It’s happening again, and I guess you can tell from my lack of posts here on my blog: some personal life stuff is keeping me away from Findom.
Do I think this is good?
No, of course not. I don’t care if this means I spend (way) less money. I don’t care if this can feel like a way to slow down. I don’t care if it keeps me away from danger. It’s simply NOT what I want.
I’d love to have a session with one of the Goddesses I always dream about. I’d love to feel their power over my brain, to let them take all they want from my wallet.
But I can’t.
Too much stuff going on in my brain right now. Too many things to take care of. Findom will have to wait… even if that means my need for it will only grow more and more…making me suffer more and more.
Life sucks sometimes, especially when Findom isn’t a part of it.
As we all know, Goddesses are not all the same. They have a different style, attitude, personality and, obviously, a different way of getting into our brain, of enslaving us.
Heartless Queen, at least in my case, always enslaved me by…scaring me. Yes, I’m not afraid to admit it: She is the one I’ve always been most scared of.
Her approach has always been very direct: as soon as She understood what drives me crazy, She started constantly using it to make me weak and drain me.
I honestly never had very long sessions with Her…but only because I ended up literally running away pretty soon. Each one of them has been very intense, with my heart beating as fast as ever and I often ended those sessions by running away (that is, literally switching my computer off before it was too late).
She enjoys pushing her victim’s limits…and pushing them hard.
One thing that always catches me is, apart from her obvious beauty, the camera angle she keeps in her room: we always look at her from the floor, with her legs constantly moving back and forth, her feet often letting her pumps dangle from the top of her toes. And this, to me, is like the hottest sight EVER in cam.
So, as you can imagine, as soon as I get a chance to see Her…it’s kinda impossible for me to move away. And if, by any chance, I give her even the slight idea I might be in a “sitting duck situation”….she jumps on me like a lion on a pray, using my weaknesses to make me fall…and drain me. That’s how it always happened with Her…and that’s what always scared me the most. There is NO WAY you can be around her without her reminding you of your role: we are slaves and we MUST serve her.
I should know by now: I can never predict what’s going to happen when I’m alone and vulnerable. Nothing can be planned in findom, nothing at all. And what happened last night wasn’t an exception.
I was just getting ready to switch off my computer, after a long day and a pretty boring night, when I got a message from MsSupreme:
“Take a look”
After that, She just sent me this picture.
Obviously, my plans of switching off the computer and go to bed where canceled. But I still didn’t know what was going to happen, all I knew was that this was a magnificent picture of MsSupreme legs in Wolford pantyhose. Enough for my heart to start beating faster.
I reacted in a pretty silly way, something like “wow” (yeah, I’m never too original in those moments) and thought that was it. Boy, I was wrong. After about one minute of silence… She sent another one.
If the first one caught my attention, this one started to drive me crazy. Her perfectly shaped legs could easily be seen, and those shiny Wolford made them look even more amazing. Her toes in a perfect position, to enhance their beauty and power I know so well.
All I could say was a simple (and classic) “Goddess, You are incredible“. Which was exactly what I thought at that moment. And yes, I started getting excited. But she didn’t say anything for a while.
After about 5 minutes, that I spent looking at our chat unable to type anything or move away, She decided it was time to increase her pressure on my self control. She sent two pictures this time.
Yes, She is beyond beautiful. Her perfect arched feet, Her beautiful face, those unique and gorgeous eyes… all those details that made me spent more and more in the last few years. All those details there, in front of my eyes, in those pictures.
She knew I was now under her control. She knew I couldn’t run away or say “no” by now. And after a few seconds, She only said:
“Now you will go to my room and send me a 500$ gift”
And this made me discover something I wasn’t aware of. My favourite cam site recently added the ability to send gifts. You just go to Her profile, click a button and select the amount to send.
It took me less than 10 seconds to spend 500$, and without even asking to see Her or anything. I just sent the gift, got a nice “well done Massi” from Her…and ended my night.
What happened was that has killed my softly (and slowly) with those pictures…leading me to where she wanted. To have me under Her total control.
I might not talk too often about Her, but believe me…once MsSupreme gets you, there is no way you can ever run away. Time can pass, but once She decides to gets you… She gets you.
Usually when I know I will be home alone for some time, I kinda feel scared. Unsafe, I would say.
I know that when I’m alone, I am an easy target for Goddesses, and I also know that those are the days I end up spending the most.
But this year I feel different, don’t know why.
I am actually looking forward to it. Perhaps it’s because I am coming out a tough period at work, or simply because I didn’t have that much privacy lately… I really don’t know. Whatever it is.. I can’t wait for these 2 weeks to start.
Since this Friday I’ll be alone for about two weeks, and I get excited even when I type this.
What will happen? Oh I know it very well… we all do.
I’ve been writing on this blog for about 8 years now, basically ever since I discovered my Financial Domination fetish. And In all this time, everything always happened online. Cam sessions with some of the most beautiful women I could ever dream to meet in real life, from the comfort of my home, behind the safety of my computer “power off” button.
One of the Goddesses I’ve been serving for the longest time is, by no doubts, Goddess Ishtar. I had my first online session with Her in September 2010: from then on, countless times, She has been raping my wallet. Countless times She scared the hell out of me with Her incredible power. Countless times I’ve been dreaming, one day, to finally be at her feet. In real. Well, last week it happened.
I met Her and experienced Her beauty and power in person.
It all started about 2 weeks ago when we were in a session, and She told me She was going away for about a week. To my surprise, I discovered She would have been in the same city as me, as I was planning a business trip in the same European city.
At first, I was full of doubts, didn’t even know if proposing to meet Her or not…but, as usual, She was smarter than I. She noticed the desire in me and played on it. With Her incredible beauty, She convinced me to meet Her in a matter of minutes. But, of course, it wouldn’t have been free.
She told me She very rarely meet slaves, and only because I have been serving Her for so long, She would consider this. But I had to make it worth it. And that’s when I started doing what a moneyslave is supposed to do. I started sending Her money. But this time the feeling was more intense than usual because I had a goal in mind, I had a dream, just very, very close… I had to catch it. And She knew all this.
After I sent Her about 6000$, She agreed to a meeting.
We didn’t set lots of details, as She said She didn’t want to be bothered with a scheduled. It would have happened, I just wouldn’t know exactly when.
My business trip started, and all I could think about was meeting Her. I kept looking at my phone constantly, waiting to see a message from Her. Waiting for Her to tell me when and how we would have met. And then it happened.
Tonight, 11pm.
Followed by a google maps link to a very famous nightclub in the city.
It was early afternoon. But I had to leave the meeting I was having. Too excited, too anxious, too happy. I spent the whole afternoon just thinking about that moment, just trying to imagine what it would have happened, how she would have approached me, what she would have given me the pleasure of doing for Her.
This is how Goddess Ishtar was dressed that night
At 11pm I arrived at the place, went in, got myself a drink, and took a look around. I couldn’t see Her. I decided to sit down on a place from where I could see the entrance, hoping to see Her coming in pretty soon.
After about 20 minutes, I saw her. And I can’t describe you how I felt. I was as excited as anyone can be, for a few long moments I even had trouble breathing. She has been in my dreams for 8 years. I have been fantasizing about Her for all this time, day after day…and finally She was here. Walking towards me slowly and with a beautiful knowing smile in her face.
She had a yellow top, a black leather skirt, black nylons (Wolford, as I discovered later) and black high heels. Beautiful and perfect.
She arrived at where I was sitting (well, standing now, of course) and gave me Her hand for a very friendly handshake.
“So we finally meet, are you ok? You seem a bit nervous”
To that, she added a nice smile, which actually contributed to making me relax a bit.
Time passed by without any reference to domination. We had a few drinks (well I had more than her, as She told me She doesn’t like to drink), talked about general stuff, smiled…almost like two friends. She probably noticed I was too nervous, and tried to calm my down. And She totally succeeded in it. After half an hour or so, I was feeling really, really nice. Relaxed, happy… in heaven.
Then everything got spectacular. Out of the blue, She told me:
“Now listen. You will give me your phone with your home banking app unlocked. And you will give me a foot massage“.
I got an instant hardon. It was really happening. I was really going to experience something I only ever dreamed of until that moment.
I immediately gave Her my phone with my home banking app unlocked. She took a sip of her drink, then slowly went down with her hands, took off her heels, and put her feet in my lap.
I had Goddess Ishtar feet in my lap. For real. And I was allowed to touch them.
I almost couldn’t believe it was really happening, so at first, I kinda froze and was unable to move.
“Give me your best foot massage. Now!” She said, pointing her finger to her feet.
Her Wolford nylons felt incredible in my hands, her feet were warm, perfect and smooth. I already knew every inch of them, at least virtually, but feeling them in my hands was another story.
I gave the best attention to her feet that I could: her toes, her soles, every part of her feet. And as I was doing that, I was in heaven. I totally forgot about my phone, my bank account…really didn’t care! It was the best moment of my life!
After about 30 minutes (so I discovered later), She gave me back my phone, saying:
“You’ve been good, now you can give my toes a goodbye kiss“
Kissing her toes guys, I was going to kiss Goddess Ishtar’ toes! My eyes probably popped out, because she made a beautiful laugh right after she told me that…but I did as She ordered me. I gave her toes a soft kiss, trying to treasure that moment as much as possible. As I knew, it was going to be the end of the night.
After that, She just put Her shoes back on, took the last sip of Her drink, got up and told me: “It was nice, hope we will do it again one day”
And She left. I couldn’t even say anything. I just watched Her leaving and stayed there, probably looking like a zombie, for 20 minutes or so. Still didn’t realize what it just happened.
When I came back to my Hotel room I finally remembered She had my phone the whole time.
Unlocked it and saw a picture She took while I was giving a foot massage! That pic would have helped me remember that night even more, so glad She thought about taking it!
Then i opened my home banking app.
She took 5200$
And I don’t even think She took too much. She took what She deserves. And I feel that was a way for me to thank Her.
Because last week I had the time of my life. All thanks to Goddess Ishtar. And I don’t care if it costed me 11.200$.
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