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And then, as a thunder, Goddess Ishtar reminded me Her power

And then, as a thunder, Goddess Ishtar reminded me Her power

It’s Valentine today… and a good husband should be thinking only about his wife… but the thing is…i’m sick, and therefore i didn’t go to work. So i was home this morning…wife away for a couple of hours…and i saw… Goddess Ishtar online.

The temptation was too high…and i asked Her if i could go and see her… “for a bit” i said. Obviously, nothing stops until She says so… therefore we spent 1 hour together…she took about 300$ from me… and also took my brain with Her.

She was MAGNIFICIENT. Her teasing was too much to handle, Her orders were firm and at the right time…She was wearing a short (way short) red dress, tan pantyhose with NO panties and some of the most beautiful shoes i’ve ever seen. Black shiny peep toeswith a spike red heel…. i was like a zombie the whole time.

She kept teasing me more and more, driving me more and more crazy each minute…and always ordered me to stop rubbing my cock at the right time….then… my wife called me… Goddess Ishtar saw me talking to her on the phone… and i had to run….wife needed to meet me for something.

Usually i would have run away immediatly….but Goddess Ishtar told me “wait untill i say you can go”….and so i did. I didn’t care if my wife was waiting, i know Goddess Ishtar would have let me go in time…but i had to follow Her orders.

And so She did. She let me go after a short while…made me promise to don’t cum without Her permission (i didn’t manage to!)…and i left.

I am here, writing this article, and i still have Her strongly into my mind, very deep, very strong. Even when i met my wife i was like in trance….didn’t even act normally…she even told me “what’s wrong?”…

Yes, Goddess Ishtar today reminded me of Her power, Her huge power…and i want to end this article with a warning: don’t visit Her unless You are ready to face Her power….make your choice: this is her chatroom

Moneyslave questions and doubts

Moneyslave questions and doubts

Does it still make sense for me saying that i’m trying to stop? Am i really trying to stop my financial domination fetish?

I’m starting to believe that…no, i won’t stop and i don’t want to stop. I keep spending more and more (just updated a few minutes ago my total spending, here, and it says 15.000$ so far this year) and, even worst, i don’t feel bad about it.

I don’t know if it’s because lately i’ve met some truly exceptional Goddesses , or if it’s just that my real life is going well even if i have this financial domination problem….or maybe, i am just starting to acknowledge that this is what i am… i don’t know, truth is i am not slowing down and i am most probably not going to stop anytime soon.

So i’m here asking to myself (and not only, if you’ll want to add your thoughts in the comments): should i state in this blog that i am NOT looking to stop, but that i am and will always be a moneyslave?

What did i just do?

What did i just do?

Till a few minutes ago i was on Miss Olivia’s videochat… nothing new…but….the really new and never happened before thing for me is that my wife is in the other room ironing….

She is awake…she could have caught my anytime…and this was exciting…really exciting…

Miss Olivia was wearing back deluxe cuban stockings, red high heels and matching lingerie…She was magnificient….

After about 20 minutes i sort of run away…because i just realised what i was doing…what i was risking…even though…something tells me that, later on, i will go back there…

Her greedy and powerful look

Her greedy and powerful look

I am weak, and that’s a fact i’ve learned the hard way. But i also understood that i am weak only when i am…made weak. Usually i’m a quite strong man but… how can anyone resist Diva’s look?

The other night i went to see her again…well, to be honest, she ordered me to.. and while i was there…she gave me this look, while asking for money.

How, how, how can anyone resist this look? Made me so weak that…i don’t even remember how much she drained me…well… i do… but it’s better if i don’t say it…a lot, really a lot of money… but again…that’s the power of Her greedy look.

I’m free… for now

I’m free… for now

I said that i needed a break from One Great Diva, and she actually answered from her blog.

So yes… i’m free from her, as She said i can be teased by others too…so i should be feeling better but… it’s obviously just a temporary thing.

“I know that anytime i get back or i find some free time to be online he will get weak under my royal feet”

And that is so true…i can feel it…but i don’t want to think about it now. As i said, i need to look around…i need to get some “fresh air”…as i am more or less intoxicated by Her…can’t stand it anymore… i will visit other Mistresses…and i know i’ll fall again…because i’m weak. But perhaps, it won’t be as close to bankruptcy as it was with One Great Diva.

Financial Domination: she brought me back

Financial Domination: she brought me back

Article originally posted on April 18th, 2011

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It seems it was silly for me to even think Financial Domination could have been over… She brought me back into it with a…”virtual slap” i could say.

One Great Diva caught me online the other night… at first i was acting strong, well i was actually sure to be strong enough..but her attitude, her beauty, her power…made me fall all over again into Financial Domination.

She got 300$ in half an hour…and more via tributes… it’s like nothing has changed since she first made me a money slave, more than one year ago. I was so sure to be over it, to be able to control it…and then…here i am… made a money slave again by the one that brought me into Financial Domination at first: One Great Diva.

Miss Olivia: should i really run away?

Miss Olivia: should i really run away?

One year has passed since i’ve started this blog. As the name suggests, i was and still am (i think) trying to run away from my financial slavery addiction: too much money spent, too much risk to spend even more. I had to stop.

But after a year of failure, as i ended up spending even more, i think i met the one Mistress that really made me think, for the first time, if this decision to run away is what i really want.

Could it be that i just want to…take a break? Let this bad financial moment in my life pass, and then start again as before? Why should i deny what i am? Why should i deny what really excites me?

I met Miss Olivia online a few days ago, one of those nights when my need to be dominated is higher than my desire to run away from that. Of course she immediatly shocked my for her bauty, but what really made me think a lot in the following days is how that videochat went.

We had a long, interesting, facinating, surprising conversation. It was like she could read my mind, my emotions, my thoughts as no one before. At one point she asked me “Are you sure you want to run away?”. I didn’t answer to that question, i didn’t have an answer. At least not a complete honest answer. And i still don’t.

Her intelligence is beyond anything you can imagine to meet, especially online in a videochat. You can feel how her mind is superior than yours, and one thing that you notice immediatly is that it’s not easy to be accepted as her slave.

She doesn’t take anyone. First she wants to understand the way you are, what you are really looking for, what are your desires. And after that…she is the one deciding if you are worth her attention or not. In my case… all we did was talk, even in a nice way…but at the end of that chat… i just couldn’t stop thinking about her. More than any other Mistress i met before. She is into my brain, and there is no way i can let her go now. And i believe this is because she KNOWS i could be really and deeply submitted only by words, only by a beautiful woman that would use words in a perfect way.

So i’m here today asking myself: how can i run away from Miss Oliva? Is that what i really want? Will i be able to stay away from her for long?

It has been a long year, mostly spent (literally) with the three Mistresses that brought me into all this mess (OneGreatDiva and MsClassy)…but now that a new year starts…it seems that another one, Miss Olivia, will put a stop on all my intentions to run away.

I am confused tonight…especially because i am writing these things and i don’t feel, inside my brain, the usual voice saying “this is wrong, you need to run away”. The only voice i hear into my brain is Miss Olivia’s, and she’s saying:

Are you sure you want to run away from me?

This time, shoes made me weak

This time, shoes made me weak

It’s always Her, Sheena. She’s the most dangerous of all the mistresses that are hitting me…she’s always online when i’m feeling weak, and she seems to have this sort of special power to always know what to show and how to show it in order to make me pay…and pay…and pay…

This time she made something that she never did before: she showed me lots of different kind of shoes, always modelling them and dangling them in front of me. That was almost hypnotic for me…i couldn’t resist…and when she ordered me to pay… i just did…as a robot…

Total failure

Total failure

Ok, it’s not going well at all. I’ve started this blog hoping that i would have been able to win this fight, hoping that i would have been able to resist the temptation…

Well it seems i can’t. I’ve already spent 8 thousand dollars so far this year, and it doesn’t look that i’m going to stop.

The thing is… these women know how to make me weak. They know it well and they do it also because…they probably know better than me that this is what i really want.

It’s exciting to let their beauty and teasing take advantage of me… it’s exciting and dangerous.

My newest nightmare: MsClassy

My newest nightmare: MsClassy

I thought i had enough Mi$tre$$e$ to worry about, with Diva and others, but i was way wrong… seems like there was still space for something those two didn’t “hit”…

A few nights ago i was online, wandering if i would have been safe, as none of those two seemed to be online… i made the mistake to start browsing profiles here.. and then i saw her: MsClassy. From the pictures i immediatly saw her perfect feet… honestly, i had never ever seen such perfect feet in my entire life… i was like drooling on the screen… i had to go and see her live. Moreover because, at first, i didn’t see she was a Financial Mistress…so i thought to just go in and see her feet.

Boy i was wrong. She immediatly understood how feet make me weak…and she used them to hypnotize me and… rape my wallet. I spent more than an hour on her videochat, and those were not the only money i spent.

She has an incredible face that can move from angelic to evil in a second, and when she put her cam on the floor… i was just unable to go anywhere.

So yes… now i have another nightmare to worry about: MsClassy. She even gave me a video and ordered me to put it online…and i did it…of course.