Ignored, hiding, falling, soon to be drained

Ignored, hiding, falling, soon to be drained

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This is surely a peculiar (if not weird) period for me, that could be summarized by the title of this post: Ignored, hiding, falling and soon to be drained.

Ignored

One of the Goddesses i’m mostly weak for, is ignoring me recently. I don’t blame her, as more than once i’ve been “exploding” just while she was asking to send a paypal tribute. Most probably She’s giving attention to slaves that are more worth than me, but the more She ignores me, the more i desire to be drained by Her again.

Hiding

Yes, i’m hiding from my biggest nightmare: One Great Diva .
I know very well that She is the one capable to totally hypnotize me, completely make me weak and unable to do anything but what She orders me to do. That’s why i’m hiding from Her. After a few weeks She’s back online, and i keep looking at her pictures online but i’m making sure She doesn’t find me online…because i know that one word from Her is all i would need to fall again into her power.

Falling

This is peculiar. Recently i’ve been spending A LOT with a girl that’s not even a Mistress, even if She has her “dominant moments” (as she likes to call them). She’s gorgeous, she’s smart, funny, intelligent and very very open mindend. The woman i could easily fall for…she is maybe even more dangerous than the Goddesses, for my marriage. As i’ve always said, i could never leave my wife for a Goddess, i could never fall in love for a Mistress…but what about this girl? I’m lucky that, till now, she doesn’t want any kind of contact outside videochat…so in a way it’s all reduced to the videochat world…but still…i spent hours in private chat with her, and not at a cheap price…and many times she didn’t even tease me, just talked…and it felt really good.

Soon to be drained

This is going to happen VERY soon. MsClassy told me She’s waiting for a new pair of shoes, and as soon as She gets them, She will drain me. This is the kind of thing i can’t resist from: a Goddess chasing me, ordering me to serve her, ordering me to go and see her because She knows there’s something She will use to make me weak…and MsClassy totally knows how to make me weak…She does. And it will happen soon, maybe even tonight…or tomorrow.

So well…that’s it. I was just feeling like sharing what’s going on these days with this mess that is my life.

Dangerous night

Dangerous night

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My only hope is to find the strength to resist the temptation… and just go offline. Because tonight, at this moment, One Great Diva and MsClassy are both online… lots of temptation…lots of danger…

Never spend as much as in May

Never spend as much as in May

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This is getting way out of control. Last month i’ve spent more than i’ve ever spent in a month on financial domination… more than 2.000$.

I thought i could fight, i thought i could resist…but it seems pointless…perhaps i should gave up alltogether and just embrace my real nature of Money Slave.

Or perhaps i should try real time domination, meeting up with one of my Goddesses…perhaps that would give me the definitive answer: am i a real moneyslave, or am i just a useless videochat wanker?

In any case….this is not looking good at all… i shouldn’t spend that much…i keep saying it…but yet…i keep spending more and more…

Miss Olivia is back

Miss Olivia is back

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When i just thought One Great Diva, MsClassy and Mistress Sandra were enough for my problems…Miss Olivia comes back online…. and decided to remind me who is in control of the situation: not me.

She showed up online and sent me a quick message on messenger:

“Hi, i’m wearing my new shoes”

That was is. I decided to go in her videochat to have a quick look but… She decided i was going to stay longer, much longer…she ended up raping my wallet and brain…reminding me how powerful She can be when She decides She wants to get You. There is no escape, no escape at all.

After a really long videochat i went offline…and since then… all i can think of is…

What would it be to meet her for real?

It happened.

It happened.

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So it happened. Only a few days ago i was writing about Miss Olivia’s new shoes, about how i found them irresistible… and then, the other night, She contacted me on messenger saying this:

I think you should know i wear the shoes..need some help about the nylons. Got 3 pairs, hard to pick the right one.
Join video

I just went in, like a puppet executing an order. And i saw her: gorgeous as ever.

A super short black dress, her long legs and then…those sandals. She started talking, and my brain started to get foggy…then she put on pantyhose…perfect tan pantyhose…and those sandals again.

Looking at her crossing and uncrossing those perfect legs, while listening to her voice was…just too much. Too much to handle for any kind of man… and for me even more…

After a while i was like a zombie…listening and not writing at all in chat… and the She did it. She asked me to open my Paypal. With her convincing voice…with her crossed legs…with her dangling shoe…

And i exploded. As i never did before with Her, and for the first time i felt…embarassed to tell her what happened and why i would have not paid in Paypal… i just left, like a coward…and sent an apology the day after, to which she still has to answer.

How do i feel? Can’t describe it… but i can clearly see my weakness for her. Useless to deny it, useless to say i can be strong. She showed me that if She wants to get me, She can do it anytime.

IMPORTANT
I believe no one would ever want to see her in video after reading this post…but in case you do, click here to enter Her videochat. Pure hell. Believe me.

Miss Olivia’s new shoes

Miss Olivia’s new shoes

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Since i saw a photo of Miss Olivia‘s new sandals, i can’t stop thinking about her. Well actually what made me think even more of Her is a comment she recently posted on this site, where She describes the way She would behave in a real time session with me:

“Let’s say I date him for a RT session… what makes you think I will whip him in public, when I plan in fact to tease the hell out of him and, at one moment, put my feet on nylons between his legs, make him cum in a public place while smiling like a devil… after a shoes shopping session?”

Now that….that is the exact descrption of a dream i’ve been having since i first talked to Her. And the amazing thing was that, once, She described me that situation without even me telling her about it…it’s like a special connection…i don’t know.

 

Then those sandals… i imagine her wearing them with tan nylons, among with a classy dress, perhaps a bit short (but not too much). How could any man resist? And if She would start removing one of them and dangle it a bit, while we are having a coffee in a public bar here in Florence…how could i not get instantly hard?

This is a dream i’ve been having since a long time… and of one thing i’m sure…as soon as She will tell me “i’m wearing those sandals“, i will go into her videochat.

By the way…seems like some of you don’t even know how to reach her…and moreover, fail in getting her attention. I can’t tell you how to do it, as many factors are involved, but i’m sure of two things you NEED to do:

  1. – Wait for her to come online and join her in videochat (here).
  2. – Show her that you are not a common wanker, but that you are a slave worth some attention…don’t be cheap.

I don’t think there is any need for me to tell you that you are “playing with fire” by visiting Her. If She decides you are worth her attention…She will drain you.

She doesn’t know what to do with that power

She doesn’t know what to do with that power

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I think i’ve said more than once that, quite often, even if none of the gorgeous and dangerous Mistresses listed here is online, if i feel the NEED to be dominated, i try to visit different Goddesses.

But, believe it or not, the web is full of “so called” mistresses that, in fact, don’t even know what they are doing or at least, not completely.

Some of them are almost “there”…they are gorgeous, they know how to dress, they know how to put the camera, they know how to tease but…the more i get weak…the less they know what to do with the power they have on me.

If you are not into domination, you are probably thinking “hey that’s good, you won’t risk anything with them”….WRONG. That’s actually the reason why i never visit them again.

If She doesn’t even try to take advantage of me…all i was looking for is lost, even if She is gorgeous and sexy… i’m there to be dominated…i’m there to feel the risk…if there is no risk…i get no excitement at all.

Just something i wanted to share…especially with those that still can’t understand what me and others are into, why we are doing this and why we can’t stop or, better said, deep inside we don’t WANT to stop.

Sometimes i regret not being online

Sometimes i regret not being online

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It happens. Even if i know how dangerous that would have been for my wallet, i see a picture like the one below, posted by Sheena, and i start to regret i wasn’t online when She was.

 

I don’t see i’ve ever seen Her with those shoes, and i believe there is something different on Her makeup…moreover, She’s wearing purple lingerie (shown in other pictures)…She’s hot…as ever…and yes, i wish i would have been online to let her make me weak dressed like this.