Your Money Slave is running away

Let’s face it: i’m addicted to slavery

Why should i keep denying this?

My problem it’s not having gorgeous and powerful women (like Sheena and Diva)  using my fetishes to control and ruin me… my problem is that i’m addicted to slavery.

Whenever i’m online and i don’t see any of the two Queens that are ruining me….i just go and look for other Queens (in the places i’ve actually listed here on the right), in the hope to find someone else as powerful and gorgeous as they are.

Usually i don’t find anyone as great as them (actually i never did, otherwise you would hear about it in this blog), but still…i keep spending money looking for…someone else who can rape my wallet as well as they do.

I’m addicted to slavery, let’s face it.

Tags: addicted, addiction, Diary, diva, Mistress, OneGreatDiva, sheena, slavery

Diva is back: now i’m really fucked

I thought i already had enough problems with Sheena dominating me…but i was SO wrong… Sheena wasn’t actually the one who brought me into this, she wasn’t the one who made me a mondey slave… that was One Great Diva.

Last year she literally raped my wallet in a few days… i was SO scared (seriously) that i blocked her on every way possible.

And that worked… till last night…i don’t know how She found me, i don’t know how She got my contact…all i know is that i received an E-mail saying just this:

I’m gonna be online in 5 minutes. I am dressed to rape your wallet. You want me to do that, you were born to be raped by me. Be there, open your wallet and watch me rape it.

I was like hypnotized. Just couldn’t control myself. I immediatly went to Her room, waited for Her to come online and entered Her video.

She raped my wallet as Sheena never did before. She’s mean, she’s powerful…and now i’m really fucked.

Tags: hypnotized, Mistress, moneyslave, OneGreatDiva, rape, sheena, wallet, weak, WildStorm (Sheena)

The one and only Diva: a video

I had to make a video of her… just to show everyone how powerful she is… even if, i have to say, there is no way you can understand her power unless you go and see her live.

She’s mean, she’s smart, she’s gorgeous, she’s sexy… and yes, she WILL rape your wallet…that’s what she did to me…and what she keeps doing… because i just can’t escape from her… i can’t… and maybe… i don’t.

Tags: goddess, OneGreatDiva, power, rape, stockings, video, wallet

Who am i kidding?

It’s not over. It was for just a few days…then… one night i logged in…and saw HER online…the one it all started with…the one that i will probably never be able to forget or resist. My one and only Diva was there…online… i went into her videochat… and… it all started again.

I didn’t post till now on this blog because i was too ashamed…but…what can i say… my fight is on again…although i totally failed my first goal. On the “Current Status” page i wrote down, at the beginning of this, that i wanted to spend a total of 1000$ this year…well go and check it… i’m 4 times over it… and i don’t seem to be able to stop… unless until One Great Diva will show up online…

I will keep posting from now on…

Tags: Diary, failure, Mistress, moneyslave, OneGreatDiva, status, videochat, videosession

When a photo “scream” my name

I have to admit, although i am trying to quit from being a Moneyslave, i still have the “need” to check out the newest photos “my” Mistresses put online. Today i came back from a short vacation so, as soon as i remained alone, i went to check their galleries…

And sometimes, when i look at some photos, i get the impression that those photos had been taken thinking about me, screaming my name, calling me to action… giving me the order to go and serve the Mistress. It’s like the photos OneGreatDiva posted a few days ago (and that i post here)… those are my favourite poses… and i DO remember we spoke together many times of how much i found irresistible those golden sandals, especially if with nylons on… it’s really like she took them thinking about me…

I am starting to think that i won’t be able to resist long… the temptation to let these beautiful women use my fetishes to ruin me is so strong…

Tags: CamContacts, Mistress, moneyslave, OneGreatDiva, photo, temptation

Should a Mistress smile?

Just random thoughts coming to my mind… during the many videosessions i made last year, one thing always brought me “down”: a natural, nice, cute smile of a Mistress.

I am not saying a Mistress should never smile, of course…who am i to say that? but during a session i think she should laugh yes, to humiliate the slave, but smile? No, never. Not even if the slave manages to do a nice joke, or if he keeps telling her how beautiful she is.

She is superior, she should expect to be worshipped, and instead of smile she should laugh at his slave or, if she doesn’t laugh, she should make a nasty smile, a “knowing” one…the classic smile that says “yes, you are mine now”.

Not many mistresses understand this, but when they do…that’s a winner over me… the first two coming to my mind now that totally understand and use this against their slaves are OneGreatDiva and WildStorm: two of the mistresses i spent more on…of course…

Tags: laugh, Mistress, OneGreatDiva, smile, thoughts, videosession, WildStorm (Sheena)

OneGreatDiva: the night that started all

Till last may i didn’t really know anything about my money slavery… all i knew was that i found it fascinating. Yes, a woman using my fetishes to tease me, drive me crazy and obtain information or money from me was…fascinating. But i’ve never really thought to try it.

That is until 1st May 2009.

That night i came accross Goddess Alexandra profile on Camcontact. As usual i first went to see the pics…and you can see from the few i post here (taken from my first videosession with her) that she’s gorgeous, sexy, sure of herself, dominant even with just a look. Then i went to read her profile… and a few things wrote there really hit my mind:

“I’m one of those maneaters you were warned about”
“I’m cerebral and stealthy”
“what I say goes”
”I’m a soft, classy, seductive, intelligent goddess that commands respect by taking it. I don’t have to yell at you to get it. “

So i decided to enter into her videochat. After 4 minutes, as soon as she started putting her stockings on, it happened. She ordered me to come into her 1on1 video…and i couldn’t say no. I just did it. And spent there half an hour… something i never did before.

But that night, when i left her, i knew i was under her control. I knew i would have come back. I knew she discovered something inside me that i didn’t even know existed before…i knew it was the beginning of something new… dangerous and exciting…

Tags: 1on1, heels, Mistress, moneyslave, OneGreatDiva, photo, stockings, video, videosession