Facebook disabled my account
Thank you, really thank you Facebook for disabling my account… had to create a new one… this one. Lost all contacts…
Total failure
Ok, it’s not going well at all. I’ve started this blog hoping that i would have been able to win this fight, hoping that i would have been able to resist the temptation… Well it seems i can’t. I’ve already spent 8 thousand dollars so far this year, and it doesn’t look that i’m going to stop. The thing is… these women know how to make me weak. They know it well and they do it also because…they probably know…
Perhaps i should just give up
August has been a hard month for me. I’ve been trying to stay away from Her, thinking in this way to actually..well…save money. But that didn’t actually happen. I kept going to other mistresses on the sites i well know (the three listed here on the right) and well.. i ended up spending quite a lot (for my standards) and… not being satisfied at all. She has something… something that really gets me. I don’t know if it’s the way she…
Trying to stop, once again
Sheena raped my wallet once again a few nights ago. I watched her in cam for a while, spending quite a lot and i almost sent her a tribute… i was just about to do it…when i managed to switch the computer off and, literally, run away. I really think i need to stop now, can’t go on like this. I have a family to think about and i’m really spending too much money. So last night, when i saw…
Here’s how she raped my wallet
I don’t consider myself strong when i have a beautiful woman in front of me, otherwise i would not be here trying to escape from my money slaver problem. But i’m quite sure NO MAN would have resisted Her after what she did in cam last night. She teased me for a while, with her long legs in black pantyhose, her sharp high heels, her feet, her toes. Then, all of sudden, she told me: “I want you to put your…
Let’s face it: i’m addicted to slavery
Why should i keep denying this? My problem it’s not having gorgeous and powerful women (like Diva) using my fetishes to control and ruin me… my problem is that i’m addicted to slavery. Whenever i’m online and i don’t see any of the two Queens that are ruining me….i just go and look for other Queens (in the places i’ve actually listed here on the right), in the hope to find someone else as powerful and gorgeous as they are….
A thought about being a slave
There are lots of Mistresses that contact me pretending to be served, acting as they already own me. And when i don’t react as a slave with them, they immediately define me as “fake”. Let me just say that this is totally ridiculous. I’m a slave when a Mistress hits my “weak” points, not just because she calls herself a Mistress. There are two special Mistresses that made me the moneyslave i am… because they hit my weak points, every…
She won… once again
Trying to resist her is starting to look pointless… once again i couldn’t take it anymore… i had to go back at her feet, i had to feel her power on me. Almost a month ago i decided to block her on my messenger… but slowly, day after day, i felt the need to feel her power again…so i unblocked her… and she won again. She said “tonight i want you in my video”. Nothing else. I answered “no i…
The sitting duck
Why do i always find myself doing this “sitting duck” sort of game? I know everytime she contacts me, i can’t resist her… so when i see she’s online on messenger, i log in and stay there…not contacting her and telling myself “i’ll go in 20 minutes”. Inside myself i know the excitement i get to be “on the edge”…but i also know i NEED to avoid her, to protect myself against her… But yet… i play like a sitting…
Women are meant to be worshipped
I’ve always thought this of course… but sometimes things get to your mind stronger than other times. And tonight is one of those times. As everytime i have some privacy (meaning, my wife is asleep), i’m browsing through picture galleries of all these wonderful women online. Sometimes i see a shoe dangling for the top of a toe, other times just a pair of beautiful legs crossed while dressed in a formal way… but all these photos have one thing…