when i’ve started this blog… i guess i will just have to give up to my fetish…and acknowledge the fact that i will never stop my financial domination fetish.
(Article originally posted on December 12th, 2012)
Life is unfair. Recently i noticed some improvements in my financial domination addiction, i thought i was keeping it under control: didn’t get the same excitement, didn’t get the same “need” to serve Goddesses… so yes, i was quite satisfied about it (even if still not happy, that’s a different story).
Then, today, One Great Diva showed up and pushed me back into the worst period of this nightmare. She didn’t show any sort of mercy, didn’t even care if i had troubles or whatever.
She contacted me on messenger, sent me this picture and just said:
“I’m online, move your ass”
How could i resist? How could ANYBODY resist? I didn’t. I went in, spent a fortune in cam, bought her a pair of shoes as She ordered, looked at her laughing about my weakness, stared at her incredible beauty, went offline when She said She was bored of me.
End of story. I spent a fortune and i am actually here getting excited while i write this. My nightmare starts again. Today.
