Obvious thing to say… if i’m tired i don’t go online…therefore i don’t spend. Wow…what a revelation…right? Well i know, it’s totally obvious…but it’s a fact.
I think i have been once or twice online in about 10 days now…and that’s because i’m working a lot, and i’m more and more tired at night.
I should be happy about this right? I should…right? Well…wrong. I’m not. I can’t appreciate this enough…it seems…something is missing… and i surely know what that is.
It’s the excitement i get while i’m totally putting myself in a Goddess hands, it’s the feeling i get…that fear… yes, all that.
Looks like i’m addicted to this feeling…i’m…addicted to be enchanted by a woman’s seduction…to be manipulated…to be under her control.
It’s Valentine today… and a good husband should be thinking only about his wife… but the thing is…i’m sick, and therefore i didn’t go to work. So i was home this morning…wife away for a couple of hours…and i saw… Goddess Ishtar online.
The temptation was too high…and i asked Her if i could go and see her… “for a bit” i said. Obviously, nothing stops until She says so… therefore we spent 1 hour together…she took about 300$ from me… and also took my brain with Her.
She was MAGNIFICIENT. Her teasing was too much to handle, Her orders were firm and at the right time…She was wearing a short (way short) red dress, tan pantyhose with NO panties and some of the most beautiful shoes i’ve ever seen. Black shiny peep toes with a spike red heel…. i was like a zombie the whole time.
She kept teasing me more and more, driving me more and more crazy each minute…and always ordered me to stop rubbing my cock at the right time….then… my wife called me… Goddess Ishtar saw me talking to her on the phone… and i had to run….wife needed to meet me for something.
Usually i would have run away immediatly….but Goddess Ishtar told me “wait untill i say you can go”….and so i did. I didn’t care if my wife was waiting, i know Goddess Ishtar would have let me go in time…but i had to follow Her orders.
And so She did. She let me go after a short while…made me promise to don’t cum without Her permission (i didn’t manage to!)…and i left.
I am here, writing this article, and i still have Her strongly into my mind, very deep, very strong. Even when i met my wife i was like in trance….didn’t even act normally…she even told me “what’s wrong?”…
Yes, Goddess Ishtar today reminded me of Her power, Her huge power…and i want to end this article with a warning: don’t visit Her unless You are ready to face Her power….make your choice: this is her chatroom
If you follow this blog, most probably you are going to say now “Her? again? Oh come on!”….but that’s the way it is. I can’t define myself as a loyal slave, i keep visiting new Goddesses online…but Her, OneGreatDiva, just can’t be compared to anyone else.
It’s not only her beauty (which i don’t even need to speak about)…it’s Her attitude, Her brain. As i think i said many times, for me the domination starts in the brain. I am quite an intelligent person, and i don’t fall easily as it may seem reading this blog. Yes i can fall once or twice for someone just because of Her beauty but… to keep falling deeper and deeper, to keep acting like a puppet… She needs to be smarter than me, She needs to be wiser than me, She needs to be more intelligent than me.
And that’s Her. OneGreatDiva always knows how to push my limits, always knows my weaknesses, She seems to be able to read my mind, and knows in every single moment my limits. One time she will make me spend a lot (like a few nights ago, 850$ in videochat), another time she will just refuse to even accept me on cam… it’s like She knows how much i can spend each and every time… and when i’m not around… She knows how to “call me”…by just posting some pictures on Her Twitter account…
I’ve been reading a lot about blackmailing, as i was (and still am) fascinated by this kind of thing..there’s literally tons and tons of articles to read online, and the more i read, the more i become more or less obsessed by the idea of letting a Goddess take control of the place where all my personal data information is stored: my personal laptop.
If you look on Google for “Teamviewer blackmail” you will find lots of results, and i’m sure more and more pages will come up in the future. Basically, Teamviewer is the best software around to offer remote help on a computer. The one in need of help just run the software, gives to the other person an ID and a password, and the other one can get the full control of that computer. You will see your mouse moving by itself, the other party will be able to work on your computer exactly as he/she would have been at your side…and, even more, you can actually see eachother in a videochat inside of it.
It’s easy to see why this has become the main tool for blackmailing these days. The slave doesn’t actually give informations to the Goddess, he doesn’t even answer questions or anything… as soon as the Goddess order him to give her TeamViewer ID and Password…that’s it. The slave is totally screwed. No way to hide informations from her, no way to give fake details. She has complete access to your entire digital life.
And that’s exactly the most scary and exciting part of it. That’s why, so far, i have never been able to do that last step… as soon as i start giving those details…i explode. The excitement is huge, my heart start beating faster and faster and…yeah..i come.
Needless to say, OneGreatDiva is the one that got closer to that to happen…because She is just amazing and incredible powerful…but even in Her case i wasn’t able to go all the way through… i’m scared. Teamviewer is here, on my computer (i use it daily for work!)… and i’m afraid sooner or later i’ll really be…screwed.
Looks like something inside myself is changing, lately. I really thought financial domination would have been the deeper i could have fall regarding my fetishes, but recently i’ve started to be more and more fascinated by BlackMailing.
Blackmail is an act, often a crime, involving unjustified threats to make a gain or cause loss to another unless a demand is met [Wikipedia]
A few weeks ago i bought a Clips4Sale video from Lady Suzanne, but didn’t exactly do what she ordered in the video…most probably because it didn’t get too much into my brain (although she’s amazing, but that video probably wasn’t her best). I bought it and waited for something to happen. Of course nothing did, probably because she doesn’t get customer’s data when they buy their clips (or because it’s all just a game). But i was excited by that, i really was excited by the idea of a gorgeous and mean woman like her being able to track me down… scared and excited at the same time.
After that, i’ve started to play with the idea, started to give “hints” to the Goddesses i’ve visited online and, so far, always ended up either giving fake details (or partially fake), or just totally explode before giving them (when the Goddess was really, really good, as in some cases).
To be honest, a couple of years ago i had a (bad) experience about blackmail, but as soon as it started (and i didn’t want that to happen that time!) i blocked the involved Goddess in any possible ways and, after a while, i got out of it….but i really didn’t like it at that time, not at all! Even OneGreatDiva once started a bit of it…but being wise as She is, She stopped as soon as She saw my reaction.
So what now? Wasn’t i a moneyslave? What’s this blackmailing thing all about? Why should i be THAT excited to give someone else the ability to totally screw my life? And then…there is this teamviewer thing… but i will tell you about it another day… it’s late, i’m in office, and i’m supposed to be going home now…
Time surely goes fast. It seems yesterday that i’ve started this blog…instead it is four years now. And exactly four years ago i was writing my very first post.
“It’s late at night…the usual time when my “slave needs” raise up..when my wife is asleep and the temptation to do something exciting is high. And this is where it will all begin: this blog.“
Same old story. This will happen more and more after that day…and, as usual, i was also hoping to don’t do anything wrong…
“i won’t visit any of the gorgeous Mistresses there. I will just write this article and go to bed”
Yeah right…i bet… four years passed, and i still have to succeed on that. And then, at the end of the article, the sentence that really shows me how big my failure had been so far:
“the amount of money i will spend this year…that i hope will be less, much much less than last year… i would say a maximum of 500$ for the entire year “
I will end up that month spending 200$…and that year spending a total of 9.000$. The rest is history…and in 2013 alone i’ve spent 22.000$ as shown here.
If there is any resolution i think i can try to keep…is the one i made to my angel (remember her?) just last night: i will try to post more this year, i will force myself to do so. Let’s say…a minimum of three articles a month. That’s a goal i can achieve…i hope.
And so this year comes to and end. And more or less nothing changed since last year: my financial domination fetish is as strong as ever.
A few minutes ago i’ve updated my expenses record and i saw two things: in december i’ve spent less than usual…and in total, in 2013, i’ve spent 22.025$ on financial domination… that’s a hell of a lot…and something i’m ashamed of but…something i just can’t avoid it seems. Maybe the fact i’ve spend less in december could make me think that i’m improving…but how long will it last? How long till one of those Goddesses will contact me on messenger saying one of the things that excites me most?
I’m wearing nylons, and i’m going to rape your wallet tonight
I don’t know. My journey continues…my fetish isn’t stopping…and my money keeps going away from my pocket.
And while i’m writing this, i just saw one of One Great Diva’s latest pictures…