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Month: November 2012

About sex and my fetish

About sex and my fetish

It’s all going down the toilet. Lately i’m having less and less sex with my wife…and the weird thing is that the reason is NOT this financial domination fetish. In fact lately i’m finding less and less satisfaction even in this, which is good in a way.

But what’s going on? To be honest, everything BUT sex is going great with my wife…i could say that it’s because i’m working way too much, but this has always been there, at least in the last couple of years… the only reason i can find is that girl in office.

We are close friends since ages, i always thought she’s sexy and we always played (by words) on this, without ever going too far. But lately i’ve been thinking more and more to go further, and i saw little signals from her that could suggest that, maybe, if i try she will agree to have some fun… could that be the reason i’m having less sex with my wife?

Would be crazy… would mean i’m having less sex with my wife because i’m hoping to have sex with another woman? Stupid, plain stupid that would be…especially because that might not even happen.

The thing is that i’m feeling depressed about this…it hurts a lot to see that my wife is obviously disappointed…but at the same time i just can’t find the right energy to do that..the right desire to do it… does she tease me? No, almost never. She surely never do anything sexy to try to get it from me…she says “it should be the man that looks for the woman”…yeah but… she could help me a bit…

I don’t even know why i’m writing all this here…perhaps because this is the only place where i write about my deepest and darkest secrets…don’t know…but… tonight, i really feel down.

My Financial Domination fetish isn’t slowing down

My Financial Domination fetish isn’t slowing down

Seems like one month passed since I last wrote something here about my usual and, probably, never-ending Financial Domination fetish…so why not putting down an update, more to remember myself how things are going than to anyone else.

My goddess asked me (ordered me) to remove all her videos I’ve ever shared online, and so I did it. I’ve actually found it kinda weird, as She was the one telling me at first that She was more than happy about them…but well, I suppose a slave can’t really judge a Goddess order, and surely I can’t if it comes from Her. Needless to say, I’ve been spending a LOT with her in October. Each time I see her, She looks more gorgeous and sexy to me… I don’t know why….but I’m sure if you ever visited Her, you’ll probably agree with me.

I’ve spent A LOT of time with One Great Diva too…actually, She is the one I’ve spent most of my time (and money) with. The reason is her new website: I’m a member of it and I can assure anyone reading this word that, if you join that site, you’ll be more and more addicted to her. In fact, I’ve been sending her lots of tributes lately…something I rarely did in the past…

Then…the best thing happening to me: my dark angel is still around, and we’ve been spending some truly quality time together lately. Lots of talks, lots of laughs, a few teasing…and once she did the sweetest thing I can imagine.
One night I was feeling really, really, really depressed because of some problems with my wife… went into her chat just to say hello and tell her I wouldn’t have been around for long…and I left. A few seconds after she contacted me on messenger, asking what was wrong… And from there we had a nice and kinda long chat where she helped me A LOT in getting back in a really good mood…and she also sent me two pictures that really really helped my mood a lot. The sweet thing is that she did all of this as any friend would do. That’s what I really like about her: she’s herself, all the time. She doesn’t let me “cross the line” and be too close to her (i know nothing about her private life, for example) but still…she acts in a friendly and great way that makes it all so natural and great… of course, that fact that she’s one of the most beautiful and sexy girls I’ve ever seen helps a lot too…

In the end…October was a huge spending month for me…as I’ve spent about 2.500$ This isn’t getting any better, and the page where I keep track of the money I spend is starting to look like a serious problem…