It’s over

I couldn’t take it anymore. I knew she was the only one i should rely on, the only one i should care of, the only one that could help me.

I didn’t sleep at all last night, thinking about her. So this morning… i phoned my wife.

I’ve asked her to go online while we were on the phone. Explained her how it all started, during last May. I told her how much i’ve spent last year, what i was trying to do this year and how bad things were going…. showed her this blog, my twitter, my Facebook.

Then, when i’ve finished and asked her “so…i know i’ve hurted you, but i’m here asking for your help…please, try to forgive me”. She shouted at me, she cried, she told me i disappointed her totally, she told me how stupid i have been…i tried to tell her how much i do love her, how much i care about her, tried to show her i’ve always loved her all this time….she just kept screaming… understandably.

She wants me to go to a psychologist. She thinks i have some sort of problem… and i probably agree with her. I’ll do that. With her. She’s still away though and will be back in two weeks from now, but i will keep phoning her twice a day, or even more. I want her to feel how sorry i am, how i DO love her.

But this. This blog, this twitter, this facebook…this is all over. I won’t log in again. Just a few weeks ago we were planning to have a baby…and tha’t s where i want to go back. Back to us. Back to our life.

It’s over.

Saturday, January 30th, 2010 Diary

2 Comments to It’s over

Telling her was the brave thing to do. im going through the whole addiction myself; difference is i currently dont have a wife or serious girl friend to worry about. So, i salute your coming clean.

But, by seeing a psychologist, i dont think youre tackling anything. Fetishes are not problems, and they certainly can be undone by psychologists. I dont know how liberal you are, but this is the same as claiming homosexuals can be “cured” by psychologists and priests, which is quite a ridiculous notion. Its not a disease.

I think what you and your wife should do is to explore your fetishes together and use them to your benefit. Instead of spending your money on online Mistresses or useless psychologists, have your wife tease you into buying her gifts…

Just my 2 cents…

Good luck.

slave on March 18th, 2010

I live now with my true love …he is my cuckold slave. he told me that he could not find someone that would accept him the way he is. I do …each person is one and when u really love you take all or nothing. he told me pp use to tell him that he i a freak. humans lives in a false moral, false rules created from a false society. priest are supose to be saints but the do comit so many crimes we cant call them freak. why live out your nature is wrong? If your wife would love you she would understand you better. this one side of you why not use this in her favo telling you that fro mnow one she was the one that would abuse you.
anyway is your decision. good luck in you new way!!!