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Slowing down

Slowing down

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So i had the chance to update my Current Status page, were i keep track of how much my Financial Domination problem is costing me.

Well it seems i managed to slow down a bit, as in September i spent less than what i spent in the same month last two years…but i know the reason behind this, and that’s not something that makes me feel any better: personal problems. I had been stressed by some personal issues, not realted to financial domination or to me being a moneyslave, and this left me less time to spend online…that’s the one and only reason why i managed to spend less.

Am i still a Money Slave? Yes, i totally am…but when real life problems come in between…it’s easier to spend less money…that’s all really.

It’s over

It’s over

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I couldn’t take it anymore. I knew she was the only one i should rely on, the only one i should care of, the only one that could help me.

I didn’t sleep at all last night, thinking about her. So this morning… i phoned my wife.

I’ve asked her to go online while we were on the phone. Explained her how it all started, during last May. I told her how much i’ve spent last year, what i was trying to do this year and how bad things were going…. showed her this blog, my twitter, everything.

Then, when i’ve finished and asked her “so…i know i’ve hurted you, but i’m here asking for your help…please, try to forgive me”. She shouted at me, she cried, she told me i disappointed her totally, she told me how stupid i have been…i tried to tell her how much i do love her, how much i care about her, tried to show her i’ve always loved her all this time….she just kept screaming… understandably.

She wants me to go to a psychologist. She thinks i have some sort of problem… and i probably agree with her. I’ll do that. With her. She’s still away though and will be back in two weeks from now, but i will keep phoning her twice a day, or even more. I want her to feel how sorry i am, how i DO love her.

But this. This blog, this twitter, this facebook…this is all over. I won’t log in again. Just a few weeks ago we were planning to have a baby…and tha’t s where i want to go back. Back to us. Back to our life.

It’s over.

My first post

My first post

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It’s late at night…the usual time when my “slave needs” raise up..when my wife is asleep and the temptation to do something exciting is high. And this is where it will all begin: this blog.

Tonight i won’t go on CamContacts, i won’t visit any of the gorgeous Mistresses there. I will just write this article and go to bed. Lots of things i still need to do here in this blog… i want to make a page with how much i spent last year, for everyone to see…and i want to keep track of how many times i’ll just go and visit those Mistresses, with the usual idea “i will just have a look at her latest pics”, and the amount of money i will spend this year…that i hope will be less, much much less than last year… i would say a maximum of 500$ for the entire year… well..better if i think a bit more of this goal, can’t be sure i will make it that far.