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Every PayPig’s biggest problem: the rush

Every PayPig’s biggest problem: the rush

One of the things that always upset me more about my Financial Domination “life” is the amount of money that I end up wasting: lately, I think I identified where the main problem is, but before getting into that, let me explain what I really mean about wasting money in Financial Domination.

Here’s what wasting money on Financial Domination really means

First of all: if I thought that Financial Domination is just a waste of money, I would have stopped years ago. That is NOT what I think. Financial Domination is part of who I am, of my sexuality, and spending money on this makes me feel sexually satisfied. BUT. Not all money spent on Financial Domination is spent wisely. 

I had countless bad sessions, I’ve sent countless tributes to goddesses I end up spoiling just 2 or 3 times in 12 years, countless sessions that left me just angry with myself for days after they happened. 

Wasting money for me means paying for a session that ends up being totally unsatisfying. It means finishing the session and, for many days following it, keep thinking “damn If only I had spent that money with one of the best Goddesses out there…“. That is precisely the whole point. My wasted money is the one spent for a session I really don’t enjoy, especially if, rationally, I could have easily spotted it was going to be a bad session…but I decided to do it anyway. And the main upsetting thing is the thought that that money could have gone to a way more worth Goddess, if only…

The biggest problem: the rush

Picture this. It’s late at night, you are home alone, and you feel the urge to have a session. You start browsing the internet looking for one of the best Goddesses you know, hoping one of them will be online to drain you as good as you feel you need. But no one of them is around. No one. 

The rush of having a session is still there (or, better said, you are still excited as f**k), so you start looking around camsites or Twitter, searching for some Goddesses you never served before that, judging from what you can quickly see, could still give you what you want. 

That’s it. This is what will most probably make you waste money. 

No good decision ever arrives from being in a rush. Even more, if you are in a rush AND excited. If you are running from one site to another, in a desperate attempt to find a great Goddess, most of the time you will end up settling down with a girl that “more or less” can have potential…and she will not. Believe me. You WILL waste your money.

The solution: use your brain (the one inside your head)

I know very well how we all feel in these moments, and which brain we are actually using (hint: not the one inside your head). We could easily solve the problem and don’t waste money, but we fail because we just can’t think straight. Again, we are not using the brain inside our heads. 

What would the solution be? Easy: when that kind of situation arrives, get off those sites and just wank! Wank on your own, cum, and forget about that feeling. Then, when you are NOT excited or in a rush, browse the internet looking for new “potential” Goddesses. Follow them, see what they post, what they do, how they do things. In time you will get a pretty good feeling of those that could potentially be a good “fit” for you, and if you are lucky enough one of them will be online the next time you are in this situation.

It’s true that, in the end, we are all just a bunch of wankers. But what we are looking for is more specific than others and, often, more difficult to find. We usually need a connection with the Goddess, we need Her to behave, talk and act exactly as we dream her to do. There are many great Goddesses out there, but finding them takes time and dedication. It’s never a good idea to jump into a session with someone you’ve never seen before. 

Stop the rush, calm down (yeah, wank to do that), relax and use that brain. You will have other chances with the Goddesses you crave for, no one ever died for not having a financial domination session. Just calm the f**k down in those moments, and don’t waste money.

She’s my new obsession: Smart, Beautiful, Greedy, and… always wearing nylons

She’s my new obsession: Smart, Beautiful, Greedy, and… always wearing nylons

She is m
y new financial domination obsession

I have visited countless Goddesses in the last 12 years, and only a few had a true effect on me. With some of them, I had more than a few sessions, a few became a very important part of my Financial Domination life. But there is only a handful of them that I am and will always be really obsessed with. You know who they are. Well, in December I had my first session with the one who quickly became part of that restricted group. 

The definition of the word obsession

What I consider an obsession

In my (pretty long) experience with online sessions, I can tell there are a few different reasons why I get back for a second, third, or more session. For sure the Goddess in question is exciting, probably knows the power of nylons on me, and most probably triggered my deepest fantasies. So I get back for more because I’m looking for that excitement I experienced the first time. 

But this is not an obsession for Her, it’s just me looking for more excitement, for another session as exciting as the previous ones. The only thing I have in my mind about sessions with this kind of Goddesses is how hot she looks and moves, most of the time. Nothing more. 

When I’m obsessed instead, there are way more reasons for me to crave more sessions:

  • She got inside my head 
  • She is not “just” beautiful
  • Her brain is even more powerful than her beauty
  • She made me experience things I didn’t expect to

Why she is an obsession

As you can imagine, the one I’m talking about also has so much more than just beauty. The first session I had with Her lasted 2 hours. And there are so many reasons why I enjoyed it. I won’t even talk about Her beauty, because it would be even too obvious: She is absolutely stunning, but there is way more!

In those two hours, we also laughed a few times, as she managed to be funny as well. We also talked about normal things like in a casual conversation (well, as casual as it can be talking while looking at such a beautiful Lady). She then made me try a couple of things I never tried before (won’t go into details, that’s personal), and that I didn’t even think could have excited me…but of course, they did. Big time. 

When the session ended, I didn’t feel just satisfied. I felt happy. Happy to have spent those two hours with such an exceptional Lady. Happy to have had the luck to discover such a Goddess. And I felt eager….eager to see Her again as soon as possible. Or, better said, as soon as my wallet would have been ready again for such a deep drain.

So who is she?

By now I’m quite sure you want to know her name, and how you can see her online. She calls herself UltimateGoddess and I don’t think any name has ever been more right. As always, a word of wisdom: if you are not ready to be completely drained by her, to be made her weak slave, to put yourself at Her mercy (which she doesn’t actually have, I’m afraid)…don’t read any further. 

If instead, you want to see Her online, then all you have to do is click here and visit her room, or go to this page to see if she is online. 

What now?

I am not planning to resist the temptation to serve Her, because it brings me happiness and joy, to be honest. But I need to find a balance between my desire to give everything to Her and my actual finances. As you know, I truly believe that the only way to enjoy Financial Domination is to keep a balance between what we desire and what our real-life allows us to do (and spend). It won’t be easy, and it will surely be my biggest challenge for the coming weeks and months. Rest assured that I will keep you all updated on this blog, as I usually do. 

Cover photo by Heiner

Goddess Ishtar: One look and you are doomed

Goddess Ishtar: One look and you are doomed

I have been amazed by Goddess Ishtar beauty and power for ages now, and my devotion to Her keeps going stronger and stronger each time I look at her (either on video or just on a picture) because She has something in Her that no one else has, something that will put you on your knees just by looking at her.

The look in her eyes

I strongly believe that, even if it’s “just” a cam session, eye contact is one of the most powerful ways for a Goddess to make her slave do whatever She wants. Goddess Ishtar brings this concept to the highest possible level: she will look right in the cam in such a deep way that you will basically feel like she’s looking inside yourself. 

Her eyes won’t even blink, they will be glued to the camera, looking directly at you, directly at all your weaknesses and desires. 

It happened to me countless times: whenever She wants to somehow “confirm” Her power on me (as if there is any need, actually…), She will do that. Looking gorgeous as She does, dressed in one of the magnificent ways She always does, She will just look right into the camera…and it will feel like She’s looking right at me, directly in my eyes.

Often I end up looking down, as I’m not able to resist looking into her eyes for too long…I have to admit, I ended up blushing more than once. All alone, here in my room, I end up blushing and looking down, unable to keep looking at Her, unable to bear that look for too long.

I mean…look at this picture:

And tell me if you don’t feel Her power the same as I do…if you don’t feel the urge to click here and go serving Her right now, with no hesitation. I’m sure it’s not just me…besides…She’s one of the most powerful out there… and this is just one of the many reasons why She is…

The 10 commandments of a moneyslave

The 10 commandments of a moneyslave

I have been a moneyslave for nearly 12 years now, and I think my experience can be useful to those just starting up into this. Through these years I made mistakes, lots of them. But I also spent some fantastic time with beautiful Goddesses. And I believe my success also comes from following some rules that, I believe, every slave should follow. So there they are and, please, you are more than welcome to comment on these.

1 – Don’t lie to a Goddess

If you like to a Goddess, you will be the first one to suffer from that. Your session with Her won’t be as great as it could have been and, in time, she will find out about your lies and lose trust in you

2 – Don’t hide your true nature

This is very important especially during the first sessions you have with a Goddess. She can’t read your mind, She needs to know exactly what you are into so that she can give you the session you dream of

3 – Don’t settle for less

It’s always tempting to spend less money. You see two Goddesses that are somehow of interest to you (or look like it). One is clearly cheaper than the other one, but she is also less beautiful, has less style. You still like her, but not as much as the most expensive one. Well, don’t go with the cheaper one just because you want to save some money. You will end up spending with the cheaper AND spending with the most expensive one since you will crave for Her anyway. 

4 – Let go of your regrets

It’s difficult to avoid regrets. We all have them one time or another. But focusing on them, or letting them turn us away from our true nature is simply wrong. You are doing what makes you feel happy, you spent what you could spend at that moment. Don’t regret it.

5 – Never be a freeloader

If you really consider yourself a moneyslave, you will never, never, ever pretend ANYTHING for free from your Goddess. Always remember the value of Her time, the value of Her attention. And act as you acknowledge it.

6 – Think about your loved ones

It’s easy to lose control for us, but that never has to take your mind totally away from your family. If anything, take some precautions. Make it more difficult for yourself to spend more of the budget you thought. Your loved ones might be hurt by your actions: don’t let that happen.

7 – Respect the roles of the game

You are the slave, She is in charge. All the time. Never think for a moment that it can be anything different than this. She’s not your friend, She’s not any Woman: she’s your Goddess. And you always have to treat her as such.

8 – Don’t waste your time

The internet is full of girls (or even guys pretending to be girls) that think financial domination is easy money. They think all it gets is to ask for money from a slave, call him in some dirty ways, and he will just pay them. Don’t be THAT slave. If they think like this it’s because we’ve let them think like this, and we must work together to stop this nonsense. There are some of us who simply can’t distinguish a real Goddess from a fake one: this has to stop. Look around, document yourself, or simply compare those instadommes with the real Goddesses out there. Do they act the same? Do they do the same things, in the same way? Can’t you really see the differences? I know you can.

9 – Always thank Her

At the end of every session, or after she allows you to tribute her, you must always thank her. She just gave you what you wanted, she just spent some of her precious time with you, and she allowed you to spend some truly exciting time with her: the least you can do is be polite and thank Her for this.

10 – Write your own story

Each one of us is unique, there is no need for you to pretend to imitate someone else or to even compare yourself to others. You are who you are and, providing you will follow all these commandments, your experience as a moneyslave will be as valuable as the others. Other slaves can have different tastes, different amounts of time and money to dedicate to this, different things they like: but they are not you. Be yourself, enjoy financial domination as you think it’s best for you, and don’t compare yourself to others. If anything, look for ideas, suggestions, tips from other slaves: but never think their story can be exactly like yours. And also stop thinking because you have less money than them, you can’t be a good moneyslave. Financial Domination is about submission, total financial submission. The amount is not important, it’s how much it really means to you that is important.

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Happiness is in a session with Goddess Ishtar

Happiness is in a session with Goddess Ishtar

One of the key signs to understand if the Goddess you just had a session with is “The One” has to be the way you feel right after it. Too many times we, slaves, feel sad or even angry after a financial domination session.

It can happen of course. Even though we had a great time, as soon as the session ends we stop thinking about the Goddess we’ve served and just realize how much we’ve spent and, perhaps, think about how else we could have spent the same money. So the regret starts. And with it comes sadness or, sometimes, anger with ourselves or the goddess. 

But what if you feel happy after a session?

That’s exactly how I feel each and every time I have a financial domination session with Goddess Ishtar. I feel happy, satisfied, relaxed. I feel like the money I gave her were way well spent, I feel like I just had the best time of my life (and it keeps getting better) and there is no way I could think my money would have been better spent in a different way.

Serving Goddess Ishtar in her videochat room means letting a superior woman take good care of you. She knows exactly what you need, even more than yourself. Of course, if you are visiting her for the first time, you need to let her understand the kind of slave you are. But the more time you spend with her, the better you will feel. I speak from experience, having served her for a long time now. 

In all these years there has never been a single time when I ended the session with Her and I felt angry or sad. Happiness and satisfaction have always been the feelings I felt. 

The last session I had with her, as an example, was amazing even just starting by the way She was dressed. A unique (and probably expensive) black dress, black Wolford pantyhose, and Louboutin high heels. Her perfect makeup and long, beautiful hair only made the whole picture so perfect that it took me a few minutes to type even one single word. 

I don’t even know how much I’ve spent, that’s not even the point. The point is that I felt happy, relaxed, and satisfied when the session ended. No regrets, no sadness, nothing. Just positive vibes and feelings.

That’s the kind of magic Goddess Ishtar brings with Her. Because she’s simply… The One

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If you want to be a Goddess, DON’T look cheap

If you want to be a Goddess, DON’T look cheap

First of all, let me say that I’m not quite sure if I already wrote about this matter in the past, but I’m simply too angry to go and check. I just NEED to cool it off by writing it down.

If you want to be considered a Goddess online, don’t look f***ing cheap. Don’t ACT cheap. Don’t DRESS cheap. Don’t TALK cheap. Don’t THINK cheap.

Let’s stop looking at this from the slave/Goddess perspective point of view, and for a moment let’s talk about what you all are really doing here.
What you are doing online is a form of entertainment (one of the best ones, in my opinion), you are making me live a dream, a fantasy. You are actually SELLING me a fantasy. And this particular kind of fantasy involves well… money. More than any other kind of fantasies.

Your role is the one of a Goddess. You are the one every man desire. You are the one who looks down at men and just doesn’t care about them, because you don’t need them or their money. You already have all you want, but you are kind enough to allow slaves to come and worship, serve, and spoil you. That’s your role ok? Focus on this.

Now, for the love of God, why on Earth you would think that details are not important? This is ALL about details! Everything around you matters, everything I see when I look at you matters. Everything you do matters. Everything you say matters. It all counts to build this fantasy.

I’m not here saying everything should be perfect, I’m not that picky of course. But damn…there are a few things that REALLY drive me MAD. An example? Well, let me describe to you what just recently happened that made me write this post.

A few weeks ago I spotted a beautiful Goddess online. Her pictures are great, she seems to be very aware of what I like to call “The power of nylons”, and Her whole image seems perfect. Even what she writes on her profile is great. So, after a while, I decide to go and see Her.

The first night was nice, she was sexy and powerful, only downside was that she had a quite big run on her stockings. No big deal I think, it can happen. Most probably she didn’t notice it until I was in. She could have changed them but…ok, it was just the one time.

On the second night, the run on her stockings is even bigger. Once again, I decided to give her another chance. I really like her, she seems smart, the time we spend together is great…so why not.

The third night, when I look at her, all I can see is the HUGE run on her stockings. She is STILL using the same pair, she didn’t even bother to change them. She didn’t even think it could have mattered.

The fourth night… no, I’m kidding. There is never going to be a fourth night.

Am I exaggerating you say? Really? Shouldn’t I pretend for someone who plays the part of a Goddess to pay attention to, at least, these details?

Have a look at ANY of the Goddesses I’ve been serving in more than 10 years, have a look at them. Click here and visit them, have a session with them. You will NEVER notice something similar, for sure not for two sessions in a row. It can happen to anyone of course, even to them. But what they do is either change immediately or, at least, change after the one session where the issue shows up. It’s called attention to details. It’s called dedication to your work. It’s called respect with the one who’s paying you. It’s called professionalism. And girl, if you don’t have it well… You won’t simply have me as a slave in this roleplay we do. My money is better spent elsewhere.

Sorry for the rant guys…but I just needed to write all this.

Group draining sessions: Not for me

Group draining sessions: Not for me

One of the reasons why it’s probably so difficult to understand the Financial Domination fetish for someone who isn’t into it (well, this is valid for any fetish I’m afraid), it’s because there is not just one single way to enjoy it. And not every slave likes it in the same way.

I’ve been a moneyslave for over 10 years and, especially since I’ve opened this blog, I’ve been in touch with many slaves: sometimes it’s nice to exchange experiences, opinions, or even comfort each other during those many crises every moneyslave goes through from time to time.

One of the things that I get asked a lot (A LOT) is to join a group draining session. Unless you live on another planet or started yesterday in Financial Domination, you sure know what that is.

A few slaves have a session with the same Goddess, all at the same time. They spoil her, they let her use them, humiliate them…one in front of the other one. Very rarely slaves can see each other, but they sure can see how every one of them reacts to the Goddess’s presence and orders. 

Well, I’m sorry but this is not for me. Not at all. I like to live my financial domination in a more direct relationship with the Goddess: I want to be the only one she’s giving orders at that moment, I want to be the only target of her power. With this, I’m not saying the Goddess needs to give me any sort of special attention, in the end, she is the one in charge…but…let’s say I don’t like to “share” her with others when I serve her. 

Is this selfish? Is this a limit I have? Am I missing some big part of the Financial Domination world? Perhaps guys, perhaps. But, as I said before, not every slave is the same…

Fixing my life, thanks to you

Fixing my life, thanks to you

The end of August was kind of a nightmare for me, and you all probably know that by now. When I wrote about my sadness and guilt, I was really down. My wife was hurt, and it was all my fault. I didn’t know what to do, it was really a horrible moment.

But that article was of huge help, especially because of all the wise and nice words I got from many of you. Some wrote to me on Twitter, some added comments here… and it was really what I needed. I will never thank you all guys enough for helping me! Reading other people’s opinions on the situation helped me put things in perspective, sit down, pull myself together, and Do something about it.

If there is something I’m good at, it’s adjusting my behavior when things are going in the wrong direction. I did the same when I found my balance on spendings, and I did the same this time. Or, better said, I’m doing it. My wife comes first, always. Her needs have to be my main concern and, although I will never stop financial domination, I need to adjust the way I am for her to be happier.

I won’t get into many details (but my guess is that you can understand what I am “fixing”), but let’s say that the last three weeks had been great between us, and I couldn’t be happier.

Does it mean I started having financial domination sessions again? Yes, but that’s another story…